April 17, 2014 Morning Star Venus Tele-Class

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1 April 17, 2014 Morning Star Venus Tele-Class with Cayelin Castell & Tami Brunk 5 th Chakra Gate Cayelin: Welcome everyone! This is the third class and the 3rd Gate/ 5th Chakra for all you Venus sojourners who are joining Tami and I in this amazing journey with Venus. We re so glad you re with us and we re so appreciative of how everybody s been showing up and participating. Thank-you, thank-you, thank-you, thankyou!!!! Tami: Thank-you, it s been amazing! Cayelin: This has been so great. Tami and I are here together here in Tucson, we re so excited. Tami came from Albuquerque to join in a little event that we experienced with the Total Lunar Eclipse on Monday night and a presentation that was given by Brett, Gemini Brett, who is in our group. He did a fabulous job and it was great to be able to be with a group of people for that event. And I just have to admit for myself that I am so completely altered ever since the eclipse. We saw Mars right above the Moon, we saw Spica right next to the Moon and I am not the same! I m getting used to a whole new way of being and I don t know about you Tami? Tami: I ve been traveling, in and out of places for the last few days so getting grounded has been interesting. But it s definitely felt like we are in this kind of magical portal. There s a lot that wanting to come in, and much that came through on the hike Cayelin and I took, which we ll talk about. We stated the intention Ok Grandmothers we want some more insights on this! and it s just flooded through. So yes there s a lot to talk about. Of course - 5 th Chakra! Cayelin: And we also have our fingers crossed we can get it all in in the time and make sure there s plenty of time for questions. So we re excited to have everybody with us. There are a couple of other things I want to share for the new people. We have a Facebook group, which has been an amazing supportive process, so if you are not in that group and you are on Facebook or would like to join Facebook (maybe you haven t had a reason to do that before) it s been tremendously supportive and amazing so we d love to encourage you to join. If you d like to be included you can Tami and let her know or me but Tami s been primarily the one to add members. Tami: The simplest way to do it is to like me on Facebook and I will add you to the group. Cayelin: Also for the new people and maybe a nice reminder for the people that have been in the class with us is that this is an initiatory journey and so things will come up! And they can be amazing, wonderful, expansive, high and wow! kinds of experiences and they can also be a little more challenging where we re feeling more deeply, we re clearing things that have been blocked, so this is about releasing and letting go of the things that hold us back from being wholly who we are. So if that s coming up for you just know that that s part of the process. transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 1

2 Tami: And just to add one other thing to that, I think especially in the Facebook page, the places where we re sharing, it is maybe easier and safer sometimes to share the parts that are uplifting but I would say to you that there are plenty, and any one of us who on any given day might be experiencing the harder parts, the parts that are harder to communicate. So just know that if you do what some of us, like myself do sometimes and just compare yourself and say, Oh I m not having these incredible, magical experiences! maybe it s because there s something you need feel that s in the way of that. Cayelin: Right, that s a good point. And it s great to get the feedback of all the different kinds of things on the Facebook page that people are going through. We know some people have shared they ve had some challenges, which is great because then everybody doesn t feel alone! And I really have appreciated all the posts and insights and I know Tami has too, it s been really incredible. So thank--you for your participation and how you ve been showing up to be a part of that. Do you have any other announcements? Tami: Yes, there s a good chance that our in next call we re going to have a least a brief introduction by Erik Roth, who is the Managing Director of SAMS. He ll be talking about the truly exciting new Mars Teleclass Series that he will be doing with Daniel Giamario. They were really inspired by our group to do that because they felt that for men and for women working with the Mars cycle it would be very beneficial to also have a ceremonial container to go through that process. Especially for those of you who may be going through your personal Mars Return. We will talk more about that again, next time. It ll be supportive to any women who want to develop their inner masculine and the inner sacred marriage, as well as men on the call who want to work with their inner masculine. Cayelin: Yes, just to let you know that is an option that is out and that we will be sharing more about that. Tami: And it will begin in June. Cayelin: Yes, right, cool. I think that s all the announcements for now and so what I d like to do is to open Sacred Space. I invite everyone to just get comfortable and to take a deep breath. I m going to do this in a little bit different way this time than we ve done it in the past and this is an invocation to Inanna. It seems perfect timing to bring in the invocation since we are working with the throat Chakra and invoking speaking - invoking Inanna in a different way than we have in the past. And also just to continue to invite the Circle of Grandmothers and the wisdom and the ways that they ve been helping each of us, how they ve called us all to be part of this amazing circle, so just giving great gratitude to them and how they continue to support this process. As well as the lineage of Shamanic Astrology and all of the ancient ones and the ways that these mysteries have been coming alive and that we get to be participants with the mysteries that have been part of ancient cultures and now are being re-enlivened as we do this together, which is really exciting. So, calling upon all that and the Capricorn archetype, the Goddess that is the expression of the Grandmothers to be present with us, Venus of course in all of her many forms. transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 2

