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THE HOWLING DAWG 16th Georgia Volunteer Infantry, Company G "The Jackson Rifles" July 2013 Newsletter "Between Grief and Nothing I will take grief" REMEMBERING OUR CONFEDERATE DEAD AT GETTYSBURG WHO PERISHED TO DUST IN THE RICH PENNSYLVANIA SOIL, NEVER AGAIN TO KNOW THE PLEASURES OF HOME, FAMILY AND FRIENDS "For every Southern boy not once, but whenever he wants it, there is the instant when it's still not yet three o'clock on that July afternoon in 1863, the brigades are in position behind the rail fence, the guns are laid and ready in the woods and the furled flags are already loosened to break out and it's all in the balance, it hasn't happened yet, it hasn't even begun yet; it not only hasn't begun yet but there is still time for it not to begin against that position and those circumstances." (Paraphrased from "Intruder in the Dust" by William Faulkner) -1-

Earl and Beth Colvin, Charles Whitehead, Ethan Bloodworth, Brick Lee Nelson, Haden Tipton, Ben Morris, Dan, Cara and Ethan Bockholt proudly represented the 16th Georgia Regiment, Co. G forming a company with our brothers of the 39th Georgia at the 150th anniversary of the Battle of Gettysburg. In July of 1863, at Gettysburg, the 16th Georgia Infantry Regiment was under the Brigade command of General W.T. Wofford. This organization included the: 16th Georgia,18th Georgia,24th Georgia, Cobb's Legion and Phillips' Legion. On "July 2 they arrived at 4 P. M. and formed a line. Ordered to the front about 6 P. M. and advanced soon afterward along Wheatfield Road flanked the Union forces assailing the Loop and aided other Confederates thereby relieved in forcing them back through the Wheatfield to the foot of Little Round Top. Assailed there by a strong body of fresh troops and receiving at the same moment an order to withdraw the Brigade fell back at sunset to the grove west of the Wheatfield. July 3 supported artillery on Peach Orchard Ridge withdrew late in the afternoon. July 4. In line all day. At midnight began march to Hagerstown." The 16th Infantry Regiment was under the command of Colonel Goode Bryan (of Sparta, GA), when they lost 26% of the 303 men it had at Gettysburg. During the Battle, the 16th Georgia was among the troops that were poised for a late attack on a perceived weak spot in the Union line near Little Round Top, but were recalled by Lt. Gen. James Longstreet. Total casualties at Gettysburg were amazingly equal. Some figures show the Confederate losses as being only 266 higher than the Federals. Each side suffered more than 23,000 killed, wounded and missing. These 3-days netted double the bloodiest single-day total of Antietam.. -2-

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This is a photograph of Captain Augustus C. Thompson, commanding Company G, 16th Georgia Infantry. He would lead his company in the fighting and be wounded at Crampton's Gap on September 14,1862. Captain Thompson was born in Georgia in 1828 and elected captain of company G on July 20, 1861. He would command his company during the grueling marches and battles during the Summer of 1862. Though wounded, Thompson would recover from his wound and remain in the Confederate service until he resigned in August 1863. -7-

