Teach Your Heart What to Believe and Love

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1 Teach Your Heart What to Believe and Love -1- Heart-training: Turning from Food as an Emotional Addiction (from the Elective Section in the Heart-training) Share these pages with friends: Contents Page 2 Turning away from self-sabotage Page 4 Turning away from food as an emotional addiction Page 8 Turning away from bulimia Page 14 Turning away from anorexia Barry Hall 2014 Introduction: What is Heart-training? Heart-training is a collection of statements that when you listen to yourself saying them, it helps you to believe, love, and feed on (receive from) God. Heart-training is to the deeper Christian life as practice drills are to sports and music. Heart-training removes obstacles and builds a highway for God to come to you more easily. Why should I use Heart-training? Rather than receiving from earthly sources, you will learn to receive and enjoy the tangible presence of God because Heart-training aims directly at helping you change deeply rooted ways of thinking from works to grace. God designed all people with needs. And human behavior is driven by these needs. The world calls it a need for self-esteem. The Bible calls it a thirst for God. Over the years we learn habit patterns of thinking about how we believe we can best fill our needs. And much what we have learned to believe is hurtful and damaging. The Bible says...we...receive the promise of the Spirit through faith. (Gal 3:14). And,...it is by faith, in order that it may be in accordance with grace, so that the promise will be guaranteed to all... (Rom. 4:16). So we have to believe we are receiving the presence of God by His grace or it will be difficult to experience Him tangibly. Jesus explained the problem when He said, How can you believe, when you receive glory from one another and you do not seek the glory that is from the one and only God? (John 5:44). So, how can we correct this problem?...repent and believe... (Mark 1:15). Heart-training helps you repent from having to earn and achieve earthly glory, to receiving the presence of God s glory by faith in His grace. The Bible says,...as he thinks within himself, so he is... (Pro 23:7);...the heart of man reflects man. (Pro. 27:19). And Jesus said,...they were thinking in their heart... (Luke 9:47). Science knows today that our heart has transmitters and receptors that process information similar to our brain only a lot fewer of them. So our heart learns slowly, with much repetition, and best also, where emotion accompanies what is being learned. Your heart can learn new ways of thinking. It MUST. But you have to become the teacher and your own heart has to become your best student. Heart-training is the most effective tool I know for doing that. How should I use the Heart-training? Speak the statements out loud and focus on listening to what you are saying. But please note that the speed of processing thought is MUCH slower with your heart. So when you say these statements you have to go slowly or it won t work. You also have to pause between the statements to give your heart time to agree and receive it as truth. There has to be a lot of repetition because the patterns of thinking you have now, were learned by life experiences over the course of many years. And, to be most effective, it helps greatly if you use joy in your tone of voice as you read the statements. Note that Heart-training is divided into 2 main sections core classes and electives. Like getting a degree at college, the core classes are needed first. The elective section deals with specific areas of sin. (Note: The order you do the core classes may need to be altered. Try to do the sections as they are presented, but if you are having trouble getting your heart to hear it, you may do better to go forward and come back later.)

2 Turning Away from Self-Sabotage 2 Barry Hall (Your name), let your heart find joy and delight that the protection I need......is not by escaping through self-induced and self-controlled failure. I can keep doing good because even if there is failure outside my control, I can be confident that God will be right there to soothe me and love me through it... (pause to let yourself feel confidence and be reassured by God s presence!)...is not to make myself fail in order to avoid uncontrolled failure in the future. Lord God, it is Your presence that is my security, my refuge of power and strength. You are the One who soothes my fears......is not from self-sabotage because of fear that I might not be able to keep doing the right things. It is God who is my righteousness and my perfection......is not to use sin as a way to sabotage myself with the hard shell of depression that results I don t have to be afraid to draw near to God. It is safe and right and good to stand open before God and enjoy receiving the Holy Spirit being radiated into me and all around me......is not to force myself to fail by because of insecurity or fear God is always gracious and giving. He never stops radiating the Holy Spirit upon those who draw near......is not to sabotage or distract myself from entering into the throne room or from confidently trusting that God is with me here. My eyes are on You Lord. The safest thing for me to trust that the glorified Jesus and the Father are right here with me right now......i grab my soul and turn it from having to damage myself in order to feel protected from failure. My hope is in God not in how well I achieve and then maintain human success. Lord God, I love Your grace to draw near to me intensely... (pause to let yourself feel confidence because of the truth!) My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth. (Psa. 121:2)... The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the defense of my life; Whom shall I dread? (Psa. 27:1) (let yourself feel confidence from the closeness of God s power and glory!) Behold, God is my helper; The Lord is the sustainer of my soul. (Psa. 54:4)... You are my hiding place and my shield... (Psa. 119:114) O Lord, You are my God; I will exalt You... (Isa. 25:1)...Lord, You are my hiding place and my shield... (Psa. 119:114)... I have set the Lord continually before me...therefore my heart is glad and my glory rejoices; my flesh also will dwell securely. (Psa. 16:8,9) (pause to hear, believe, and love the God who is close!) God is my protection:...my heart trusts in Him, and I am helped... (Psa. 28:7) When I am afraid, I will put my trust in You. In God, whose word I praise, In God I have put my trust; I shall not be afraid. What can mere man do to me? (Psa. 56:3,4)...I have access to enter and draw near to God by faith in the Holy Spirit to make it happen. for through Him we...have our access in one Spirit to the Father. (Eph. 2:18)....have boldness and confident access through faith in Him (Eph. 3:12)....O Lord God, You are my confidence... (Psa. 71:5)... My...confidence...is...through Christ before God...competence comes from God (2 Cor. 3:4,5 NIV)....You, O Lord, are...the lifter of my head. (Psa. 3:3 TAB).