3 Tami: Mmmm, including one that s kind of special which we ll talk about tonight which is Barnumbirr. She is an Aboriginal goddess, Morning Star Goddess from Australia. Cayelin: Mmmm yes. So this invocation is specifically to Inanna but it can include all the forms of the Goddess. Take a moment to center and feel into your heart space and again, just breathing into that heart space and open to receive the words of this invocation of the Holy Priestess of Heaven: I say, Hail! to the Holy One who appears in the heavens! I say, Hail! to the Holy Priestess of Heaven, I say, Hail! to Inanna, Great Lady of Heaven! Holy Torch! You fill the sky with light! You brighten the day at dawn! I say, Hail! to Inanna, Great Lady of Heaven! Awesome Lady of the Annunaki Gods! Crowned with great horns, You fill the heavens and Earth with light! I say, Hail! to Inanna, First Daughter of the Moon, Mighty, majestic and radiant, You shine brightly in the evening, You brighten the day at dawn, You stand in the heavens like the Sun and the Moon, Your wonders are known both above and below, To the greatness of the Holy Priestess of Heaven, To you, Inanna, I sing! Sumerian Hymn translated by Wolkstein and Kramer transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 3

4 Tami: I want to add that the radiance and the beauty of the goddess in that invocation is within each of us. So to men in the circle it s the inner feminine, the radiant inner feminine that s in them and it s the radiant feminine in each of us as women that is invoked, as well as the specific presence of Inanna because this is the Divine Feminine that we re talking about in one of her many forms, which we embody. Cayelin: Right, right, right. Tami: So let me give just a little overview. This call might be different from a couple of the last ones in that we do intend in the future to give you more opportunities to dive more deeply into the Venus Cycle, to work more with the overtone and explore other areas. And in this call we are going to focus quite a bit on the Fifth Chakra itself. Because as we discovered as we were really exploring it, there is so much to really work with in this throat Chakra that to simply just focus on that feels essential. We will talk about the 6 th Gate and anything we are completing there. We ll talk about the Venus Moon Gate, when the next Venus Moon conjunction occurs. And for those of you with your pdf you ll see marvelous images that Cayelin has created with Venus and the Moon and how they will appear in the morning sky on the 24 th, 25 th, and 26 th. We ll give a 5 th Chakra overview and then share some of our insights around the 5 th Chakra from more of a Grandmothers perspective. Cayelin: (jet goes over)the jets are going home I guess for tonight and interesting because they re so loud, which is sound - connects to the 5 th Chakra. I guess we just have to deal with that! Tami: Let s start by talking a bit about some of our experiences with the 6 th Chakra because we still have another week to work with that, at least in my experience sometimes the deepest culmination comes then. We will leap in a moment into this next 5 th Chakra but we still have a little time to just get into the deeper resonance around that. I ll tell my own story about what s coming through with that. Working with the 6 th Chakra, I was very clearly focused on wanting to let go of and release whatever s getting in the way of a deep inner knowing and my own inner guidance. So the first thing I noticed was how much I compare myself to other people and how easy it is to really observe what others are doing and compare my own journey or their choices, So I thought I was seeing a very powerful block. Also I saw how I often take in so much external information that I can shut down my own capacity to bring in my own inner wisdom or guidance. Then I had this real hunger for a strong sense of that inner knowing, so I was asking for that strong inner guidance. And it also just so happens that right now I, like anyone with planets or personal angles in the Cardinal Signs Libra, Aries, Capricorn or Cancer at degrees, am in the cross hairs of the Grand Cross that s going to be happening here in the next few days. So for me, with Pluto and Uranus activating my chart, it s not necessarily a time for me to take clear, middle world action but I had a very strong desire to do so. So one morning I woke up and I was like, I want clear guidance! and I just got this strong hit, transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 4

5 You need to move from Albuquerque June 1 st. I had this sense of joy around making the decision and having this clear sense of knowing and so I immediately told my partner and experienced his reaction he s trying to start a cranio-sacral practice here and it s a big deal for him. There were several things that happened that day: one was that my intuitive hit opened me to the possibility of a shifted relationship with my partner, something that I ve really wanted and needed. I could imagine us opening into a new location, doing new things and that helped me open to new possibilities. My speaking my truth in that moment also brought my partner to a place of recognizing some of his own shadow stuff that he needs to work through. And lastly what happened was that evening we went out to this place we ve never been before and we experienced these amazing petroglyphs right in the heart of Albuquerque. And an alignment I believe to the Winter Solstice Sun as well as potentially a Venus Star which we ll include in the final pdf file. This beautiful Venus Star which appeared as though it might be lined up with Venus s rise in Capricorn around the Winter Solstice. To me it was so interesting that I started opening my heart to where I am, as well. So the way that feels to me is that sometimes when we re working with the 6 th Chakra yes, there s absolutely clear knowing and we should act immediately and yet sometimes there is the need to bring that information in and digest it, work with it and there s something about having that gnosis that sparks other things for us. And sometimes it s about literal action and sometimes it s about symbolic action. Cayelin: Yes, that s great. I really appreciate that experience that you had Tami. For those who are on the Facebook page, I was able to have this incredible activation around the 6 th Chakra. I had gone to the dentist and on my way home I thought, I think I ll just stop and hike in this area and then realized that wait, there s a cave I haven t visited in 8 years the last Venus cycle! And as I m hiking I realize, Oh it s the Grandmothers Cave! Around the time I was introduced to this cave I d been introduced to the idea around how the elder women initiate the women who are in menopause into the sacredness of that particular time. And sometimes the initiation occurs in a literal cave and sometimes it occurs in a cave in the dreamtime, as I shared before. So I was really excited to go and have this experience and I started singing the Grandmothers Song and I was thinking about them as I climbed up to this cave. I was really happy I remembered how to get there. I took a bunch of pictures, you ll see them at the end of the PDF handout we ve sent you, and there are cave paintings. It s a little cave, like a womb and when you go inside and when you speak your voice kind of reverberates and so I was singing in there and was having this whole experience. As I was leaving it started to rain. I was just so excited about the rain because it s so unusual to have rain in the desert at this particular time of year. And then I was thinking about tears, I was thinking about my own grandmothers and how I didn t have a very good experience with my own grandmothers and I started to feel my own tears. And the rain stopped and I was like, No, don t stop, we need you rain! transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 5

