[Begins by telling the story of the Rabbi and the Dream]

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1 [Begins by telling the story of the Rabbi and the Dream] The wise Rabbi who received a vision of a treasure in a far off town, travels and learns that the treasure was in his own home all this time, but the journey was necessary for him to see what was right before him all along. It was probably true for the bridge keeper he spoke with as well, but only the Rabbi was able to see it after all. Maybe the Rabbi still believed in possibility, and maybe the guard lost that part of himself. Hard to know. All this month we will be reflecting on what it means to be a people of desire. Later in the month we will look at the positive sides of desire: like love, or the search for justice, or just plain human connection. But today, I d like to begin with the negative side of desire. When desire runs our lives when the small wants take precedence over what truly matters who do we become and how do we find ourselves once more? What s the treasure hidden right before us that we have such a hard time seeing? So let s think about desire a bit. What s the one thing in your life, that if only it were present, would make everything seem to work out all right? Go with the first thing that comes to you, it ll do. Or if you re like me on a bad day, start making lists. What does it give you that you don t already have? How would it make things turn out just fine? What need does it fill? It s probably true that each one of us in this room could think of something pretty quickly that would help them to feel more whole, or more at ease, or at least full of gratitude. Getting into that college

2 program; securing that job; hearing better news about the medical results. Those are some really serious concerns. If you re like me, I imagine in the everyday you can catch yourself putting the same value on smaller events though. Catching that traffic light before it goes from yellow to red; or missing those closing doors on the train, or waiting for that or that text message to arrive; or the anticipation you feel waiting for the next episode of Star Wars What s happening in between? That moment between otherwise being happy about how things are and the next where we convince ourselves that things will only be good, or OK, if the thing we re waiting for actually happens. Let s start with the little things first. Try to remember what it feels like in your body when I mention these. That traffic light. Getting caught behind a slow moving driver when you re late for work. The iconic train passenger that won t move out of the way of the closing doors. I m going to hazard a guess that at least one of these can drive you absolutely nuts. What are we letting go of when we let this occur? We might have someone in our lives we love; we may have home and health; we may be enjoying a warm beautiful day on this side of paradise; but the traffic light, or the super slow moving driver, can take it all away in the blink of an eye. We may be thinking about picking up our kids from their RE class, or prepping for the next congregational committee meeting, or just steeling ourselves for the rush of coffee hour instead of fully resting into this hour of reflection, refreshment and community connection. It s so easy to fall into this habit. We ve all been there, and we ll likely all experience this sense of momentary want again probably even

3 today. The little things are just as easy to laugh at ourselves about as they are to forget not to cling to them again and again. They re not big, and yet they can all snatch from us the awareness of the awe in the living world around us. And the bigger things are much less easy to sweep away. Concerns for one s home, or job, or prospects or health aren t frivolous or insignificant. The death of a loved one, or feelings of concern for our friends who are grieving, are major turning points in our lives. For good or for ill, their effects will travel with us possibly for the rest of our lives. And yet, the simple truth is that the awe and wonder of this living, breathing world continues unabated in every moment. What happens to us, doesn t change this truth; even if the awe and wonder becomes hard to see for a time even if we can t feel it for a while. A connection to our source, this life, remains. And yet those times of forgetfulness those times of feeling disconnected from our source, will come. It s the reality of a world full of promise and pain. Our Universalist predecessors believed in universal salvation. They believed that when we died, all souls would be saved to heaven in glory. Personally, I ve come to feel that salvation is accessible in our current lives, for all people, while we re still living and breathing. I ve come to see salvation not tied to death, or notions of original sin, but a salvation tied to life; a salvation responding to the hells of our daily making; a salvation responding to the hells of our communal making. It starts with being able to connect and reconnect with this aweinspiring living breathing world. It s a salvation that s grounded in healthy community; a salvation that responds to our religious humanist

4 forebears who found in religious community a saving grace from the false idolatry of the individual ego. It s a salvation that liberates us from our ties to the mythic worlds of what if, the traps of if only and the fears of no, not that. It s not a false sentimentality. It s not wishful thinking. It s not a brazen disregard for the horrors, and pains and tragedies of our world. It s a salvation that reminds us of the honest connections we are ever blessed with. It s the kind that puts into context all the complexity and nuance of our often frenetic yet ever poignant world. And when we turn to face the true hardships of the world, we do so with a grounding based in spirit, and not in anxiousness. There s a quote from one of my favorite Buddhist teachers, Pema Chodron, where she offers a Buddhist take on this contemporary Universalist message. Moving away from our experience, moving away from the present moment with all our habits and strategies, always adds up to restlessness, dissatisfaction, unhappiness. The comfort that we associate with concretizing and making things solid is so transitory, so short lived. Alright, let s take a little mini poll here. By a show of hands, who here has ever wanted anything? Ok, keep your hands up if that thing you wanted you got. Ok, now here s the tricky part. Please keep your hand up if after getting that thing you wanted, you at some point stopped wanting or enjoying it. And finally keep your hand up if that thing you wanted that you got, you came to wish you never got it? Alright, I thought that was a pretty common occurrence. I m glad it s not just me phew! That, my friends, is what concretizing can lead to. We sort of chase