3 Turning Away from Self-Sabotage 3... (Your name), let your heart find joy and delight that the protection I need......is not by sabotaging myself with distractions that keep me away from God or, that keep me from doing God s will......is not to sabotage myself with sin or with failure because of fear that I might not be enough somehow. I is God who is my adequacy. Lord God I love that I can turn to You and don t have to depend on myself......is not to sabotage myself by holding firmly to disbelief God is a better fortress for protection......is not by forcing myself to fail because of fear that God might not like me back. I don t have to agree with demonic lies. God is kind. He loves me and wants to draw near to me......is not to use sin as a way to prevent my willingness to stand before God, or my willingness to open up and welcome His presence......is not by escaping through self-induced and self-controlled failure......i grab my soul and turn it from fear about not having enough discipline to be faithful at drinking from God. I will open up to the fountain of God that I am trusting is before me here, and I will drink like a branch drinks from the trunk of the tree and like it s leaves drink from the rain. God is here... (Your name), I love that I can receive from the radiance of God like a sponge. I CAN draw near to God and my need is so great, that the more I love and enjoy being secure and strong in God s presence, the more it helps motivate me to keep the drinking straw of my inner being, pointed toward the closeness of Lord and His kingdom 24 hours-a-day. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. (Psa. 73:26 NIV). I don t have to escape by forcing myself to fail because,...you are my hope; O Lord God, You are my confidence... (Psa. 71:5);...My soul clings to You... (Psa. 63:8) I...have boldness and confident access through faith in Him (Eph. 3:12)....Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him for the help of His presence. (Psa. 42:5)......as for me, I will hope continually, and will praise You yet more and more. (Psa. 71:14) God has promised with an...everlasting covenant, to be God to you and to your descendants... (Gen. 17:7; and also Gal. 3:29) Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who hope in the Lord. (Psa. 31:24)... The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit. (Psa. 34:18) The Lord is my portion, says my soul, Therefore I have hope in Him. (Lam. 3:24)... Though the fig tree should not blossom and there be no fruit on the vines, though the yield of the olive should fail and the fields produce no food, though the flock should be cut off from the fold and there be no cattle in the stalls, yet I will exult in the Lord, I will rejoice in the God of my salvation. The Lord God is my strength, and He has made my feet like hinds' feet, and makes me walk on my high places. (Hab. 3:17-19). (pause to hear, believe, and love the God who is close!) And, I will say to the Lord, My refuge and my fortress, My God, in whom I trust! (Psa. 91:2)......the eyes of the Lord move to and fro throughout the earth that He may strongly support those whose heart is completely His... (2 Chron. 16:9)... (pause to hear, believe, and love the God who is close!) My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth. (Psa. 121:2)... I love You, O Lord... (Psa. 18:1);...My soul clings to You... (Psa. 63:8)

4 Turning Away from Food as an Emotional Addiction 4 Barry Hall don't have to settle for such a little thing as to glorying in what I eat. God wants me near and I can feed on Him. I am trusting that my eyes are looking at Your power and beauty close around and touching me......what I find in the refrigerator is not my best hope for reassurance that soothes me God offers more......guilt and self-contempt are not the best ways to improve my behavior I just have to get my heart to hear......when I feel insecure, nervous, or lonely, food is not what I will reassure myself with the presence of God is far more satisfying......i don t have to give up and try to get the delight and pleasure I need in food it is right and good for me to gorge myself with God. By faith, I am trusting that my eyes are looking at You Lord......the refuge I need is not to trust my weight as a cocoon to hide in I turn my heart to love surrounding myself with God and hiding in Him. I take refuge in the goodness and love of God... (pause to enjoy it!)...food is not my best hope to soothe the pain inside I rest into believing it is safe and good to draw near to God. My eyes are on Your presence all around and touching me here......i turn from trying to cover up my need for God with food. I love that God wants to be near me it is safe for me to trust Him. I reject and renounce eating as a way to deaden my desire for God......none of those who take refuge in Him will be condemned. (Psa. 34:22)...it is good for the heart to be strengthened by grace, not by foods, through which those who were so occupied were not benefitted. (Heb. 13:9) (pause to believe and love the God who is close!)...the one who comes to Me I will certainly not cast out (John 6:37)...You are the God of my strength... (Psa. 43:1) (pause to hear, believe, and love the truth!)...my soul clings to You... (Psa. 63:8) (pause to hear, believe, and love the God who is close!) O Lord, You are my God; I will exalt You, I will give thanks to Your name... (Isa. 25:1)... How precious is Your lovingkindness, O God! And the children of men take refuge in the shadow of Your wings. They drink their fill of the abundance of Your house; and You give them to drink of the river of Your delights. For with You is the fountain of life; in Your light we see light (Psa. 36:7-9)...they walk in the light of Your countenance... (Psa. 89:15-17) Draw near to God and He will draw near to you... (James 4:8) Whenever I feel dirty or full of the wrong thing, God forgives me and washes me clean inside and out. He forgives me as soon as I ask Him. God doesn t hold back from me and I repent of wanting to wait and hold back from Him. God doesn t hold back from washing and cleansing me with the Holy Spirit. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. (1 John 1:9);...washed...in the Spirit of our God. (1 Cor. 6:11);...cleansing their hearts by faith. (Acts 15:9);...having our hearts sprinkled clean...and our bodies washed with pure water (Heb. 10:19 and 22) (let yourself feel confidence from the closeness of God s power and glory!)...the Lord has washed away the filth of the daughters of Zion...by the spirit of judgement and the spirit of burning (Isa. 4:4). (pause to hear, believe, and love the God who is close!)