6 So then I was having this whole thought around the Grandmothers, my physical grandmothers in this life and then I started to feel the tears about that and also how my children didn t really have a good experience with grandmothers either and I was feeling grief around that, feeling my tears come up. And then the r wind came up and the rain came back and I was like, Oh they re responding to me! I was having this great experience and singing the Grandmothers Song which says Grandmothers weaving the rainbow and I was like, Oh wait, there s gotta be a rainbow! There s rain, there s sun over here, clouds over here and I looked around and I had to hike a little bit of a distance but I came around and I saw this rainbow arching across the top of one of the hills and I was so excited. And then I came around another corner and there was a double rainbow over a kind of pyramid mountain that was sort of lit. So I had this incredible sense that the Grandmothers were responding in such a literal way, having sung the song about them weaving the rainbow and there s the rainbow! And then as I m walking out, I m walking through this little gateway that you walk through and I m like, Wait a second, this is the 6 th Chakra meditation I just created! which was encouraging people to look at rainbows. So it was very exciting and just a very expansive experience to have in this 6 th chakra time. Tami: Yes because one of the things that we ve been working with is the idea of magic, with Inanna specifically giving up her old magic wand and renewing her energy around magic. So that was also part of that. Cayelin: Right and that was very magical. Tami: So here we have one more week to really work with the 6 th Chakra. Be aware that you may have truly profound transformations and breakthroughs in that area and you might also have a greater awareness of what s in the way of really experiencing your inner knowing and your experience of life as magical. Cayelin: And I think too, part of the idea is that this is reminding us to pay attention to the signs in the world of form. You put an intention out there, you ask for support, you have a sense of what you want and how you want to connect with that or what you re trying to clear and what you re asking to clear and then the signs show up, the signs in the world of form do show up and let you know that you re on track. So keeping your attention open to that, your eyes open but also what you might hear or what you might dream about or how it might show up for you in many different ways. Sometimes there are just incredible synchronicities that happen which may not make sense at first but if you think about it in the context of what the intention is and how you ve been working with releasing certain things and so on, then it makes total sense and it feels magical when you put those connections together. Tami: And really it s like a muscle, it s like a practice to begin to see how those things weave together. Just to say a tiny bit more about that experience, sometimes It s the same with dreams, sometimes dreams literally tell us what to do and sometimes it s more symbolic. There s a practice you can do when you ask for guidance as well that helps you to understand what your underlying motivations are so that you can get clear in that way because that s also helpful. transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 6

7 As you prepare to ask the question you want guidance on, whether you will meditate and talk to your grandmother guide or ask for a sign in the world of form, before you ask for guidance, it is a great practice to ask the following questions: What do I want the answer to be? What am I afraid the answer is? and What do I think the answer is? And in asking those questions, you begin to understand what your mind is doing around it and so you can have more clarity to a receive more neutral, clear guidance that comes in through the intuitive function. Cayelin: Right and trying to ask questions in a way that are more open ended not necessarily yes or no, like, Yes go here, no don t go here! But rather, What could be my experience if I do this? Asking the question in a broader sense is really helpful. Tami: Yes, more awareness of how this magic works. Ok, so now we re entering the 3 rd Gate and working with the 5 th Chakra and if you ve got your pdf up you ll see that if you go out April 24 th you ll see that the Moon is approaching Venus and also approaching Neptune. You can t see Neptune with the naked eye but Neptune is going to be part of this actual experience because the Moon will be conjunct Neptune and bringing in the transmissions from Neptune before it actually conjuncts with Venus. And Venus just connected with Neptune, so there is that emphasis as well. Cayelin: And Neptune is connected to the Celestial World, it s connected to the Field of All Possibilities, visions and dreams but it also can be about where we have illusions. Being conscious of the fact that it has to do with perceptions interestingly as well, how we are perceiving reality? Sometimes our perceptions are based in illusions! So that s very 6 th Chakra, as we go into the 5 th Chakra we re going to have this one more shot of Neptune before we get to the 5 th Chakra Gate with the Moon passing by there. Just to give us another opportunity to deepen or to get another revelation or some deeper insight into what maybe our illusions have been and what are the new perceptions that are coming through in regard to the 6 th Chakra Gate. The exact Venus Moon conjunction will take place on the 25 th at 1:03pm Pacific Time, 4:03pm Eastern Time. There s also another slide here that was a little earlier in the morning, so if you got up earlier in the morning, the first slide is 5:30am the sky is brightening, you re not going to see so many stars but if you re up at 4:15am you ll see a darker sky and you ll maybe even see some other stars that are out at that particular time just something for those who like to get up early. On the 25 th around 5am, I created this slide from a different program and actually Formalhaut which is off to the right of Venus is one of the four royal stars of ancient times and connected to Archangel Gabriel and the messenger. transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 7

