Our lives should be as if we are always doing Umrah and Hajj, not with your body but with your heart.

Tuesday 4 th December 2012. Al-Wakeel: Quick way to fill your cracks! Lecture by Sister Eman al Obaid www.alhudasisters.wordpress.com Part 1 - How will you rely on Allah subhana wa ta'ala? Part 2 How is Allah subhana wa ta'ala wakeel? Part 3 If you give wakeela what will Allah subhana wa ta'ala give you? Part 4 Are you really relying on Allah subhana wa ta'ala or just saying it? Part 5 in the Qur an Part 6 Kafa billahi wakeela Part 7 Psychological problems Part 8 Cracks in our lives Part 9 Types of cracks. How will I know my cracks? Part 10 - How to discover & fill your cracks! Part 11 Quick way to fill your cracks! What will make your heart soft, what will make your heart to be a Slave of Allah and make you to fill your heart with Allah subhana wa ta'ala? The Names of Allah are the joy and the delight of your life. In life people feel very proud that they know so and so we fall into this sort of thinking and neglect our happiness. When you remember Allah subhana wa ta'ala and know Allah subhana wa ta'ala, this will give your heart the satisfaction. The more you talk about what people did, this will harden the heart - when your heart is busy with someone other than Allah subhana wa ta'ala. When you go to the Haram & you see all the people going around the Kaba, and when you go to Safa and Marwa and you see the people hastening between these two mountains. Our life should be like that. Our life should be tawwaf, going around Allah s Pleasure. In the tawwaf you need to focus due to the number of people distracting you. Our lives should be as if we are always doing Umrah and Hajj, not with your body but with your heart. When your heart is around the Pleasure of Allah you will focus. In life so many things can distract you, so you need to bring you focus back. How? By knowing Allah subhana wa ta'ala. The sai is when you hasten with your limbs towards Allah s Pleasure. Tawwaf - is about your actions of the hearts Sai - is about the actions of your limbs when you hasten towards Allah s Pleasure You need to hasten towards Allah subhana wa ta'ala, to the good with your body, but first you need to prepare your heart. 1

Why is Tawwaf before the Sai? Tawwaf is to bring your heart, sai is for your body. Everything in Islam is about the soul and body together, unlike other religions which are just spiritual, or just material. In Islam the more you can concentrate with your heart, the more you will hasten towards Allah s Pleasure. Like how you hasten and run in the sai, you should do this in life. How should you go towards Allah subhana wa ta'ala, you should feel you are a Slave of Allah. The mistake we make is that because of our knowledge, rank, family nationality etc. I am better than somebody else. We all need to feel humble to Allah subhana wa ta'ala, there are no differences between us. How will you concentrate and get your body to work? Don t underestimate your body, your body can do more than what you can imagine how? When you heart is first. We need to gather our hearts. All the ibadah is about focusing, focus in the prayer, focus when fasting, when acquiring knowledge you need to focus, when reading the Qur an you focus. What makes you to focus? The knowledge about Allah subhana wa ta'ala. AlhamduliLlahi Rabbil Alameen. We need to feel this ayah in the Qur an All praises and thanks due to Allah subhana wa ta'ala. Allah subhana wa ta'ala showered us with bounties and blessings. The biggest bounty and blessing is that Allah subhana wa ta'ala allowed us to know about Him, He allowed us. Allah subhana wa ta'ala did not allow everybody to know about Him. Ya Rabbi, don t deprive me from this blessing, don t deprive us from this blessing. Ameen. You happiness is when you know your Creator. is a very vast name and impacts all parts of your life solves your problems, solves some imperfections in you. Know Allah and this will help you to overcome your cracks and your imperfections. How will I know my cracks? Allah subhana wa ta'ala took charge of showing you your cracks by making you go through situations and to feel that pain, when you feel that I don t know why I acted like that. Some of the cracks we want to overcome Allah subhana wa ta'ala will put you in a situation, turbiyah. Some people will feel this pinch slowly, Allah subhana wa ta'ala is showing you gently and at first you won t feel the pinch. When you have jealousy or hatred, Allah subhana wa ta'ala is showing you it to you but you are heedless. When we are reformed gently then you will feel the pinch. Don t neglect these signs and don t give excuses to yourself. When you know your cracks, don t ignore it, this is when you need tawakkul Allah. You want to overcome these weaknesses, you don t want to be among those not listening. If you felt the pain but it did not help you then you are not appreciating Allah subhana wa ta'ala gently reforming you. Then Allah subhana wa ta'ala will make it seem to you in your eyes that you are perfect though you are full of sins. You did not take that chance which Allah subhana wa ta'ala was showing you gently. I am still accusing the people. You think you are perfect, good, people will praise you that is the worst thing as there is no way of reforming, it will be reversed. When you know how Allah subhana wa ta'ala is working with us, it makes it makes it very easy to know how to be in life. When you feel bad take the chance as you don t know what will happen. When Allah subhana wa ta'ala nurtures you, shows you your faults don t ignore it. You need to make tawakkul Allah. 2