5 Turning Away from Food as an Emotional Addiction 5...I don't have to be afraid to feel physical hunger I can distract myself by draw near and filling up on God. I am trusting that my eyes are looking at Your power and beauty close around and touching me......the refuge I need is not the refrigerator or the cookie jar the presence of God is a better way to reassure myself and to find a powerfully safe refuge......i don t have to eat because what God offers is much more filling......i don't have to eat more food in order to sabotage myself with depression when I have eaten too much. I will let my heart hear that I don t have to be afraid to soothe myself with God. Lord Your presence is a far better refuge of yummy goodness. And, I set my heart to enjoy You Lord... (pause to love and enjoy God!)...I can turn from wanting pleasure, control, and reassurance from food and eating......i don't have to use food as a way to distract myself from other things God s presence is to readily available. By faith Lord, I am trusting that my eyes are looking at Your closeness all around me here......i turn from trying to stuff my desire for God with food. I delight that it is right and safe to draw near to the fountain of God. I reject and renounce eating as a way to deaden my desire for God......God,...has not despised...the afflicted; neither has He hidden His face from him... (Psa. 22:24)......O Lord... You are my refuge, My portion in the land of the living (Psa. 142:5) Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has chosen gladly to give you the kingdom (Luke 12:32). And,...the kingdom of God does not consist in words but in power (1Co 4:20)....God said, "I will dwell in them and walk among them; and I will be their God, and they shall be My people (2Cor 6:16)....he who comes to God must believe...that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him (Heb. 11:6)....the nearness of God is my good; I have made the Lord God my refuge... (Psa. 73:28) Lord, You are my hiding place... (Psa. 32:7) You are good and do good... (Psa. 119:68);...You, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive... (Psa. 86:5)......the Lord is our righteousness (Jer. 33:16)......The Lord is my God (Zech.. 13:9) (pause to believe and love the God who is close!) The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the defense of my life; Whom shall I dread? (Psa. 27:1) The Bible tells me,...put on the armor of light...put on the Lord Jesus Christ... (Rom. 13:12 and 14). he who takes refuge in Me...will possess My holy mountain (Isa. 57:13)....My heart trusts in Him, and I am helped... (Psa. 28:7) (pause to hear, believe, and love the truth!) I will say to the Lord, My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust! (Psa. 91:2) My...adequacy is from God (2 Cor. 3:5). (pause to believe and love the God who is close!)...the Lord will not abandon His people on account of His great name... (1 Sam. 12:22)...You are my God...My soul thirsts for You, my flesh yearns for You...Thus I have seen You in the sanctuary, to see Your power and Your glory...my soul is satisfied... (Psa. 63:1,2,5). O taste and see that the Lord is good; How blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him! (Psa. 34:8). You are my hiding place and my shield... (Psa. 119:114) (pause to hear, believe, and love the truth!)

6 Turning Away from Food as an Emotional Addiction 6...I don t have to eat in order to maintain relationships or avoid their disapproval God loves me. I can draw near without fear. When I taste, I will see that He is good (Psa. 34:8)......food is not my best hope to relieve the boredom entering the throne room is a better way to thrill myself. I am trusting that my eyes are looking at Your beauty close around and touching me......i don't have to eat when I want to celebrate God is better than food......food is not my best hope to relieve stress the presence of God soothes and reassures me better......i don't have to eat to hide from how lonely I feel God washes me clean when I draw near......i don t have to eat because what God offers is much more filling......food is not my best hope for a way to relax I find rest for my soul by drawing near and letting Him draw near to me......fat doesn't make me unacceptable to God He still wants me close to Him and wants to be close to me......over-eating is not a way to 'get back' at the power I feel in controlling what I eat is nothing compared to drawing near and thrilling my heart with the sovereign power of my God......food is not the supply of reassurance and soothing that I need the radiance of God upon me is (or, will be) enough. I am trusting that my eyes are looking at Your beauty close around and touching me......my weight does not determine whether or not I can be 'OK' God loves me I can enjoy His caress by drawing near......i turn from trying to cover up my need for God with food. I love that God wants to be near me. Depending on God makes Him my God. I reject and renounce eating as a way to deaden my desire for God. I am trusting that my eyes are looking at Your beauty close around and touching me... He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High Will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the Lord, My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust! (Psa. 91:1,2)...none of those who take refuge in Him will be condemned (Psa. 34:22). How precious is Your lovingkindness, O God! And the children of men take refuge in the shadow of Your wings. They drink their fill of the abundance of Your house; and You give them to drink of the river of Your delights. For with You is the fountain of life; in Your light we see light (Psa. 36:7-9)....they walk in the light of Your countenance... (Psa. 89:15-17)...the nearness of God is my good; I have made the Lord God my refuge... (Psa. 73:28) Lord, You are my hiding place... (Psa. 32:7) (pause to believe and love the God who is close!)...you, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive... (Psa. 86:5)... You are good and do good... (Psa. 119:68)