8 It s interesting that we have this Venus Moon Gate happening in this area of the sky with this particular star which has to do with being the messenger. It marks the mouth of one of the fish in Piscis Australis and one of the four royal stars and watcher of the South, in that time. So that s just something to know and to connect into. Formalhaut is also about healing addictions! So we ve got that energy coming into play because Venus is in alignment with that star; Venus and the Moon will be near that star at the time of this particular Gate. Then the next slide is showing that again, showing the Moon next to Neptune early in the morning on April 25 th sitting side by side to Neptune, approaching Venus now. It s approaching Venus because the exact conjunction is not taking place until 1:03 in the afternoon or 4:03pm Eastern Time. So on the 26 th is when we ll see the Moon sitting beside Venus in the morning sky, and below Venus. So this is what it looks like in daylight time at 4am on one of the slides on April 26th so that gives you a way to orient, to see where the Moon will be a very tiny crescent sliver of a Moon on the morning of the 26 th low on the horizon. Tami: What you can do which is cool, is that for some of you if it s cloudy or if you can t see it you can just tune in and use the images that Cayelin s made to connect into the energy, if you don t have the ability to actually visually see it. Cayelin: Right, and that s one of the reasons why I love to put the slides in. It gives you a way of at least creating something in your mind s eye if your best opportunity is to meditate with feeling into Venus and the Moon because you can t see them. Tami: Yes, awesome. So this moment, the moment of the entrance into this Gate represents the moment that Inanna is removing her necklace. Cayelin: And in the story it s the lapis lazuli beads that are double stranded beads around her neck. So there s an image of the double stranded beads that are lapis lazuli, but she hands it over to the gate-keeper, she has to remove and give it over. And what she s doing symbolically then is releasing the ways that she has not been able to communicate the truth of her being, to really express through verbal communication but other creative ways of communicating as well and maybe even ways that are distorted. If you were to think about how sometimes people will say something out of reaction that maybe they don t even really mean but is really harmful and hurtful. Or they don t say anything at all because they re afraid to say something, they repress it. So there are ways that we have been communicating that s not healthy for us or for the people that are receiving the communication or not getting the communication because we re not speaking! All of these things are things that she s releasing as she s letting go as she walks through this particular gateway. The throat chakra connects to the neck, the thyroid, the parathyroid. The trachea is connected to the throat chakra and the trachea has to do with we have in the back of our throat something called an epiglottis that covers the trachea when we swallow food but otherwise it s part of how we breathe, so it s all connected. transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 8

9 All this is connected actually to the ears and the nose, the mouth and teeth all connected to this. And the thyroid is a big part of it and you can see an image of the thyroid in one of the pictures in the handout. So when the throat chakra is imbalanced you can be prone to sore throats or laryngitis because you re not speaking or there are things you want to say but you can t speak. Or if there are things you ve been saying that aren t kind or aren t helpful or aren t supportive so your voice gets shut down. Mouth ulcers, interestingly scoliosis, not sure why that s connected to the imbalance but if we think of the neck connected to the spine and if there s curves in the neck or the spine, which scoliosis usually connects to, would represent an imbalance in the throat chakra. Swollen glands, gum or tooth problems, TMJ lot s of people with this, I actually have a little TMJ. And people with 5 th Chakra imbalances can have thyroid and immune system issues. Interestingly, I just read something about thyroid about 95% of people have an under-active, over-active or something off with their thyroid that s the estimate they have and this was a doctor who is saying take iodine to help your thyroid, so I just threw that in there for whatever that s worth. One of the things that can happen if the throat chakra is imbalanced, say it s excessive then people talk too much, they don t know when to be quiet. Or when to listen, they don t listen to what others have to say. I love this imagery blah, blah, blah, blah, blah and the persons got their head in a vice going, Aaghh! Don t talk so much! People who have maybe an excessive imbalance in their throat chakra may have dogmatic points of view and they re trying to convince you of their point of view, they might be self-righteous and arrogant and critical of themselves but usually it comes across as being critical of others. Tami: So that shows up as the excessive and then the deficient is when we feel sometimes fearful, timid, quiet, or afraid to speak up. We may have difficulty expressing certain feelings, maybe unreliable or inconsistent, may feel devious and manipulative, or lack personal will difficulty making decisions or choices and may lack discernment. Part of what happens is that we re filtering this information from the lower chakras as well as the upper chakras. When we either breathe in something or take food in, this chakra is where we use discernment to know how to process what we re bringing in. So, if we re really balanced then we re really conscious of what we re saying and the words we re using. Cayelin: We re going to talk a little more about this because there have been many ways that the the feminine voice in particular has been repressed. And it can be scary to speak up, I know that there are times when I tried to speak up as a child and had a lot of reaction to that. And then we have this turtle hiding in its shell (image from the PDF) because it s fearful, timid let me just not be seen and I won t say anything and maybe nobody will notice I m here. So that can be some of the challenges of an imbalanced throat chakra as well. Balancing this chakra is about using our voice: singing, chanting, humming, listening to music and gazing at the beautiful blue sky because the color of this chakra is blue. Wearing blue and also doing conscious breathing - transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 9