How to make Tawakkul Allah? When you find yourself like this, don t ignore it. I reacted like this because for example I am a jealous person just in your heart you feel this. You don t need tell someone about it and don t be sad because when Allah subhana wa ta'ala is showing you your faults maybe shaytan will say to you how do you expect to go to Paradise with all your faults. Shaytan will make you feel very low. You find your mistakes - tawakkul Allah. You cannot reform yourself, you cannot do it by yourself. When I see some faults in me, my heart focuses and jumps to Allah subhana wa ta'ala Ya Rabbi, you reform me. And also you will hate yourself because of that sin. I am always a jealous person, I am always putting people down, I am very bad with people, I am impatient in your heart Ya Rabbi help me. Hate having the sin. Some people love having the sins. They wish they were like a particular sin. In your heart you need to hate it. Some people are always thinking bad of people this is a sickness thinking that everyone is against you. In that moment you make tawakkul Allah and hate this in you. The name will help you - to detect your cracks, know your faults - then to overcome them by making tawakkul Allah and hating this fault in you. Do you get the tarbiyah quickly or slowly? through, everyone has a different speed. When you are in the reforming process to overcome your cracks, which we all go Quickly as soon as you make a mistake, for example you said something wrong to someone, someone else says the same thing to you. The immediate reforming is better as you are not stuck with the problem. You will be elevated and you will be reformed. Everyone has many different cracks, some cracks Allah subhana wa ta'ala will show you and some cracks Allah subhana wa ta'ala will show them to you later through the nurturing. What do you want, that Allah subhana wa ta'ala reforms you quickly or over a long time? Immediately, because than I can overcome the problems quickly. For example you maybe struggling with one problem for ten years, struggling and having pain. Or for example someone who likes the praise, they will go through many situations of being hurt when no one will praise them. Or if someone is jealous, for a long time they will feel the pain of being jealous. With the immediate reforming you don t feel the problem for a long time. Struggling with one point takes a lot of energy. Allah subhana wa ta'ala wants you to overcome this and then will come other things, but when it is finished you will be elevated. The quicker I am reformed the quicker I will reach my target, the quicker I will be Saliheen the Righteous. How to increase and quicken the reforming? There is an equation. Your reforming will be based on your level of faith. The more you increase your level of faith, the more you quicker the reforming will be. 3

The lower the level of your faith the reforming will take a long time. the stronger you faith the quicker the reforming. Faith goes with the reforming. Why is the reforming associated with the faith? This is hikmatallah Why isn t someone low in faith being reformed quickly? They will be in shock, they will reject the religion because their faith is weak. So Allah subhana wa ta'ala reforms you according to your level, how much you can take. The more faith you have it is as if you have a shield over you. The less faith you have the less ability you have to repel the problems. The one with little faith will be reformed according to their faith or they will broken. Sometimes we say if something happened to us ten years ago I would have reacted badly now you are protected by the faith so you don t react, you overcome it. If you want your reforming to be quicker, you need to take care of your faith the faith can absorb the hurt. How will I increase my faith to quicken my reforming? The name is as if you are going to a place and you are opening doors, opening doors & doors. You need to focus on your faith. For example someone knows they have been arrogant for many years, but their arrogance was never put down or criticised by others. What are the means to increase our faith? Reforming is good, as you will overcome it. With the faith you will detect it, solve it and that is elevation. 4