7 Turning Away from Food as an Emotional Addiction 7...my weight is not a tool to protect myself from other people God is a better refuge of safety and power. And, God is always more ready to be close to me than food... (pause to believe and love it as the truth!)...i don't have to use food as a way to distract myself from other things God s presence is to readily available......my weight is not a reason for me to stay away from the Lord the Holy Spirit burns away my shame by His radiance upon me (Isa. 4:4 and Heb. 10:19,22)......the refuge I need is not the refrigerator or the cookie jar the presence of God is a better way to reassure myself. By faith, I am trusting that my eyes are looking at the power and beauty of God all around me......i don't have to use food to sabotage myself with depression when I eat too much. God s presence is a better refuge of protection. God is my refuge of strength and power... (pause to believe and love it!) I turn from wanting pleasure, control, and reassurance from food. I reject and renounce food as a way to feed my desire for God... I don't have to believe the lies of the enemy that I have to get the pleasure I need apart from drinking Your presence. Lord, You are my God. I pray that You would rebuke any enemy pushing me to reassure myself and get the pleasure I need through food. I denounce these things! And Lord, I ask that with Your authority and power You would command the forces of evil to leave me alone and to never come back... (pause to let yourself believe that God is doing it)......i turn from trying to stuff my desire for God with food. I delight that it is right and safe to draw near to the fountain of God. I reject and renounce eating as a way to deaden my desire for God......the Lord is our righteousness (Jer. 33:16);...The Lord is my God (Zech.. 13:9). I will say to the Lord, My refuge and my fortress, My God, in whom I trust! (Psa. 91:2) My...confidence...is...through Christ before God...competence comes from God (2 Cor. 3:4,5 NIV). I love You, O Lord... (Psa. 18:1);...I have hope in Him (Lam. 3:24)...God doesn t hold Himself back from me: My God is always a fountain who never stops giving the Spirit... (let yourself feel confidence from the closeness of God s power and glory!)...the fountain of living water, even the Lord. (Jer. 17:13)...You give them to drink...for with You is the fountain...in Your light we see light. (Psa. 36:8,9)...soul...my hope is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation, My stronghold; I shall not be shaken. On God my salvation and my glory rest; the rock of my strength, my refuge is in God. (Psa. 62:5-7) The Lord is my portion, says my soul, Therefore I have hope in Him. (Lam. 3:24)... I...have boldness and confident access through faith in Him (Eph. 3:12)....we have confidence to enter the holy place by the blood of Jesus...draw near with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled clean and our bodies washed with pure water. (Heb. 10:19, 22) (let yourself feel confidence from the closeness of God s power and glory!) Lord, You are my God...I exalt you. (Psa. 118:28 NIV).

8 Turning Away from Bulimia 8 Barry Hall don t have to binge on food in order to quiet my hunger for the presence of God. I turn from distracting my desire for God by being full of food. Lord I turn all my cravings to binge on You......I don t have eat and then purge in order to feed myself with how attractive I am. The Lord is the beauty I desperately need. God, I satisfy myself with the closeness of Your beauty touching me and all around me. Lord You are my identity I am called by Your name. I turn to God because everything else is idolatry......i don t have to have find the perfection I long for by keeping my weight down. The Lord is the perfection I need. Lord I love the closeness of Your perfection touching me, cleansing me, making me righteous, and enough. By faith I am trusting that my eyes are looking at You Lord......I don t have to find the cleansing I long for by purging myself of the food I eat. Lord I love that the cleansing from You is more powerful than my sin. I turn my affections to love drawing near to You and letting You wash me clean......i don t have to feed myself with how well I please people with my appearance or with my personality. I turn and I feed on You Lord. I am trusting that my eyes are looking at Your beauty close around and touching me......i grab my soul and I turn it away from my having to stuff myself and then purge in order to find the cleansing I crave. I turn to God. I reject and renounce bulimia as a way to deaden my desire for God... If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. (1 John 1:9);...washed...in the Spirit of our God. (1 Cor. 6:11); God says that I, even I, am the one who wipes out your transgressions for My own sake; and I will not remember your sins. (Isa. 43:25). (pause to hear, believe, and love the God who is close!)...the Lord has washed away the filth of the daughters of Zion...by...the spirit of burning, (Isa. 4:4)...I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse you from all your filthiness and from all your idols. (Eze. 36:25) (pause to hear, believe, and love the God who is close!) I will cleanse them from all their iniquity by which they have sinned against Me... (Jer. 33:8)...by the sanctifying work of the Spirit...sprinkled with His blood... (1 Peter 1:2)...draw near...in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled clean...and our bodies washed with pure water (Heb. 10:19 and 22); By His radiance coming onto me, I...put on the Lord Jesus Christ... (Rom. 13:12 and 14)....he who comes to God must believe...that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him. (Heb. 11:6). I will say to the Lord, My refuge and my fortress, My God, in whom I trust! (Psa. 91:2) God is to us a God of deliverances... (Psa. 68:20) (pause to believe and love the God who is close!) Lord, You are...my rock and my fortress. (Psa. 71:3) You are my hiding place and my shield... (Psa. 119:114)...the Lord will not abandon His people on account of His great name... (1 Sam. 12:22) It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man. (Psa. 118:8) The Lord is my strength...and I will praise Him... (Exo. 15:2)...My soul clings to You... (Psa. 63:8)