10 Pranayama, there are different breathing practices you can do that can really help to balance the throat chakra. Also using gems and minerals like blue sapphire, any blue stone really, aquamarine, turquoise, blue topaz, those are all great for helping with the throat chakra. And then essential oils there s frankincense, myrrh, sandalwood, lavender, cypress and it actually says frankincense, myrrh, sandalwood and cypress I think were biblical oils, oils that were connected to ancient Egyptian times and the biblical times as well. So there s a list of a few more essential oils that you can use on the handout. And you can wear those, you can put them on your throat chakra, you can maybe even make a blend of oils to work with for helping to balance your throat chakra. So when the throat chakra is balanced then some of the gifts we get to experience are heightened intuition and telepathy. I would really love to be more telepathic with people, where you don t have to necessarily speak with your voice you can just tap in and connect with them all. And this is also where personal will is aligned with divine will, so you wouldn t have the case where you re talking too much, or you re not saying enough because you re in that alignment. You would know when to speak, when to listen, what to say, how to say it in a way that other people can hear. Content to live in the present moment, that s a really good one, I think, a great one. Ram Dass talked about that years ago in writing a book called Be Here Now, about being in the present moment and I think Eckhart Tolle talks about the power of now. So if the throat chakra s balanced then we re content to be in the now, in the present moment, taking responsibility for our personal needs - not blaming others or having others be responsible for our needs but being able to take responsibility and speak up when we have a need, to be able to express that in a way that people can hear. And this is really a lot about the truth. What is true for you? How do you express that truth? And how do you stay true to what s true for you? That s a really, really important piece. Being considerate and respectful and honest in your communications - sometimes you may have to say some hard things to somebody but how to do it in a considerate and respectful way? This is really important because otherwise it may just create more problems rather than solve problems. When the throat chakra is balanced then there is usually an excellent sense of timing of knowing when to communicate and when to listen. Also these are the people that usually are great speakers, orators and writers. Healthy creative sense of selfexpression, a healthy sense of humor! These are all the things that, as we release the distortions and things that are connected to our throat chakras that are not healthy, this is what we can look forward to feeling and experiencing more of. We may already be experiencing some of this but the idea is that we take this to the next level. Tami: And I just want to add one thing too. The throat chakra has so much to do with our words and the ways that when we give our word that we know what it is that we re saying and that we hold to that as much as we transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 10

11 can. That s one thing, I know for myself that I ve noticed that can be a block keeping our word - and being careful when we give our word in the first place, based on realistic expectations of ourselves. Knowing, again it has to do with knowing ourselves. Cayelin: Right, and what s realistic that we can or can t do. So something that comes up, now that we ve had the 6 th Chakra which connects to our thoughts and what we think and how we see and appreciate our reality, and the 5 th chakra has to do with our words, what we say. And there s an ancient saying, I remember as a kid our thoughts, words and deeds, deeds being our actions. But the piece that s missing and has been missing in our culture is our feelings, so we ll be looking at this when we go to the next gate, when we get to the Heart Chakra, the 4 th Gate which is about our feelings. But this is how we create our reality: What we think, what we say, how we feel and what we do that produces our results. So what we think, say, feel and do are really important and as we get healthier with these chakras, then we ll be healthier in how we re creating our reality. I also do just want to say, my parents were into Science of Mind and Ernest Holmes and we could say their mantra, slogan or saying, the thing that identified the Science of Mind teachings was: Change your thinking, change your life. But also change what you speak about, change your life; change your feelings, change your life; change what you do, change your life. All of these things are part of this co-creative process of how we re creating our reality and being conscious of them. And the first two are of course our thoughts and words because our thoughts are going to affect our words. So being conscious of what we say and how we say it is really important. There are a couple of slides that show this on the handout which you can see and then a great quote from Lao Tzu who said, WATCH YOUR THOUGHTS; THEY BECOME WORDS. WATCH YOUR WORDS; THEY BECOME ACTIONS. WATCH YOUR ACTIONS; THEY BECOME HABITS. WATCH YOUR HABITS; THEY BECOME CHARACTER. WATCH YOUR CHARACTER; IT BECOMES YOUR DESTINY. LAO TZU Tami: So it s not just words. Thoughts are important and then also words because they are the beginning of the concretization of our thoughts. Cayelin: And our actions. So our thinking and then what we say and that becomes what we do and then that becomes our destiny. And we are in charge of that, ultimately! Tami: Essentially, as Cayelin and I have been talking about this throat chakra what s come through really so strongly is just how the feminine voice has been silenced so powerfully. And when I say feminine I do mean for both women and then also any individual who is speaking up for more of a feminine paradigm. transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 11