5 our own tails for dreaming. Call the grass on the other side always greener, or just admit that sometimes we don t really know what we want. The draw to make things appear more solid in our lives is very alluring, but it s ultimately a fruitless desire. I don t mean to suggest we ought to give up on development, or goals, or hopes; but rather I hope to inspire us to offer a more realistic appreciation for the moment we dwell in. Our world is more full of joy if in our daily strivings we remain rooted, as best we can, in a thorough appreciation for what is before us. It s from this place of fullness that we realize salvation. And it s available to us in every moment; including this one. I ve reflected a bit about how we give away our connectedness with the moment, with our connectedness to this side of paradise, by ever wishing for the next great thing. How do we do that when we give up our own answers? How do we disconnect ourselves when we solely rely on others to save us from our unknowing, or our quandaries, or our sense of loss? When do we hide our light under a bushel in order to gain the approval of others? I m going to guess that we re all a little guilty of this in our lives. Think about a time when you ve had a big decision to make and the first thing you do is call every close friend and ask them to tell you what you d do. A certain amount of that is good for the process of reflection. But so often we go to the absurd extreme with it. We give up our connectedness with the moment in our repetitive mental musings with the proverbial spinning of our wheels while going nowhere. Maybe we need the advice, but maybe we already know our answer. Maybe we already know how to speak our voice and do what needs to be done if

6 only we were to try. Brian (my husband) once told me, We can t rely on others to show us the beauty of a moment. Another person can t give us the eyes to see that; we re born with them and we have to learn to use them. In the Christian tradition, there s a verse attributed to Reinhold Niebhur, that goes, God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. This great prayer of discernment sums up the quandaries associated with fearing what will come and fearing who we are right now. If we can figure out how to live out the words from the Serenity Prayer, as it s commonly called, we come closer to an appreciation for the moment. We come closer to loving this amazing world as best we can just as it is. It holds an honest balance between loving ourselves (and the world) as we are, and loving the world and ourselves as we might be without making ourselves or the world out to be wrong in the meantime. It calls us to give ourselves a chance, without struggling against the impossible; while lifting up a sense of ownership with our feelings and experiences. In all of this, if we were to name it for what it is, we might say that there s a hole in our hearts for what we sense to be missing in our lives. In some traditions, we d call it a God shaped hole. I know I do. In others, we d call it living in a state of suffering. In psychological terms we might label it insecurity or co dependence depending on its manifestations and triggers. I believe each one of these has their merits. As a minister though, and not a psychologist (except for maybe in the pop sense of the word) I ll stick with the first two names. Living in a

7 state of suffering and A God shaped hole in our heart. To return once more to Pema Chodron, she clearly is in the school of thought that engages our sense of suffering. Hers is a philosophy that calls for deepening our sense of comfort with the groundlessness of life that not knowing what will be; that acceptance of the present moment. This moving away from comfort and security (she writes,) this stepping out into what is unknown, uncharted and shaky that s called liberation. (4) I used the Universalist language of salvation before to reflect on this same sort of thing. As our religious tradition transforms, changes and grows we re going to learn and develop more and more ways to express the complexity of life and matters of spirit in our own religious language. But I believe the core truths, the essential questions and challenges remain the same for us we re just learning better ways to translate them for our own hearts, minds and ears. The God shaped hole language may really work for you. Or maybe it s a kind of language that s really hard for you to relate to. As Unitarian Universalists, I ll challenge us to be the best translators we can be. For the theists among us, when we give up our sense of faith in our own capacity; when we give up our sense of appreciation for Creation as it is; when we disconnect ourselves from a real communion with this side of paradise; we realize a God shaped hole in our lives. We confuse ourselves into thinking that we re alone; or empty; or unloved. We confuse ourselves into thinking we re powerless; or incapable; or that the world is devoid of meaning. None of these things are true. We are not alone. We are loved. Life is full of promise. Our potential and capacity for love and for life is an

8 amazing gift an amazing blessing that we only need to open ourselves up to to know its full wonder. As Zora Neale Hurston audaciously proclaims, Love makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place. That s the core message in living into this side of paradise without losing ourselves in the process regardless of our personal theologies, or beliefs. Loving the moment, loving the world in all its nuance and beauty, loving ourselves and the beloved communities we build together, loving this life through all its uncertainty, is the process of crawling out of our places of pain and fear and hiding. Friends, this world is too full to forever find answers outside ourselves, and it is too full to forever think we hold all the answers for our neighbors. This living, breathing world is too full to hide from it, each other, and ourselves. As we heard from the poet Denise Levertov, So much is unfolding that must complete its gesture, so much is in bud. #298 Wake Now My Senses 1 A Lamp in Every Corner by Janee K. Groshmeyer p Comfortable with Uncertainty, by Pema Chodron, p Boston and London. 3 Brian Brewer 4 Comfortable with Uncertainty, by Pema Chodron, p Boston and London.