9 Turning Away from Bulimia 9...I don t have to find the perfection I need by purging myself in order to be thin. God is my perfection. I grab my soul and I turn it to depend on the closeness of God. I love Your perfection Lord......I don t have to quench my thirsty desires by planning out when I could binge without people knowing. God is my desire and He doesn t hold back from drawing near. Lord I open my heart to You. I love Your grace to draw near. I am trusting that my eyes are looking at Your beauty close around and touching me......i don t have to binge and purge in order to force myself into depression. I love that I don t have to hide myself in a hard shell of depression. God is a better place to hide. I love finding refuge in You Lord......I don t have to preoccupy myself with eating, purging, or my weight. I love that I can trade my dependence on food for the presence of God. I confess my need to You Lord. I turn my heart to trust Your grace because I have nothing else. Nothing else is as filling......i can turn from wanting pleasure, control, and reassurance from binging and then purging food. I reject and renounce bulimia as a way to feed my desire for God... (pause to believe and love God who is close!)...i grab my soul and I turn it away from my having to stuff myself and then purge in order to find the cleansing I crave. I turn to You Lord. I set my heart to feed on God and trust the power of His cleansing......come to Me and drink...but this He spoke of the Spirit (John 7:37 and 39) Ho! Every one who thirsts, come to the waters...delight yourself in abundance. (Isa. 55:1,2)...You give them to drink of the river of Your delights. For with You is the fountain... (Psa. 36:8,9)...the fountain of living water, even the Lord. (Jer. 17:13)...His Son...He is the radiance of His glory... (Heb. 1:2,3; radiance = outshining not as in a reflection)...on...the great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried out, saying, If anyone is thirsty, let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the Scripture said, 'From his innermost being will flow rivers of living water. But this He spoke of the Spirit... (John 7:37-39). Heart hear this and confidently trust that you are doing it: Draw near to God and He will draw near to you... (James 4:8) My dwelling place also will be with them; and I will be their God, and they will be My people. (Ezek. 37:27)...the tabernacle of God is among men... (Rev. 21:3) How precious is Your lovingkindness, O God! And the children of men take refuge in the shadow of Your wings. They drink their fill of the abundance of Your house; and You give them to drink of the river of Your delights. For with You is the fountain of life; in Your light we see light. (Psa. 36:7-9)...the nations will bless themselves in Him, And in Him they will glory. (Jer. 4:2) O Lord, I love the habitation of Your house and the place where Your glory dwells. (Psa. 26:8) I, the Lord, am your God...Open your mouth wide and I will fill it. (Psa. 81:10)....My people will be satisfied with My goodness, declares the Lord. (Jer. 31:14; see also Exo. 31:18-23)....the fountain of living water, even the Lord. (Jer. 17:13)

10 Turning Away from Bulimia 10...I don t have to live a dull life and binge on food in order to hide from despair. God is my treasure and thrill. I praise You Lord. I love that I can glorify God by my total dependence on Him to feed and fill me....i don t have to open my mouth and cram food down my throat. Lord I open myself to You. I turn all my cravings to You Lord. I love that I don t have to hold back with God. I love the abundance of the fountain. By faith, I am trusting that my eyes are looking at Your beauty close around and touching me here......i don t have to settle for living in despair. I don t have to feel empty. I turn from hopelessness about binging on God. I turn all my cravings to binge on You God. I love the access You give for me to draw near with confidence......i can turn from wanting pleasure, control, and reassurance from binging and then purging food......i don t have to hide from the pain I feel sometimes. If I don t depend on God I will turn somewhere else for something that soothes me. I turn to You Lord. I love trusting I am before the Lord here and that You Lord are with me. I love letting You wash over me and soothe me with Yourself......I turn to You Lord. I reject and renounce bulimia as a way to deaden my desire for God. I set my heart to feed on God and trust the power of His cleansing......by faith I am trusting that my eyes are looking at Your power and glory Lord:...You are my God...My soul thirsts for You, my flesh yearns for You...Thus I have seen You in the sanctuary, to see Your power and Your glory...my soul is satisfied... (Psa. 63:1,2,5). Ho! Every one who thirsts, come to the waters; And you who have no money come, buy and eat. Come, buy wine and milk Without money and without cost. Why do you spend money for what is not bread, And your wages for what does not satisfy? Listen carefully to Me, and eat what is good, And delight yourself in abundance. (Isa. 55:1,2). Do not call to mind the former things, Or ponder things of the past. Behold, I will do something new, Now it will spring forth; Will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, Rivers in the desert..to give drink to My chosen people. The people whom I formed for Myself, Will declare My praise. (Isa. 43:18-21)....you will rejoice in the Lord, You will glory in the Holy One of Israel. The afflicted and needy are seeking water, but there is none, And their tongue is parched with thirst; I, the Lord, will answer them Myself, As the God of Israel I will not forsake them. I will open rivers on the bare heights And springs in the midst of the valleys; I will make the wilderness a pool of water And the dry land fountains of water. (Isa. 41:16-18). It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man. (Psa. 118:8)...the nations will bless themselves in Him, And in Him they will glory. (Jer. 4:2)...the one who comes to Me I will certainly not cast out. (John 6:37);...none of those who take refuge in Him will be condemned. (Psa. 34:22);...come to the waters...delight yourself in abundance. (Isa. 55:1,2).