Al ilm a nnallah - Know more about Allah subhana wa ta'ala When you come to listen about the Names of Allah you leave and feeling you haven t changed. Human beings associate the change with physical changes. Allah subhana wa ta'ala from rahmatillah, when you constantly come and listen then a situation will come, what you heard about, a situation will come infront of your eyes. Just LISTEN about the Names of Allah your job is to listen about the Names of Allah, to read about the Names of Allah. Allah subhana wa ta'ala s job, Allah subhana wa ta'ala took charge of what you heard and in a situation Allah subhana wa ta'ala will protect you. Do what you are supposed to do and Allah subhana wa ta'ala will do for you what He will do for you. Any other knowledge you can apply in your life, for example the hadith. But with the Names of Allah you find the changes in a situation. Your job is to listen and Allah subhana wa ta'ala promised that He will protect what you learn, and He will make you to benefit from what you learn in a suitable time. Whatever I learn, in a time I need it, it will come infront of me. Al Ilm a nnallah is one the means to increase your faith. When you don t know Allah subhana wa ta'ala, you don t know about the reforming you will think everyone is against you. Knowing about Allah subhana wa ta'ala, Allah subhana wa ta'ala reforms you more quickly. Learn about Allah subhana wa ta'ala Be obsessed with the knowledge about Allah subhana wa ta'ala In a day, every time I listen about Allah subhana wa ta'ala it is not enough. This addiction is good as your reforming will be quicker. You want to listen to the Names of Allah more and more and you will trust Allah subhana wa ta'ala more and more. 5

How do you trust people and how do you trust Allah subhana wa ta'ala? mobile phones, we trust computers, we trust people etc. Sometimes we trust people and things more than we trust Allah subhana wa ta'ala, why? Because we can see people and things, we trust What do we need more? Allah subhana wa ta'ala. Because you cannot see Allah subhana wa ta'ala, you need more knowledge about Allah subhana wa ta'ala. Open your ears and open your hearts to receive the knowledge about Allah subhana wa ta'ala. The knowledge about Allah subhana wa ta'ala is not exactly like what you write, it is not only what you hear with your ears, the knowledge about Allah subhana wa ta'ala is hitting your heart. This is the change. The changes about the knowledge of the aqeedah are not practical, but in the heart. The change comes in the situations, not when listening. Allah subhana wa ta'ala will guide whomever He wills. May Allah subhana wa ta'ala increase us in knowledge about Him. You know the knowledge of Allah through the aqeedah, with the Qur an, the hadith make you to know Allah, everything in the religion, even the fiqh should make you to know Allah. don t separate any knowledge with knowing about Allah. make everything make you to know Allah. Kathrat a zikri Keys to Remembering Allah Constantly How will I remember Allah subhana wa ta'ala? When everything reminds you of Allah subhana wa ta'ala. When you know about Allah subhana wa ta'ala, everything reminds you of Allah subhana wa ta'ala, every situation reminds you of Allah subhana wa ta'ala, everybody reminds you of Allah subhana wa ta'ala, when you see everything it reminds you of Allah subhana wa ta'ala. Imagine when you remember Allah subhana wa ta'ala you remember what it is like when you remember somebody they appreciate it so much. When you remember Allah subhana wa ta'ala how does Allah subhana wa ta'ala appreciate you? Allah subhana wa ta'ala remembers you. Remembering Allah subhana wa ta'ala by itself, Allah subhana wa ta'ala will increase your faith. Imagine I am sitting remembering Allah subhana wa ta'ala. We remember Allah subhana wa ta'ala in the heart, everything makes you to remember Allah subhana wa ta'ala. For example; - someone gives you a gift, you remember Allah subhana wa ta'ala, - someone smiled at you, you remember Allah subhana wa ta'ala, - you are acquiring the knowledge and you remember Allah subhana wa ta'ala, - you see something in the Universe you remember Allah subhana wa ta'ala, Everything reminds you of Allah subhana wa ta'ala with your heart. Sometimes the remembrance of Allah subhana wa ta'ala spreads, goes to the tongue by saying SubhanaAllah, AlhamduliLlah, La illaaha illa Allah saying a du a when leaving the house, when entering the house, in the majlis etc. when sleeping, when you wake up, in the prayer etc. 6