The following Southern Heroes of the 16 th Geo. Regiment were buried at Gettysburg: Albert Allen, Co A, J. R. Crosby, Co. B, A. E.Oliver, Co B, J.D. Reed, Co C, A. B. F. W. B. Elrod, Co. G & 7 other graves unmarked & unknown. GETTYSBURG CASUALTIES OF Co. G * Allen, Titus G. ---- Private July 20, 1861. Killed at Gettysburg, Pa. July 3, 1863. * Braselton, Elijah W.-Private July 20, 1861. Killed at Gettysburg, Pa. July 3, 1863. * Elrod, W. B. ---- Private July 20, 1861. Wounded at Gettysburg, Pa. July 3, 1863, and died of wounds near there in 1863. * Gilmer, John-Private Mar. 1, 1862. Captured at Gettysburg, Pa. July 5, 1863. Died of diarrhea; Point Lookout, Md. Jan. 17, 1864. * Ginn, Jesse ---- Private July 20, 1861. Killed at Gettysburg, Pa. July 2, 1863. * Nabers, Zachariah L. -Pvt. July 20, 1861. Wounded in right hip in Va, July 21, 1862;right shoulder permanently disabled at Gettysburg, Pa. July 3, 1863. Captured at Cold Harbor, Va. June 1, 1864. Released at Elmira, N. Y. June 16, 1864. (Born in Georgia Nov. 6, 1843.) * Trout, William R. ----Private July 20, 1861. Killed at Gettysburg, Pa. July 2, 1863. MORE GEORGIA NAMES IN NORTHERN GRAVES (adapted from "Wasted Valor" by Gregory A. Coco) * Corp. William R. Butler - 4th GA, Co. H - Killed July 1 - buried opposite Negro Church on Long Lane. * Frank Butts - 61st GA, Co. K - Killed July 1 - buried on Josiah Benner's Farm in a meadow along a fence. * Major Thomas Camak - Cobb's GA Legion - Age 33 - buried at John Cunningham's Place, across a creek from John Crawford's. * Sgt. Joseph R. Crutchfield - 2nd GA Batt., Co. D - Wounded July 2, died July 27; buried in Yard B, Row 2 between J. Schwartz and G. Bushman at 2nd Corps Hospital. * Thomas A. Elmore - 7th GA, Co. A - Wounded in head and arm on July 2; died July 7 - buried on the J.E. Plank farm, Hood's Div. Hospital. * Capt. John C. Fraser - Pulaski GA Arty. - buried on John S. Crawford's farm under a tree on the road from the mansion to the tenant house. * John R. Gibson - 22nd GA, Co. G - buried on the Widow J. Young's farm, 4 miles down the Baltimore Turnpike. Died July 14. Also shown as buried on the Samuel Durboraw farm near the tavern (the two farms were adjacent). * William J. Hogans - 48th GA, Co. A - buried west of D. McMillan's in woods close by General Pickett's line. * Thomas N. Ray - 22nd GA, Co. K - buried at Pennsylvania College on the north side of the building used as General Earl's Division Hospital. * Robert R. Walker - 8th GA, Co. G - buried on William Douglas farm under a large oak three to the rear of the extreme Confederate right. * Colonel Samuel P. Lumpkin - 44th GA - lost a leg, amputated at Gettysburg, died at Hagerstown, Maryland. -8-

40 Re-enactors Needed Information was recently sent to Private Ethan Bloodworth, 16th Georgia, by Les Patton, 1stSergeant of the 8th Georgia, regarding the need for 40 re-enactors to be in a Lifetime Network TV show sitcom, in which the characters are exploring reenacting. Hence, soldiers are needed for a battle scene. It will be filmed on location in Dalton, Georgia on 20 July and will involve about six hours of work. Gasoline to and from will be reimbursed. ***** The Gettysburg Address - Eloquent but Just Not True The Gettysburg speech was at once the shortest and the most famous oration in American history...the highest emotion reduced to a few poetical phrases. Lincoln himself never even remotely approached it. It is genuinely stupendous. But let us not forget that it is poetry, not logic; beauty, not sense. Think of the argument in it. Put it into the cold words of everyday. The doctrine is simply this: that the Union soldiers who died at Gettysburg sacrificed their lives to the cause of self-determination that government of the people, by the people, for the people, should not perish from the earth. It is difficult to imagine anything more untrue. The Union soldiers in the battle actually fought against selfdetermination; it was the Confederates who fought for the right of their people to govern themselves." - H. L. Mencken Bayonets Secure the Ballot Box in 1864 The 1864 re-election of Lincoln was closer than either the popular or electoral votes indicated, and without the soldier vote in six crucial States, Lincoln would have lost to George B. McClellan. The slim margins of Republican victory in most States were probably due largely to the presence of soldiers as guards and as voters at the polls, and had Illinois, Indiana Maryland, Pennsylvania, Connecticut and New York s votes gone to McClellan, he would have had a majority in the electoral college despite Lincoln s popular plurality. Courtesy of: Bernhard Thuersam, "Jim Crow" Law Origins Most histories cite Tennessee s 1881 legislation as the first of the Jim Crow type, New York in 1821 enfranchised all adult white male citizens, but kept black men in a politically subordinate caste with a $250 property-holding requirement for voting. Leading this initiative was future president Martin Van Buren who argued that democracy only made sense with racial exclusion. Van Buren ran for president again in 1848 on the Free Soil party ticket, which desired white racial exclusivity in the western territories. Courtesy of: Bernhard Thuersam, Chairman North Carolina War Between the States Sesquicentennial Commission bernhard1848@att.net ***** SOMETIMES THINGS JUST GET OUT OF HAND It was a well-intentioned effort Kellie Banks was baking a fresh supply of hard tack for troops departing for the 150th Gettysburg Caution: will not fit into every haversack and may be destined for the HARD- TACK HALL OF FAME. Thank You!!! To all who contributed such great pictures. -9-

WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS SUMMER? J.C. Nobles got to spend some quality time with his grandchildren in Florida and Mia McKie began her exciting new career at Colonial Williamsburg (and we hear that she made it to Gettysburg). The Nathan Sprague family toured the Antietam battlefield. July 4th found "Simple Heritage " at the Jarrell Plantation. On July 6, Noah Sprague stopped to fill up at a 7-11 Store in Fredericksburg that sat upon the exact spot where Joshua Chamberlain and his men piled up the bodies of their dead comrades as shields from rifle fire during a long December night in 1862. STANDING IN THE NEED OF PRAYER RAY CROSS (Alan Richards' step father) TIM PILGRIM GA State SCV Adjutant RICKY SMITH - recovering from heart surgery TIM FOWLER - recovering from surgery BRITANY THOMPSON (WATCHDOG'S DAUGHTER - Had surgery June 25 - now home) JERRY HAMILTON (who was with us at Shiloh - long home recovery) Coram Deo: Living in the Presence of God -10-

16TH GA Co. G. Jackson Rifles Brigadier General Herbert Burns - 478-668-3598 Capt. William Rebel Bradberry 404-242-7213 1 Lt. Noah Sprague 706-491-9755 1st Sgt. Kevin Sark 478-731-8796 2nd Sgt. Nathan Sprague 478-320-8748 Adjutant John Wayne "Duke Dobson 478-731-5531 waynedobson51@yahoo.com / waynedobson@cox.net 1st Corp. Alan "Cookie" Richards 478-308-9739 2nd Corp. Chas."Goodtime"Whitehead - 478-986-8943 Lead Chaplain Joel Whitehead - 478-986-8798 Honorary Chaplain Ronnie Skin Neal 478-994-0958 Assistant Chaplain Charles Hill 770-845-6878 Treasurer - Pvt. Earl Colvin 478-214-0687 Honorary Colonel J. C. Nobles - 478-718-3201 Musician - Landon Allen - 478-294-9870 ON FACEBOOK:"JACKSON RIFLES" OVER 2,192 FRIENDS (still counting enemies) All 2011-12 issues of The Howling Dawg are available @ (scvcamp1399.org), thanks to Steve Scroggins. IN DEEPEST SYMPATHY We were saddened to hear of the June 15th passing of Joanne Tyler of Morrow, Georgia This extraordinary lady was the Aunt of Gary Banks, the patriarch of that family and according to Gary "practically raised him". The Camp of the Unknown Soldier, # 2218 of Clinton, Jones County, Georgia, held our June 27th meeting at Chevy's Café on Hwy. 49 in Jones County, despite many of our number being away at the 150th Gettysburg event. The evening's featured program by Compatriot Lee Murdock about General Moxley Sorrel has been re-scheduled to August 22. The program for our July 25th meeting will be conducted by those individuals who attended the 150th Gettysburg event. We look forward to hearing them tell us all about it. SUMMER DRILL Lt. Noah Sprague has announced that our summer drill schedule will be as follows: FRIDAY, JULY 12 - Troops begin arriving and bivouac for the night; access to the Red Barn/ Mc Pope House and water supply will be up by Friday pm; firewood as it may be found. SATURDAY, JULY 13 - Reveille, breakfast (provide your own); first formation 10am, break for lunch at noon (provide your own). Remember we were planning a Saturday P.M. meeting with The Old Clinton Historical Society. Possibly we will have a brief tactical (bring both uniforms) before dismissing camp. Those wishing to stay over until Sunday can are do so. PLEASE ADVISE YOUR NCO's OF THOSE WHO WILL BE ATTENDING BY JULY 8. -11-