12 Speaking the truth of the feminine perception is something that has been dangerous in the past and when you think about the throat for example, one of the first really vivid images that came to me was of how probably so many of us have been strangled in the past, we may have had our heads cut off, some may have had their tongues cut out, there are many ways that at that point in our bodies we may have experienced pain. So that lives in our ancestral memory if we re talking about the Grandmothers, the ancestors, that s also something to understand, to consider how, if the voice of the feminine were to rise again in women and men, what that would take? That s our question now. You will have more clear questions in the Home Play but also, as always Cayelin will integrate some aspect of that question into the visualization that we ll be working with. But just to consider. It s really going to be interesting to see what comes up for us as a group because these are powerful blocks we re talking about and part of what you can think about is just all the different sounds that have been repressed it s ok for us to make certain sounds but how many of us really practice wailing or we sob privately or how many of us scream and know how to do that? How many of us know how to yell joyfully? Really consider do we have full expression with our voices? Are we courageous enough to sing, even if we re a little off key or we might not know all the words? I feel sometimes in our modern culture especially, we re so repressed but there are so many reasons for that. Cayelin: Right. When Tami and I were talking about this I was sharing with her that I know as a kid growing up and probably many of us on the call remember this, my parents would say, Children are to be seen and not heard! (laughs) So they didn t want to hear what we had to say and my parents took it to an extreme where if I was talking too much according to their opinion, they would actually tape my mouth shut so that I couldn t talk, or I would be slapped, I d be sent to my room, I d be spanked, whatever they could do to silence me and I was sometimes a little outspoken (laughs) like, that s not fair! They were very authoritarian and of course the children didn t have right answers, the parents had the right answers. So I learned to be quiet, learned to hide and I learned to not speak up and I also learned to have a lot of fear that if I did speak up it could be painful, a painful experience. Many of us have had that experience. Tami: Yes, like mouth washed out with soap, those are all common things because you didn t say the right words or you said too many Cayelin: Right, I had my mouth washed out with soap, probably because I said something that I d heard and just repeated and I didn t know that that was not a good word and then I m being dragged off to the bathroom to have my mouth washed out with soap, like, Great! Tami: Yes, so there are many reasons why, in our own individual lives and then much, much, much deeper than that. The 5 th Chakra is so powerful and so beautiful that we re willing, as a collective to do the work to create the clearings around that. transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 12

13 Cayelin: I just want to say something too about the wailing or keening experience. In many cultures that was the job of the women, when someone died, for the person who died to be mourned, even if there wasn t a personal family member, it was just part of their tribe or community, the women would all gather together and wail or keen. I had an experience where we actually had an event where a person was found dead and I was the one that found her and I came back and told the group that was there and we did shamanic ceremony right away. But I found myself being the one who was wailing and keening for her, and I didn t want to! I was trying not to but fortunately there was a woman standing next to me who took a step behind me and whispered in my ear and she said, You need to let that go, you need to really get into that. And so I did because without her encouragement, I probably wouldn t have. We had about 25 people in this group and afterward many, many of the women came up to me and said, Thank you so much, you helped me so much by doing that, which was not what I expected at all because I was kind of embarrassed, actually. Tami: Wow, that s so powerful and it reminds me of Martin Prechtel, an author and shaman who had lived with the Tzutujil Mayans on Lake Atitlan in Guatemala for many years. He said that when someone dies in that culture, the people must grieve them very powerfully, and fully. The soul needed the weeping, and powerful expressive grieving as energy in order for their soul to travel to the next dimension. So if you didn t do that then they stayed close, they became hungry ghosts. So that s another example of how original people knew we need to really be expressive in our grief. And it s something many of us don t know how to do. Cayelin: Yes. One of the things I ve done in the past because you don t want to upset other people, have them get freaked out like, Oh my God! Now what do we do? This person is screaming! So you can go to your room, turn on your music and you can scream into your pillow. And it can be so liberating! And you can do that instead of, you know, like kill somebody, when you really want to take that energy out on them and you just scream until you re exhausted or sometimes your throat hurts but it s so liberating to do that. Probably something that would be a great practice for everyone to do. Tami: That will be on your essential Home Play too, so just wait and see what we have in store for you! (Much laughter) So again, we ll have a list of questions and we ll have some really awesome Home Play for you this time that we ll be really excited to see and get your responses in terms of how this all plays out for you all. And to me it seems as though there s just been some really awesome magic that s been happening for Cayelin and I as we ve been working with these mysteries. And it feels as though when we re connecting with the Earth element of Capricorn, and with the animals and in the magic of the Earth realm, it s like the Grandmothers are telling us more about these mysteries. Cayelin: Right, just this was last week I out was out for a hike and I was asking the Grandmothers (I m always asking them!) for support and, send me a sign! Or help me. and I was on this trail where I had seen a blue lizard, (blue being the throat chakra), a few years ago with my daughter. and it was a good sized lizard, was transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 13

