THOUGHTS OF A SHARK VOLUME TWO PSYCHO WASTELAND Jerry W. Milburn, II Sharky
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TAKEOVER I write these words from my head They re tight before I start I m not writing with ink The words are blood from my heart They got me held prisoner Driving me insane Slowly but surely They re taking over my brain
BAPTISM OF SHARKY A beautiful day with the sun melting over the earth Everyone rejoicing the prodigal son's return Home to his savior Finally falling to his knees before his master. Angels form a perfect circle around the river The baptism is to begin The preacher places his hand on the skin of the unforgiven The day turns to night Water turns to blood And the preacher s hand burst into flames Evil screams out As the holy water flows Flashes of destruction Slashing through the mind The sinner can t be reborn When the evil refuses to die There is no hope in this life Only pain
CASTRATION OF AMERICA America is in violation Of discrimination Leading to retardation of The population Leaving the congregation In isolation Killing inspiration Rebuilding plantations Causing frustration A fixation on flirtation Using misinterpretation As the narration For the lack of salvation Since the creation A collaboration Of good and evil Damnation in revelation A situation of realization Temptation and imagination Leading to the lack Of concentration Aggravation And longing For vindication Leads us to the realization For the need Of detoxification The lack of determination Loss of education And acceptance of procrastination Will be the castration Of America
DYING I'm not afraid of dying It's not knowing what is yet to come Pain doesn't last forever No matter where you're from White, black, rich or poor We all have the doubt Never knowing till the end What this life was all about The fear of not knowing Always overwhelms the mind Hours and hours of searching Never understanding what we find Religious beliefs And thoughts Allowing yourself To be bought Following so many directions Bracing for the end While the truth is out there- Floating in the wind Is the end just the beginning So much time wasted crying No one knows what's yet to come I'm not afraid of dying.
EIGHT My eyes jerk open Clock changes to 3:58 The 8 jumps at me Only 60 seconds To steal my breath away Fighting to get my mind straight Blurred vision Attacking my thoughts Pale green light Longing to control my soul 3:59 Peace for the next 9 minutes
FALLING I walk to the edge And stop and look down I saw my life before me And all I could do is frown Could I fly like an eagle? Or just hit the ground Would I scream as I fell? Or not make a sound?
GOD S MAFIA Jesus walked in with two huge guys My soul was shaking He had told me what to do Yet I hadn t listened Now was the time to pay up The first huge guy, calling himself Lucifer Grabbed me by the throat and asked You got the money? I stated my answer As my body was slammed to the floor Judas, the second guy Quickly picked me up What happened, were we not clear? The only thing clear was that these men Did not care about my well being As I bounced off the wall I hit the ground in pain Jesus walked over to me My son, this was your last extension His hand slowly coming towards my head I saw the pain in his eyes When he looked up to realize Lucifer and Judas had spoken A scream came from the son You want a war, you got it
HUNTING AT MCDONALDS A redneck in McDonalds Eating a Big Mac Deer with a 12 gauge Hiding in the back "I love animals Love them deer Blow Bambi's head off And never spill my beer" The deer gets angry Bullets will soon fly Redneck fillets In the pan, starting to fry Think before you kill Animal for fun What if the deer Was holding the gun?