SOME GOOD READIN' JACK HINSON'S ONE MAN WAR is the true story of one man's reluctant but relentless war against the invaders of his country. A quiet, wealthy plantation owner, Jack Hinson watched the start of the Civil War with disinterest. Opposed to secession and a friend to Union and Confederate commanders alike, he did not want a war. After Union soldiers seized and murdered his sons, placing their decapitated heads on the gateposts of his estate, Hinson could remain indifferent no longer. He commissioned a special rifle for long-range accuracy, he took to the woods, and he set out for revenge. This remarkable biography presents the story of Jack Hinson, a lone Confederate sniper who, at the age of 57, waged a personal war on Grant's army and navy. Gregory Coco's book, WASTED VALOR, is an absolute must have for anyone interested in the Battle of Gettysburg. Coco's devotion for giving the reader the cold hard truths and facts regarding the treatment of the Confederate dead is excellent. Not only is this book informative, but it also mentions various true stories of Confederate soldiers that died on the battlefield or who were mortally wounded. Actual burial places of the soldiers are covered as well. Coco points out places along the battlefield where rows of the Confederate fallen were laid to rest. He also covers attempts by families to capture or find their deceased father, son or brother. Coco's book gives credit to where it is deserved as Confederates were not properly looked after or interred as Union soldiers were in the National Cemetery in Gettysburg. In February 1865, the end was clearly in sight for the Confederate government. Lee's defeat at Gettysburg had dashed the hopes of the Confederate army, and Grant's victory at Vicksburg had cut the South in two. AN HONORABLE DEFEAT by William C. Davis is the story of the four months that saw the surrender of the South and the assassination of Lincoln by Southern partisans. ***** Pickett's Charge at the Bushey Farm, Gettysburg, Pennsylvania, on June 30 (Matt Rourke/AP) -12-

LEGENDS OF THE PAST We thought you all would like to see the faces of some of the men who blazed the trail for us back in the 1960's. War Between the States reenacting was "supposed" to be a one-year deal, to celebrate the 100th anniversary in 1960 Well, we all see how that turned out! The picture above shows the late Sergeant Major Robert E. Lee Gray in his active service days. The photo, on the right, shows the image of the late Bill "Cook" Nolen (4rd in column). The 2nd man is Felmon Redd ("Redman" as he was known in the 16th GA). These are some of the men who started this way of life that we so cherish, and to whom our gratitude is due (not the political elements of the SCV/Re-enactment community) because they are the ones who got it started and kept it all going until they could train others to take their place in line. We salute their hallowed memory. Thanks to J.C. Nobles for sharing these (circa 1975 - early 1980's) photographs. -13-