This is when you are remembering Allah subhana wa ta'ala, Allah subhana wa ta'ala will reward you for that, Allah subhana wa ta'ala will remember you. According to what you do you will get better than what you think. Remembering Allah subhana wa ta'ala is being very humble, a very little thing. If you remember Allah subhana wa ta'ala by yourself, just a little bit; remembering is a blessing from Allah subhana wa ta'ala, Allah subhana wa ta'ala will remember you by Himself. If you are sitting with a group of people, you are with your friends, you don t talk about me, you & them, you talk about Allah subhana wa ta'ala, Allah subhana wa ta'ala will remember you in a group better than this group. Allah subhana wa ta'ala will remember you in front of the angels. You have to trust Allah subhana wa ta'ala, Allah subhana wa ta'ala promised to remember you. Isn t this a means to increase your faith? Of course, because Allah subhana wa ta'ala remembers me. This is kathra Adh Dhakireen Allah Katheeran you remember Allah subhana wa ta'ala constantly. Dhikr is like the grains of sand, when you pour water on the sand, the knowledge, it gets strong. Dhikr with the knowledge being poured on it will be very strong. Only the dhikr will not make you strong. You need the ilm, the knowledge. Distractions are our biggest obstacles. You need your heart to be gathered. How? With the ilm ul Allah, which is like water & like the remembrance of Allah subhana wa ta'ala. The more you are remembering Allah subhana wa ta'ala the more you are building your trust in Allah subhana wa ta'ala. These are means for building your faith your trust in Allah subhana wa ta'ala will be more. I want to increase my faith in order that Allah subhana wa ta'ala will nurture me quickly, then I will be reformed. You need the knowledge of Allah subhana wa ta'ala and you need the remembrance of Allah subhana wa ta'ala constantly in order to increase your trust in Allah subhana wa ta'ala. You trust Allah subhana wa ta'ala and sometimes people around you will tell you that you are very relaxed about a certain issue, that you are not worried, they want to make you feel unhappy. On one side you are trying to build the trust in Allah subhana wa ta'ala and on the other side someone wants to demolish it this is a trial from Allah subhana wa ta'ala. Patience and impatience the more faith you have in Allah subhana wa ta'ala you will trust Allah subhana wa ta'ala. The more knowledge you have about Allah subhana wa ta'ala the more you will remember Allah subhana wa ta'ala constantly. The patience will come at the same moment something happens you are trusting Allah subhana wa ta'ala. You are trying to trust Allah subhana wa ta'ala but people will say to you why didn t you react. You have to be aware of those trying to decrease your trust. If you don t increase your faith, your faith will decrease Ilm al Allah and keep remembering Allah subhana wa ta'ala constantly, all the time. This will make your faith strong. The stronger your faith the quicker your reforming will be because you can take it. TAWAKKUL you know Allah subhana wa ta'ala and you know that you need to rely on Allah subhana wa ta'ala. To rely on Allah subhana wa ta'ala you need the faith. TURBIYAH is with the faith. The stronger your faith the more quicker the nurturing from Allah subhana wa ta'ala. Then the more your tawakkul will increase. 7

At Ta at Obedience / To Obey Don t underestimate the smallest of good deeds. - make your days and nights full of worship - make your days and nights full of obedience - make your heart to obey Allah subhana wa ta'ala - make your tongue to obey Allah subhana wa ta'ala - make your brain obey Allah subhana wa ta'ala - make your limbs obey Allah subhana wa ta'ala Make all your body parts obey Allah subhana wa ta'ala. Imagine if we are all obeying Allah subhana wa ta'ala. With the obedience every part of your body has a type of worship. Some ibadhat are physical, the prayer, reading. Sometimes you feel lazy, no problem lie down and make dhikr in your heart. In any situation you can make dhikr. Prophet Muhammad ṣallallahu alayhi wa sallam when sleeping, his eyes were sleeping but his heart never slept. Constantly Prophet Muhammad ṣallallahu alayhi wa sallam s heart was remembering Allah subhana wa ta'ala. Make your heart work even your heart can make ta at. Sometimes you see people in a coma reciting the Qur an. His heart is working. Make your heart work. Kathra at ta at the minimum your heart can make is ta at. Don t waste anytime by not making ta at. - salat Dhuhu - tasbih, when you say SubhanaALlah, La illaaha illa Allah Allahu Akbar - Sunnah salat, nafl, Qiyam al Layl, witr Don t ever be a miser with yourself doing ta at. Spend on yourself, do sadaqa on yourself, do ta at. Ask Allah subhana wa ta'ala May Allah make me to taste different types of obedience. May Allah make me to taste different times of obedience Ameen. Ya Rabbi, use me to obey You, make me to be Your servant, I am Your slave. If you are coming towards Allah subhana wa ta'ala, you will come to Allah subhana wa ta'ala with different Ibadat, your heart will share in the different Ibadat. Some people are good in prayer, some people are good in fasting, some people are good in dawah, this is a talent. But you may have a hole, but Allah subhana wa ta'ala will appreciate that. Ask Allah subhana wa ta'ala for a share in all the obedience. This is a rahma from Allah subhana wa ta'ala, nobody can do all the different Ibadat all the time. You will find you will try to do different things and Allah subhana wa ta'ala will direct you to something you will do all your life. For some people they find themselves with the knowledge, others in worship, some people in the dhikr, some people in istighfar. You don t know where you will be. Don t be a miser, just do what you can and you will see Allah subhana wa ta'ala will guide you. Allah subhana wa ta'ala will help you When you make ta at this is the means to increase the faith. At tastaheen bil ma siy Don t ever underestimate the sins. Don t say that a sin is a small white lie, a small sin etc. Any sin decreases the faith. Don t say this is just mocking, just back biting, joking it will demolish the faith. 8