14 one of the biggest lizards I d ever seen, besides Gila monsters and I was thinking it would be really cool to see one because I have never seen one since. At that time it has popped up as one of those signs in the world of form to confirm something we were talking about. And I was on the same trail and I was thinking it would be really cool if the Grandmothers would send me another lizard right now. So on my way back I was off the trail and almost back to the parking lot and a big Gila monster, you can see it in the picture in the pdf that we sent you, was crossing the path in front of me. And I was like, Ok that s so cool! I didn't get the blue lizard but I got the Gila Monster. And I got to walk along with it as it was moving off into the desert and noticed that it was sticking it s tongue down on the ground and thought, That is so cool! And that is so throat chakra! Then I went and did a little research and of course the Gila monsters are in a sense descendants of the dinosaurs, they re one of the oldest animals on Earth and I think about the Grandmothers and working with the ancient wisdom and how the Gila Monsters are a great symbol for that. And I was thinking that they actually use their tongue to hunt and to receive information about their environment. They can actually go a whole year without food or water, they can store it in their body so they have this ability to sustain themselves which feels very Capricornian. They actually spend 95-98% of their time underground so they are very rare to see and I ve lived in Arizona for about 36 years and I ve seen them only 5 times. And that s actually a lot because obviously they re not going to be seen very often. This was in broad daylight and they re usually nocturnal and this particular Gila monster was almost 2 feet long. They can weigh up to 5 lbs and they can have been reported to live for over 35 years in captivity so that s really amazing. The Navajo see them as the healer, the protector, re-generator and they have a mythic story that somehow when the Sun was blown apart that the Gila Monster was the one that took all the pieces and put the Sun back together. And also they are poisonous so you don t want to get too close, you don t want them to bite you. But they don t usually bite, when they re out is when they re hunting and it s very rare for somebody to get bit by a Gila Monster unless they re being very foolish. Now their venom is being used to treat Type 2 diabetes. The Navajo will only speak their name as a prayer and this is like a medicine animal, I think it s connected to the throat chakra. For anybody that feels resonant with this it s also about finding your own truth and is linked with divination and intuition because the Gila Monsters were thought to help them figure out how to do healing. When the Gila Monster walks it s front legs shake, they have claws that look like hands and they shake and in the Navajo tradition they have hand shakers and those are the people that can help determine if somebody is ill and then what to do to help heal them. Tami: So what s interesting too is that Cayelin had just seen the Gila Monster and the day before I d been doing research and just out of the blue, after an hour or so the Gila Monster shows up, just randomly and I was like, Ok, there s something about this. It was pretty clearly about the throat chakra the way they inject their venom but also the way that they chew their food, the way they digest their food - they have very strong jaws, their chewing motion is very powerful. transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 14

15 Also, it was believed that their breath was poisonous, so to me it also has something to do with the power of digestion, really powerful digestion, it brings that in but also again, watching how we use our words and how powerful our words are. Cayelin: Right because they can be healing or they can be poison. Tami: There were many different cultures who saw the Morning Star as being a Goddess or a divine figure and there is a tribe in Australia who had believed that Venus Morning Star was their creator god, her name was Barnumbirr. She was the one who drew the songlines across the landscape and those songlines are what created the animals and the flowers and the land forms. Even to this present day there are Aboriginal people who will know how to navigate across the landscapes in the interior of Australia by singing the songline songs that basically lay out where all the landscapes are. They believe in fact that the Earth needs our songs and our capacity to name what s there in order to stay alive and vibrant. There are many other stories about that, about naming and so that s the power of words too. The Western Apache too, (and I ll list this book that s really fascinating), where this man, Keith H. Basso studied the way that the Apache would tell stories about the landscape, it s how they rooted there. And they would have a hill over here and it wasn t just this hill it was the place where this incident happened or this person had this thing happen, so all of the landscape had stories connected to it and that s how they knew their place. There s one more native story about naming which to me, it always really moves me, which is about the Osage native people who were from the Ozarks, where my family is from. In their story they were actually star people who flew down on the back of red oak acorns and when they did, when they got to the earth they weren t accustomed to this environment so they didn t know how to survive. What they did was they had this ceremony and they named each of the animals and as they did, they would take on the form of those animals and the animals taught them how to live in that landscape. So there s something about that naming that helped them connect to that place. So to me it seems, and this could also be an exercise: for us to create Songlines of our own physical spaces and to name things and to praise things through our words, through our voices, for the landscape surrounding us, for the creatures that were there first. We can do that also. Cayelin: One of the things that was fun yesterday Tami and I went for a hike and she asked me to sing the Grandmothers song and I was a little embarrassed because I don t carry a tune very well! (laughs) I don t always remember the melodies exactly so I kind of just make it up. So I was saying that and then we were talking about it and she was saying that she loved that I did that because she has a similar experience. I said, Yeah you know I love hiking through the desert and singing to the cactus and to the trees and I just make up these songs about how much I love them and appreciate them, how cool they are and how beautiful they are. And she does exactly that! transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 15