11 Turning Away from Bulimia 11...I don t have to binge on food in order to distract myself from fear about being acceptable to God. Heart hear this! I can trust the power of the cross of Christ. I turn my soul to find delight in the acceptance of God. The payment Jesus made for me is enough......i don t have to be impulsive toward food. I turn all my impulsiveness and my cravings to feed on God. I love Your abundant grace to wash me clean. I grab my soul and I turn it from having to hold back. I set my heart to trust God to feed me with Himself......I don t have to find the approval and pleasure I need by purging myself of the food I eat. I turn from feeding myself with praise because of losing weight. God is my delight......i don t have to inhale everything I can eat and then exhale to try to find the cleansing I need. I love that I can surround myself with God and inhale Him. I set my heart to stand here before the fountain of God. The cleansing that shines from God is far greater. I love inhaling Your presence Lord......I don t have to deal with the hurt and the loneliness I feel by binging and purging. The Lord is my God. I trust Your presence is close. I set my heart to soothe my loneliness and pain with God. I love letting You wash over me God......I don t have to be out of control with food because I can be out of control feeding by feeding myself with a God who loves and cares for me. Lord I love that it is safe, true, and right for me to believe Your love for me. Everything else is idolatry......i can turn from wanting pleasure, control, and reassurance from binging and then purging food. I reject and renounce bulimia as a way to feed my desire for God......I turn to You Lord. I reject and renounce bulimia as a way to deaden my desire for God. I set my heart to feed on God and trust the power of His cleansing you are my God...My soul thirsts for You, my flesh yearns for You...Thus I have seen You in the sanctuary, to see Your power and Your glory...my soul is satisfied... (Psa. 63:1,2,5)....I love that I can drink because of drawing near to the radiance around You Lord: the heavens were opened and I saw visions of God...on that which resembled a throne, high up, was a figure with the appearance of a man...and there was a radiance around Him. As the appearance of the rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the appearance of the surrounding radiance... (Ezek. 1:1, 26-27)....there was a rainbow around the throne... (Rev. 4:3)....a river of the water of life, clear as crystal, coming from the throne of God... (Rev. 22:1). and before the throne there was something like a sea of glass, like crystal... (Rev. 4:6)....the sea was for the priests to wash in. (2 Chron. 4:6; see also Exo. 30:21) and He has made us to be a kingdom, priests to His God and Father... (Revelation 1:6)...[at] the door of the house...water was flowing from under the threshold...water reaching the ankles. (Ezek. 47:1,3)...He who has bathed needs only to wash his feet, but is completely clean... (John 13:10).

12 Turning Away from Bulimia 12...I don t have to depend on food as a pain killer. God is the one who soothes my hurts. Lord I turn to You. I love that God understands. My delight is how You quiet and soothe me by washing me with Your love......i don t have to delight myself in an abundance of food because I can delight myself in an abundance of God s presence. Right now Lord, I turn and set my heart to draw near to You and to let You draw near to me. I am trusting that my eyes are looking at Your power and glory close around and touching me here......i don t have to demand that my identity be defined as being thin. The Lord is my God. I am called by His name not my own. The closeness of God is my identity......i don t have to binge on food in order to relax. I turn my soul to depend on the presence of God as how I relax. I let You draw near because quenching my thirsty desires any other way is idolatry......i don t have to be afraid of gaining weight because of God. The relationship I want with Him doesn t change because of how much I weigh. My confidence to draw near is from You Lord......I can turn from wanting pleasure, control, and reassurance from binging and then purging food. I reject and renounce bulimia as a way to feed my desire for God......I grab my soul and I turn it away from my having to stuff myself and then purge in order to find the cleansing I crave. I turn to You Lord. I set my heart to feed on God. I am trusting the power of His cleansing. I am trusting that my eyes are looking at God s power and beauty close to me here... You are my hiding place and my shield... (Psa. 119:114)...the Lord will not abandon His people on account of His great name... (1 Sam. 12:22) It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man. (Psa. 118:8) The Lord is my strength...and I will praise Him... (Exo. 15:2)...My soul clings to You... (Psa. 63:8)...he who comes to God must believe...that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him. (Heb. 11:6). I have set the Lord continually before me...my heart is glad and my glory rejoices; My flesh also will dwell securely. (Psa. 16:8,9)......My heart trusts in Him, and I am helped... (Psa. 28:7)...You, O Lord, are...the lifter of my head. (Psa. 3:3 TAB)...soul...my hope is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation, My stronghold; I shall not be shaken. On God my salvation and my glory rest; The rock of my strength, my refuge is in God. (Psa. 62:5-7). My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. (Psa. 73:26 NIV)......By faith I am trusting that my eyes are looking at Your power and glory Lord:...You are my God...My soul thirsts for You, my flesh yearns for You...Thus I have seen You in the sanctuary, to see Your power and Your glory...my soul is satisfied... (Psa. 63:1,2,5)....I have hope in Him. (Lam. 3:24) Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who hope in the Lord. (Psa. 31:24)...Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him for the help of His presence. (Psa. 42:5).

