Poetry Series - poems - Publication Date: 2006 Publisher: Poemhunter.com - The World's Poetry Archive
(11/7/87) I was Born On November 7th 1987, And Not Long After that. Since then He Has been Feeding off my anger, jealousy, and depression, and turning it into something comprehensible. 1
A 44 Caliber Love Letter, Staight From My Heart Your Gone, But Your Still Here Why Can't You leave Your Shirt On my Back Tells of Your Presence The Condoms on the Floor Serve as A Reminder of What Once Was Why Can't you leave Me Alone You haunt My Sleep Filling My Dreams With Fantasies That Can Never be You Use My Passion As A weapon Against me You may Not have Set Out To Destroy Me But you Were Decieved Because you have Shattered my Broken Heart And killed My Will To Live Why Can't You Leave me Alone Becasue I Really Don't want you Gone 2
A Letter To Her Words Can Never Express How I Feel, But I love You Jenna, And You Hurt Me Really Bad Last Night, You've Known This For A While, But Kept Up Apperances. You Had Sex With Me, Just Because You Were Horny, I Had Sex With You, Because I'm In Love. But Alas, No More. It's To Much For Me To Bear. You Want To Remain Friends. So That I can Be There And Watch You Through Your Next Boyfriend? I'm Good. I don't want to know About it. I Swore You Were My Last. And It's True, You Shall Be. For I will never Love Another. Execpt Maybe The Way You, Loved Me. 3
Broken Mirrors & Suicide Notes Soaking In Your eyes Fading Life Fleeting Your Gift To Me This Time Deadlier Than Before Destroy the Future You Saw (My Destined Love, My Something To look Foward To) Escape Now Because Breathing Is Difficult When Your Here Always Dreaming The Same Dream The One Where you Help Me Drag The Bullets Out. (Even Though You Pulled The Trigger) Then I Apologize For Bleeding And You Smile An Empty Smile Because You've Always Imagined This (My Life Spilling All Over Your hands) You Left me Here I'm All Alone There's. No. Getting. Over. This. And Your Last words Won't keep Me Sane (Memories Can't Keep Us Warm) These Pills Are Only temporary And This Liquid lust Is Slowly killing Me With Out my Star. my Guide. I'll fall down and die again (This Time To <s>save</s> hurt you) As Your Pouring Crimson Regret (tragic, endless trails of red) And I Cast my Dead Eyes Into Yours Knowing. This. Isn't. Finite. And Stealing you Forever (I Always Told You) You'd never be Alone Here. 4
For Those Of You Who Told Me To Write About Something Happy I Drip Blood Onto The Sheets Because my Wrists Have Sprung A Leak Shadows, Overtaking my Eyes My, This is A Lovely Suprise I laugh In The Midst Of my Tears I begin to laugh at all my fears I hope that when I wake, they will be gone So That I can pretend, like nothing's wrong My thoughts are all over, Hither an Yon, My thought's are running, a marathon. As I fall, Into this sleep, Death slowly, begins to creep To take my life, and fill my head, with thoughts of what it's like, to be dead. 5
I'M Leaving Broken Hearts Hang From Shattered Mirrors Filled With Broken Glass He Runs Away Trying To Escape His Broken Past He Cries Out In The Dark Knowing That It Couldn't Last It Began Like A Dream, And Ended Like A Trainwreck It Was Over Way To Fast He Learned It All The Hard Way Love Was Just A Game One He Didn't want To Play The Stakes Were Way To High He Had Only One Heart To Give Only One Life To Live But Now They Are Both Gone With No Reason To Go On He Leaves This Place To Start Over Never To Return 6
It Slowly Kills Memories From My past Haunt My Sleep Dreams Of You Fill My Head Of how Things Once Were And Of Now The Difference Slowly kills You Bring Me Comfort In Your Dark Way Allowing Sweet Dreams Of Yesterday But when I Wake You Bring me Hell What happened To You For You To Not Care The Empty F**ks Of Those Nights Fill Me With Want For Another Night Of Light With You Alone Beside Me Alas No More Moving To Your next Victim It Slowly Kills 7