JULY 12 & 13 - SUMMER DRILL AT CLINTON, GA /MEETING WITH OCHS SEPTEMBER 19-22 - 150TH CHICKAMAUGA -Re-enactor registration for this Blue Gray Alliance Event of September 19, 20, 21 and 22, 2013 in Walker County, Georgia is available on line at 150thanniversarychickamauga.com. The fee will be $20 per person. Persons under the age of 14 attend free. Each major organization in reenacting is represented on the registration forms. It is helpful in sorting the various commands and assigning them properly if the commanders would please advise your members to enter the proper affiliation when registering. Your registration will be processed using the PayPal system. If you choose not to pay with a major credit card you may print the registration form by hitting "print screen" and mail it in with a money order or personal check. Please be advised that it may take a few days for checks to clear and mail in registrations to be posted. Please mail your registration to: Cleburne's Division Attn: 150th Chickamauga P.O. Box 6359 Navarre, FL 32566. OCTOBER 5-6 - ANDERSONVILLE OCTOBER - BATTLE @ IRWINVILLE - POC - LEE MURDOCK @ 478-986-5290. NOVEMBER 1-3 - BATTLE OF ATLANTA - Re-enactor registration for both November 1-3, 2013 and September 19-21, 2014 is now open. The registration fee for 2013 and 2014 is $15.00 per person until October 15, 2013. After October 15th, the walk on fee is $25.00. The registration fee of $15.00 per person for 2014 is good until September 1, 2014. After September 1st, the walk on fee is $25.00. Children under 12 are free for both re-enactments but they must register. NOVEMBER 9 - CANNONBALL HOUSE APPARITIONS PROGRAM - Tours start at 5pm. Reservations required. NOVEMBER 23 - GRISWOLDVILLE 149th ANNIVERSARY COMMEMORATION DECEMBER 14 - A CANNONBALLHOUSE CHRISTMAS - 6pm. ***** Here dead we lie Because we did not choose To live and shame the land From which we sprung. Life, to be sure, Is nothing much to lose, But young men think it is, And we were young. - A.E.Housman This haunting photograph was taken July 5, 1863 by Alexander Gardner at Gettysburg. Three South Carolina soldiers, their bodies marked by boards, rest in the foreground. -14-

THE END OF DREAMS " the king covered his face, and the king cried with a loud voice, O my son Absalom, O Absalom, my son, my son! - 2 Samuel 19:4 Riding home from a recent shopping trip, Brenda, turned to me and unexpectedly asked "what are your dreams?" Some awkward silence elapsed until I softly stammered, "I guess I do not have any." This self-assessment staggered me - I have always been a person with so many interests, plans and "irons in the fire" that it would normally take substantial paper to list them all, but on this early summer day, I could not name one. By dreams, I mean plans, ambitions, goals, and things that I wanted to do in life - apparently none are left. I have either fulfilled, failed or abandoned them all. Some dreams needed to die, like those of being a rock star, and others, like being a prolific writer were marginally possible if not lucrative. My confession, regarding me not making plans for the future initially depressed me but after some mediation I actually rejoiced when I considered what God was trying to teach me. His lesson for me began several Wednesday evening prayer meetings ago as our gathering watched a series of Andy Stanley messages, entitled "Destinations." On the final episode, he narrated the episode from 2 Samuel 15-19 when King David abandoned his throne and all of Jerusalem to the overthrow of his son Absalom. The old warrior-king did not fight, but acted as if he was the least important element in the universe. Philippians 2:3 expresses this attitude so well: "Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves." This is not being a doormat, but just knowing when to hold 'em and when to fold David's dreams were gone - all he ever aspired to be seemed insignificant now. How willing he was to discard everything he valued for the life of his son: "O my son Absalom." Most of all David abandoned himself to the will of God. The old hymn, "At the Cross" contains the passage, "here, Lord, I give myself away, 'tis all that I can do." As I continued to consider the blankness of my own agenda, I realized that maybe, just maybe, for the first time in my life, all that mattered now was what God wanted for me. How I wished I had done more for God in the days of my youth (Ecclesiastes 12:1); I feel I have lived a selfish life. I was not so stingy with money or possessions, but I certainly was with my time. I wish I had given more of myself, listened instead of talked, read more than writing, and loved more than hated It is not too late for me, however. It may not be possible for me to be all that I could have been for God - but I can still be something for God. jwd -15-

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