16 Tami: Yeah! I ll sing, You re so beautiful! and I was just doing it that morning, the song of the sol (sun) of my soul and just whatever came through. Of course we both do it privately and that s why, when we were sitting in the Grandmother Cave and I asked, Cayelin would you sing the song? and she s like, Yeah, you know I often forget the words and so when I do ceremony it s really scary, that moment where you want to share a song, it s really scary! And so it was very cool that she did it. You know, if you don t know all the words or you stumble around a little bit it s okay, the spirits really like it when we sing, they like that music, the song so it doesn t have to be perfect, it s like praising and loving with our voices the surroundings, the landscape we re surrounded by, there s something about blessing it that way, it s vulnerable. And there s a reason we re afraid, just like everything we ve been saying we might do it wrong or Cayelin: Or we ve been judged in the past or we judge ourselves against others like you started out saying what you noticed in terms of the 6 th Chakra and how you compare yourself to others and I have that, I compare myself to others. I can sing along with people fairly well I wouldn t say it s great but it s better than if I m trying to do it by myself. Or I can sing along with music I can do it fairly well, like it s tolerable! (laughs) but when I m by myself I don t really care so I ll just let it rip! And it s a great thing to do and its definitely aligning/enlivening because you feel the whole it s about vibration, our voice carries vibration and so when we speak and when we re singing or speaking we re vibrating with that energy and that s why our words are so important because the words also carry vibration but in addition to the words it s the feeling that s behind it. Tami: Yes, it s the feeling. So, one of our Home play assignments will be about, in some way really claiming your voice and singing. That might be you going out into nature and finding a song. Don t worry that anyone else will hear it, just as long as it comes from your heart and sing to your surroundings. It might be remembering a childhood song and singing that or it might be (and we ll send a link to the Grandmothers Song again), you might learn that, practice that and just use that all month as your own song. That will be one of the Home Play assignments also. Cayelin: Or you can come up with something that s like a mantra that you can chant. Sing it, chant it, speak it out loud often, like every day. You can start out the day and end the day with saying something out loud because that s part of doing the invocations and doing the work because we re creating our reality with our words. Tami: And it s a gift to have something like that. You know when we were in the Grandmother Cave Cayelin had brought some offerings Rose Petals, Sage. Many of us know how to do that now and that s something people have always done, given an offering like that. But people also always danced, which we will work with later and they ve also always sung, so if you have a song or if you have a mantra, something that you can give as a gift with your voice, that s a gift that you can always bring to any sacred space, any place you want to bring your spirit to. transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 16

17 So this will be a great gift for you to develop. And there will be other Home Play assignments but another one that I just wanted to mention, because you ll see it and I want you to have a touch-point for it in your brain, is that we will be, because this literally has to do with the necklace. Our recommendation will be to either take a necklace you already have that has a blue stone, (we ll have a list of different blue stones), maybe it is lapis lazuli either pick one you already have or find one or commission a friend or a local person to make one for you. To have a necklace that you use and that you wear and that you do ceremony around too, with these questions, with what it is that you re wishing to release. So that when you take it off at night, that you also release whatever it is that you re wishing to release around the throat chakra and when you put it on in the morning to really consider what it is you re willing to activate for self-expression. So that will also be one of your Home Play assignments. And when we talk about this, for those of you who are just starting you will know that some are really wanting to go deep into this and some are wanting to do just the bare minimum, so all of this will not be required but for any of you who wish to do it we will have in-depth assignments like this. Cayelin: Right. Again, using what feels resonant for you and what feels alive for you to do and what feels like will help you to be most connected to this time and the opportunity that we have, which is really to activate our throat chakra, to release the blocks that maybe we ve had that we ve repressed or that kept us from expressing as fully as we could. We want to create practices and ways of being conscious of how we re going to work this month as Venus is in this gateway of releasing those things, so that once we are on the ascent and reclaiming, that we really have a way to reclaim it in a healthy, more empowered way. Tami: Yes and I want to say what s interesting about this is that yes, it is a descent process, it is about clearing but interestingly it s not like we have to wait until the evening star phase to experience what comes through positively. The focus here really is on the blocks but we already begin to feel how it is to have full free creative expression. And so there s that and we will have visualizations but I just want to say too, just you being in this circle, in this space is going to activate this for you, so just know that. And for some of you it will be better to be very simple and just do the bare minimum, and for some of you it will be important to do as much as you can! And you know yourself. Cayelin: And some of you may not want to do anything other than listen to the class and maybe look at some of the images and that s fine too! Whatever it is that you can do is perfect, there s no judgment good or bad, right or wrong, it s how you are guided. Oftentimes we have unexpected things that come up and add to our life and our experience and so we don t get to engage as much as maybe we had hoped, just not to have judgment about that, just trust that whatever the process is for you, it s perfect. So are we ready for the Q & A? Tami: Yes! transcribed by Elizabeth Yoes Page 17