All these are means to increase the faith. Al Ilm al Allah Kathrat a Dhikr more remembrance of Allah At Ta at always you try to do good, share in all the Ibadat Don t underestimate any sins. Increase your faith = nurturing of Allah is quicker + tawakkul will be high. You cannot overcome your cracks which Allah subhana wa ta'ala is showing you unless you have tawakkul, faith in Allah subhana wa ta'ala. Tawakkul will increase + reforming is quicker = your success will be higher. Your success is that you will be Abd ul Salih a Righteous Slave of Allah. All our life will be like we will be Abd ul Salih. Shaytan may come to you and say you want the success, you want to be among the successful ones so that is why you want to increase your faith, you want some worldly thing in return. All our reforming is different, you are increasing your faith for your own needs. Allah subhana wa ta'ala gave us needs, we have imperfections in order to flee to Allah subhana wa ta'ala - Tawakkul Allah. But shaytan will say you are using tawakkul to benefit yourself. Initially when Allah subhana wa ta'ala makes cracks in your life, and when Allah subhana wa ta'ala makes your life NOT perfect, Allah subhana wa ta'ala makes you to really have needs in your life in order that you will go to Allah subhana wa ta'ala through this door. Allah subhana wa ta'ala knows that if your life is perfect, you will not go to Him, be humble to Allah subhana wa ta'ala. Tawakkul is when you are really humble to Allah subhana wa ta'ala. For example Allah subhana wa ta'ala made everything perfect, but you have a problem with your children, you have a problem with yourself, you have a problem with somebody, you have cracks. You will go to Allah subhana wa ta'ala through that door by making tawakkul Allah. Don t be deceived by what shaytan will say. For example you want a house. You need to make tawakkul Allah. Shaytan will say you are only making tawakkul because you want a house. Actually Allah subhana wa ta'ala made this crack in your life, Allah subhana wa ta'ala made this need in your life in front of you in order that you will go to Him. How human beings think when a friend calls after a long time you think she only called me because she has a problem, she needs something. But Allah subhana wa ta'ala is perfect in Attributes, Allah subhana wa ta'ala initiates some imperfection in your life because Allah subhana wa ta'ala wants you to go to Him. Allah subhana wa ta'ala knows you are weak, if everything is perfect you will not go to Him. Allah subhana wa ta'ala makes the situation that you don t have something in order that you have no one except Allah subhana wa ta'ala. Allah subhana wa ta'ala wants you to feel humble in order that you will turn back. You will not go to Allah subhana wa ta'ala unless you have need of Him in order to go back to Allah subhana wa ta'ala. Story: One person she did not pray etc. then she faced a great difficulty in her life and wanted to pray. In her mind shaytan whispers now have a problem you want to pray don t you feel ashamed. So she stopped praying. Many years later she was studying Islam. In an aqeedah class she read the modern kafireen is worse than the Quraysh kafireen. Why? The Quraysh kafireen, when in a time of difficulty they went to Allah subhana wa ta'ala. Now, today the kufar, in a time of good or in a time of bad they don t go to Allah subhana wa ta'ala. This is how the shaytan plays with the human being. 9

Allah subhana wa ta'ala wants to hear your voice. Allah subhana wa ta'ala wants you to talk, beg and ask Allah subhana wa ta'ala. Allah subhana wa ta'ala put you in a trial, put you in difficulty in order that you will go to Allah subhana wa ta'ala. AlhamduliLlahi Rabbil Alameen. Ya Rabbi, increase me in guidance and keep me on the way of guidance until the last moment of my life. This is a transcript of a lecture given by Sister Eman al Obaid. We ask Allah subhana wa ta ala for His forgiveness and His Mercy. Anything that is good from these notes is from Allah subhana wa ta ala. Any mistakes & misrepresentations are my own. I ask Allah subhana wa ta ala for His forgiveness and to put forgiveness in the hearts of those who read them. JazakAllah Khairan. 10