13 Turning Away from Bulimia 13...I don t have to binge and purge in order to reduce the stress I feel. I turn my soul to draw near and rest in You Lord. I have no other option but to let God draw near so that I can find the rest I need in His presence. I turn and open myself to You Lord......I don t have to be angry with people until I have binged and purged again. I turn from frustration with people who keep me from being alone so I can binge again. I turn from wanting to feed my soul that way. The Lord is my God. I turn and draw near to You Lord......I don t have to find the thrill I need in a feeding frenzy on food. God offers more. Lord I love that I can find the pleasure I need by a feeding frenzy on You. My greatest thrill is that I don t have to hold back from gorging on God. God is my delight. I love that You feed me with Yourself......I don t have to be obsessed with food and angry about my obsession. I turn from being irritable and withdrawn from others in my family. I face toward You Lord. I turn from living in such dullness. God is my obsession. I am trusting that my eyes are looking at Your beauty close around and touching me......i don t have to love binging on food. I turn from being obsessed on the next time I can binge. I turn to God. I love that I can stand before the Lord of hosts and binge on the river and radiance around my God. Lord You are my obsession. My eyes are looking at You Lord......I can turn from wanting pleasure, control, and reassurance from binging and then purging food. I reject and renounce bulimia as a way to feed my desire for God. My eyes are on the radiance of God coming to me here......i grab my soul and I turn it away from my having to stuff myself and then purge in order to find the cleansing I crave. I turn to God. I reject and renounce bulimia as a way to deaden my desire for God... I, the Lord, am your God...Open your mouth wide and I will fill it. (Psa. 81:10)....the fountain of living water, even the Lord. (Jer. 17:13) I will fill the soul of the priests with abundance, And My people will be satisfied with My goodness, declares the Lord. (Jer. 31:14; see also Exo. 31:18-23)....he who comes to God must believe...that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him. (Heb. 11:6);...God said, "I will dwell in them and walk among them; and I will be their God, and they shall be My people (2Cor 6:16)....come to the waters...delight yourself in abundance. (Isa. 55:1,2). Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has chosen gladly to give you the kingdom. (Luke 12:32). And,...the kingdom of God does not consist in words but in power (1Co 4:20)....I will pour out water on the thirsty land And streams on the dry ground; I will pour out My Spirit on your offspring And My blessing on your descendants; And they will spring up among the grass Like poplars by streams of water (Isa. 44:3,4). It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man. (Psa. 118:8)...the nations will bless themselves in Him, And in Him they will glory. (Jer. 4:2)...the one who comes to Me I will certainly not cast out. (John 6:37)...none of those who take refuge in Him will be condemned. (Psa. 34:22)...

14 Turning Away from Anorexia 14 Barry Hall don t have to agree with lies about starving myself anorexia is my enemy and not my friend. God is my friend! Drinking like a sponge from the glory around You fills me far better than better than being thin. My eyes are on Your perfection Lord......I turn from wanting to punish myself by denying my body of food. Jesus was punished on the cross with great pain and I set my heart to trust the power of the cross and the blood of Christ for the things I have done wrong......i don t have to punish other people for their wrong expectations of me I don t have to get back at them by forcing myself to be thinner than they want me to be......i don t have to feel dirty when I eat. God is my righteousness. Lord I turn to You and receive Your cleansing......i don t have to find the perfection I desperately long for by starving myself into measuring up to their expectations. The closeness of God is my perfection because I take refuge in His presence around me......i don t have to reassure myself by proving how well I can stay in control of my life. It is heaven that rules (Dan. 4:26)......I repent of wanting to kill myself with anorexia because of things I have done wrong. The power of the cross and the sin and punishment that Christ took on Himself are greater than my sin....i turn my soul away from having to quench my thirst by pride about my thinness. I turn from pride about how well I control my relationship with God and with people. I set my heart to feed on God and my praise is toward You Lord, NOT myself... The closeness of God is my refuge of perfection;...o Lord God, You are my confidence... (Psa. 71:5)... I have set the Lord continually before me...my heart is glad and my glory rejoices; My flesh also will dwell securely. (Psa. 16:8,9)......the nearness of God is my good; I have made the Lord God my refuge... (Psa. 73:28) I repent of putting faith in myself....the Lord is our righteousness. (Jer. 33:16) I don t have to stay out of the throne room because God is the one who makes me holy;...i am the Lord who sanctifies you, (Lev. 22:32). Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you entirely... (1 Thess. 5:23)....I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse you from all your filthiness and from all your idols (Ezek. 36:25)...draw near with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water. (Heb. 10:22)....sanctified by faith in Me. (Acts 26:18). Who will bring a charge against God's elect? God is the one who justifies; (Rom. 10:33).