I SAW HER I saw her the other day. I wasn't sure what to say. Her eyes looked so sad. I knew it was something bad. After a while she let go Told me all there was to know My God how my heart broke It tore apart as she spoke You should have been there too Oh, she was so in love with you She told me how you met A day she won't ever forget And just for a little while She spoke of you with a bright smile How you'd spend all night making love You were all she ever dreamed of Until that fateful day She summoned up the courage to say The child she carried belonged to you And she didn't know what to do All she wanted was your advice Not a reaction cold as ice You said if you keep it I'm out of here So she did it out of fear Of losing you, it's true She was so in love with you Yesterday she found you'd left She was now completely bereft She first lost her child, now you She said there's one thing left to do I tried my best to change her mind But her mother made the grisly find As I stand here at her grave I think of all the love she gave So much she lost control God rest her blessed soul
NIGHTS ALLURING SLEEP There are no more dreams to dream, And nothing will ever fill this empty Space in my heart, Just when we think everything is all right We end up back at the start, And there are no heroes to save the day, And love, our love, never seems to find a way There are no more smiles to smile, Happiness is nothing more then Rainbows in the mist, Without the sun there is nothing left, But tears and a wish, That this path that we have traveled Will soon come to an end, And I'll find a place where this broken Heart can mend. Where dreams and laughter will always Be mine to keep, Where perhaps I will find peace at last In night's alluring sleep.
ONE MORE DAY Watching stars hover in darkness Gives me the hope of light ahead A glimmer of salvation From the hell we call Earth Knowing you won't get out alive Leaves a bitter taste to swallow A selfish feeling of losing What the next generation will gain Missing so much that is still yet to come Begging for one more day Life flashing before your eyes Wasting time like we waste natural resources Always claiming to have tomorrow Yet never getting past today "I'll do that when I'm older" Ignoring the entities placed on your shoulders Good vs Evil Was never really the battle We controlled our fate Losing out on one more day.
OUIJA- REVISED My hand s on the Ouija It s fucking with my head Surrounded by life Talking to the dead The glow of their eyes Allow me to realize The pains just begun Longing for the fun Childhood once held It s all just a game Great lives once lived It s a god damn shame My hand starts to shake As my thoughts go insane My finger tips burn Slowly embracing the pain My souls on fire possessing but one desire My eye drops a tear releasing all my fear Something crosses over And fills my body new So many years ago The reason for all I do Some call me evil Satan you could blame Resurrection of Death Based on a little game Coming through the Ouija The evil entered me My eyes turned red The soul already dead 14 years have passed Since that darkening day Speaking only truth Not caring what I say Never truly knowing The reason for the hate Ripping out my soul Fucking with my fate All was just a toy
For a young boy Looking through the eye Slowly starting to die I built the bridge Allowing evil within You all shall pay For my greatest sin
RAPE THE RIGHTEOUS I m in your head I ll rape your mind There is no telling To what I ll find The thoughts you have Scare even me The righteous and saved Is what you claim to be You think your better Satan can t take THIS blame Because in the end We are all the same
SLOW PAIN I LAY IN THE BED AND SCREAM ALL NIGHT WAKE UP CRYING, MY HEART FULL OF FRIGHT I RIP MY HAIR OUT AND BLOOD RUNS DOWN I TELL MYSELF TO STOP BUT I DON T MAKE A SOUND THE BARRELS AT MY HEAD, WITH MY FINGER ON THE TRIGGA I M TO SCARED TO PULL IT, I M A BITCH ASS NIGGA YOU CAN CALL MY PYSCHO, CRAZY, THIS I AM THERE IS NOTHING IN MY HEAD BUT A BUNCH OF MAYHEIM STEP INTO MY MIND, IT S RAN LIKE THE MILITARY STICK A SWITCHBLADE INTO ANY ADVESARY I LISTEN TO MUSIC, TO GET SOME RELIEVE WHO THE HELL IS THIS TO MY DISBELIEF BUT SOME WEAK ASS BITCH, TRYING TO BE HARD I JUST CUT MY HEAD OFF, I THINK I LL DISREGARD AND SIT IT ON THE SHELF AND WALK AROUND BEHEADED CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS FUCKING SHIT? DAMN RIGHT I SAID IT I FEEL THE SLOW PAIN STAND IN THE POURING RAIN I HAD THIS VISION NOW I M GOING INSANE
A WORLD I HATE Pain and sorrow all I know no tomorrow feeling low what I would give just to be free and just to live as the real true me but I hide under the mask I make like crashing thunder in the world I hate