Last Call Tonights My Last Night So Drink Up, Boys It's Been Fun But It's Last Call And It's Time I Was Gone. The Suns Coming Up In Three Shades Of Grey You've been Fun Girl But I Can't Stay My Nights Are With Company My Days Are Alone To Give Me Time To Rest And Dream About Home Maybe One Day I'll Settle Down With A New Life And Get Rid Of This Old One Thats Been Nothing But Strife 8
Love Is The Color Of Rain Love Is The Color Of Rain On The Windshield With You Right Next To Me Driving Home 9
My Last Goodbye Suicide, The Best Way To Die, I Slit My Wrist, Like They Broke My Heart. With Anger, And Passion, And A Hint, Of Hatred. My Life Defines Me, I Am A Monster, I Am The Beast, I Will Rip, Rend And Tear. I ve Broken Hearts, To Few To Name, Forgiveness, Isn t Mine By Any Means. Now It s Time, Time To Leave, From This Cursed Place, That Caught me In It s Scheme. Forever Will I Sleep, But Never Rest Peacefully, For Mine Is The Conscience, That Will Never Cease. For The Things I ve Done, I ll Rot In Hell, And Make Others Thrilled, By My Misery. 10
My Single, Shattered Heart My Heart Plummets From My Chest To The Floor To Be Smashed Into A Million Bitter pieces Pieces that No Man With any number of lives Could Ever Put Back Together But Every Single Piece Crys with Longing for you And Every Single Piece Loves You With All It's Shattered Existence The Only Way This Irreplacable Irrepairable Object Can Be Fixed Is By Your hands In mine And Warm Beds Shared Together But You Refuse To Even Give me Your Time Which I so Desperately Need To Mend My Broken Heart So Now I Will Never be Whole 11
She Fades Away Tears Fall Down Alabastor Faces Distorting Her View Thoughts Run Untamed It's Happened One To Many Times Crimson Tears Stain The Skin That Was Once So Beautiful Her Heart Fades Away It Dies Into A Sea Of Regret Still Hearts Are Born Into Loneliness 12
The Skies Darken Our Goodbyes Dark Is My Soul, And Morbid Is My Creed I've filled my life with every Lust Just to Satisfy My Greed Anger and Temptation They are of the same breed They drive me every single day And motivate my deeds Fear and retribution I've lived with all my life They've been with me every day And have caused nothing but strife I wish that I could disappear For All the trouble I have caused I don't fit in Anywhere I guess I don't belong 13
The World Viewed Through A Straw Though The World may Hate Me I'll never walk alone You can kill the heart and destroy whats shown I'll never be more than visible You kill me slowly but you make me whole You use my body and Control my Soul I'll always be part ot the visible One day I'm gonna break away from this emotion that holds sway 'do You Still love me? ' She wants to know I'm nothing more than the visible What's done is done and that won't change 14
don't live for tomorrow when you can live for today I'm finally More than just visible 15
When Churches Turn To Smoke My Life Is filled with misery. My heart is full of woe. I just can't do anything right, I just wish that I could go. To Lands far beyond the sea, To live among the thorns, To Fall asleep and ever dream, That I was never born. I wish I could stop these feelings, To live with no regrets, Take take back all the things I've done, To be free from all these debts. But alas it will not happen, These things I wish inside, Forever will I live in fear, Of these things I have to Hide. 16
When Windows Become Doors What is Wrong With Me? Why Do I Act This Way? How Can I Fix This? When Will It End? Who Can Stop Me? Who Can Stop Me? No one I am my Own God and Master Your Words have no effect on me I will not fall sway to your self-desire for absolute Domination You can't control Me You don't even understand my actions I can't understand Why I do what I do I will sit here and soak in My OWN pool of self-pity I don't need your help 17
I can destroy Myself For I I AM ABSOLUTE 18
Why Do I Still Love You? WHY DO I LOVE YOU? WHY CAN'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE? I WANT YOU OUT OF MY LIFE! YOU SLOWLY EAT ME FROM THE INSIDE OUT! YOU HAVE LEFT BUT YOUR STILL HERE! I WANT YOU... gone... 19