15 Turning Away from Anorexia 15...I repent of wanting to kill myself with anorexia because of those horrible things that happened. I set my heart to turn from the lie that I am so bad that God can t fix me. God CAN fix me! And, the power of His washing me and the power of God forgiving me are far greater than what I did or did not do....i don t have to hide from the truth that anorexia will never help me enough. God can quench my thirst. I can turn my heart to draw near and feed on Him......I don t have to be nervous until I can weigh myself. Lord I turn from that and I delight that I can rest in You. Lord, You are my peace. Your presence is what calms me......i don t have to pride myself with how disciplined I am about the food I avoid. God has given me a Spirit of love and of discipline but not so I can praise myself instead of Him. I praise You Lord. I turn from praise toward me... (pause to hear, believe, and love God!) I turn from wanting to be thin in order to find acceptance or protection by being small. I turn from wanting pleasure, control, or reassurance by how well I avoid eating. I turn to You Lord......I don t have to dream of feasting on food and then avoid it all together. Lord I delight that I don t have to starve myself from You... I turn from wanting to be thin in order to find acceptance or protection by being small. I turn from wanting pleasure, control, or reassurance by how well I avoid eating. I reject and renounce anorexia as god. The Lord is my God and I turn to You Lord......I turn my soul away from having to punish myself by denying my body of food. I turn from feeding myself with pride and the power I feel from how well I punish myself. I set my heart to feed on You Lord. Heart, the Lord is my perfection and beauty because I am taking refuge inside the closeness of the kingdom of God all around me here... (pause to believe, love, and enjoy God!) I can trust God because He does not lie;...has He spoken, and will He not make it good? (Num. 23:19). God is not a man, that He should lie... (Num. 23:19)....the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect. (Rom. 12:2). I set my heart to depend on God as my refuge of perfection and beauty. The closeness of God and His kingdom around me, that is my refuge and nothing else. On God my salvation and my glory rest; The rock of my strength, my refuge is in God. (Psa. 62:7). I will say to the Lord, My refuge and my fortress, My God, in whom I trust! (Psa. 91:2) Lord, When I am afraid, I will put my trust in You. (Psa. 56:3) The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, My God, my rock, in whom I take refuge; My shield...my salvation, my stronghold. (Psa. 18:2). I can be confident about God s promise to me,...i will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse you... (Eze. 36:25) I put my faith in God to make me holy,...sanctification by the Spirit and faith in the truth. (2 Thess. 2:13) God is my purity,...the Lord has washed away the filth...by...the spirit of burning, (Isa. 4:4)

16 Turning Away from Anorexia 16...I don t have to avoid the truth that my humanity will never achieve perfection. Lord I love that You are what completes me. I rest in receiving and enjoying Your presence Lord. You are my perfection......i don t have to be angry and starve myself when others make comments or tease me about my appearance. Lord You are my God. I love Your grace to draw near. Your beauty close to me is what I depend on I have nothing else. You are my God......I don t have to want to pride myself by showing off how thin I can be. I turn to thrill myself with God. God s presence is a far greater glory than anything I could ever achieve apart from Him. Lord I love that receiving Your presence isn t based on how well I perform......i don t have to hide from the truth that I will never perform to perfection in order to deserve God s presence. Heart hear this: It is right and safe to trust that I am drawing near to God and that He is drawing near to me without holding back......i don t have to pride myself with how little I eat compared to others. My glory is not to put others down. I turn my soul from feeding on the earthly glory of comparing myself to others. I love Your glory Lord......I don t have to be the next size down in order to honor myself more I don t have to be my own glory because the Lord is my God. The radiance around God is a far greater glory than anything I could ever achieve for myself......i turn my soul away from having to quench my thirst by pride about my thinness. I turn from pride about how well I control my relationship with God and with people. I set my heart to feed on You Lord. Heart, the Lord is my perfection and beauty because I am taking refuge inside the closeness of the kingdom of God all around me here... (pause to believe and to love God!) It is best to turn my heart toward God because He is greater than all the other gods....i know that the Lord is great, And that our Lord is above all the gods. (Psa. 135:5)....you shall not worship any other god, for the Lord, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God. (Exo. 34:14). (We get jealous because we can t get. God gets jealous because He can t give.)...it is Heaven that rules. (Dan. 4:26) It is right and I can trust that God wants to draw near and have relationship with me....god is Light...if we walk in the Light as He Himself is in the Light, we have fellowship with one another... (1 John 1:5,7). The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit, be with you all. (2 Cor. 13:14). God is spirit... (John 4:24).; Now the Lord is the Spirit... (2 Cor. 3:17)....and they shall call His name Immanuel, which translated means, God with us. (Mat. 1:23) Draw near to God and He will draw near to you... (James 4:8; also Heb. 4:16)...we have confidence to enter the holy place by the blood of Jesus...draw near with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled clean and our bodies washed with pure water. (Heb. 10:19, 22).