John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved A biographical study of the Apostle of Love from the pages of Scripture

John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved A biographical study of the Apostle of Love from the pages of Scripture Introduction Scripture introduces a man by the name of John. He often appears as a quiet man. Yet this alone may not fully describe him because Jesus called him, along with his brother James, Boanerges, which is, The sons of thunder (Mk. 3:17). There was a power or temper there, but most often it was kept hidden. He became one of the twelve men that Jesus called to be His apostles. This position he handled in a most humble way. John is prominent in the gospels but unlike the Apostle Peter he is seldom seen speaking (see Mk. 9:38; Lk. 9:49; Jn. 13:25; 21:7, 24). He appears to have had a desire to not bring attention to himself. In the gospels he is most often listed with his brother James, John s name always coming second. Only in two places do the gospel writers record John s name by itself (Mk. 9:38; Lk. 9:49) and each of these is a reference to the same event. In the book of Acts he is most often seen coupled second to the more outgoing Peter. When John was used of God to pen Scripture, the same shyness of not using his own name is obvious. In his gospel account, his name, John, is never recorded. He veils himself in comments such as two of his disciples (Jn. 1:35) or that other disciple (Jn. 20:8). When he needed to be specific, he used phrases such as, the sons of Zebedee (Jn. 21:2) or the disciple which testifieth of these things, and wrote these things (Jn. 21:24). In his gospel the title of apostle is never mentioned, neither is the appointment of the Twelve to that ministry. In his three short epistles he totally avoids the name John. In I John he never refers to himself other than with the pronoun I (or among the collective we or us ). He uses the title of Elder in the opening lines of II and III John. It is not until the last book of the New Testament, Revelation, that he uses his own name (and there it appears only five times). In the opening passage of Revelation the reader is given a hint as to why John was so shy about his own name. He knew his purpose was not to raise himself up, but he was to magnify his Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. The message of the Revelation of Jesus Christ was sent by an angel to his servant John (Rev. 1:1). He was always the servant, close to the Savior. He was not the one who would deny his Master. He was the one that would follow the closest even to the foot of the cross. And in the opening verses of Revelation he revealed his name because as a servant and a witness of Christ he was required to bare record of the word of God, and of the testimony of Jesus Christ, and of all things that he saw (Rev. 1:2). Yes, John was a servant, yet he was a special servant. He, behind his veiled pen, was that disciple whom Jesus loved (Jn. 21:7). He wrote (while not openly naming himself) as if this apostle was someone special as if the love of Jesus was something only for him. But this appeared to be so only because of the infinite love of Christ. John, more than any other writer of Scripture saw, discovered, and wrote of the love of the Savior. And it was a love so pure, so full in its intensity, that to each one that receives His divine love, it is as if this love was a single love meant only for the one that received it. Jesus, of course, knew the heart of John. He knew that John responded to His divine love. And to that so willing response, Jesus gave him more and more. He gave him the privilege of being an author of divine text a text that thousands upon thousands would read over the centuries to follow. John s writing would pass on the words of this infinite, John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 1

divine love. His words show that Divine Love in the person of Jesus Christ the Eternal Word and he said, the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us (Jn. 1:14). It was from John s pen that the reader of Scripture finds, For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son (Jn. 3:16) and God is love (I Jn. 4:8). How many souls have found the love of Jesus Christ in His Word through the pen of that disciple whom Jesus loved (Jn. 21:7)? The toll will not be known until they all meet before the heavenly throne of the Lamb! I. The Early Days with Jesus A. First meeting Scripture shows that John was on the scene early in the earthly ministry of Jesus. Two disciples are seen with John the Baptist. It is recorded that the next day after John stood, and two of his disciples; And looking upon Jesus as he walked, he saith, Behold the Lamb of God! (Jn. 1:35-36). Clearly these were words that John had been waiting for. As soon as he heard them, he and the one with him (Andrew, v. 40) they followed Jesus (Jn. 1:37). John then, along with Peter, Andrew, Philip, and Nathanael, is shown among the early disciples of Jesus. It was here that John was introduced to the One that would teach him the greatest lessons of divine love. B. Marriage feast in Cana Following Jesus meeting and association with these early disciples there was a marriage feast held in Cana of Galilee. John records, both Jesus was called, and his disciples, to the marriage (Jn. 2:2). Because this event is only recorded in John s writing, John s name is not mentioned as being with these disciples. John chose to not name any of this group that accompanied Jesus. Was John among them? It would seem very likely because this event followed so closely to the announcement by John the Baptist of Jesus identity as Messiah. This marriage feast was a unique event as it would be the occasion that the Messiah would begin to show His power as deity. Those preparing the feast had underestimated the amount of wine needed. It was soon found that the supply of wine was totally expended. This came to the attention of Jesus mother. She then brought it to Jesus attention. In response to the request of His mother, Jesus miraculously produced sufficient beverage from jugs of pure water. This first miracle had the effect that his disciples believed on him (Jn. 2:11). As this study will show, John was a sensitive man. He looked at things a little differently from the others. John would be the one to most understand the love of the Father manifested through the Son. It is interesting that only John records this first miracle. Why would that be? It is possible that this event had a greater effect on John than some of the others. Many of the disciples saw the miracle. Many believed on Him because of it. But it was John who noted that this was done in response to a request from His mother. John s writing, then, indicates that Jesus response was out of love. One (Mary) who believed Jesus had the power made the request of Him. His first miracle showed not only His power, but also His infinite care for those that were associated with Him. John would note much more of this divine love this divine care for those around Him. John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 2

C. Temple Event at Passover Not long after the wedding feast, the time of Passover arrived. It was common for the Jews to attend the feast at Jerusalem. John s account notes that Jesus was among those that went up to the feast. Here the early disciples witnessed Jesus zeal for purity at the Temple called by His name. John and the others would see as Jesus found in the temple those that sold oxen and sheep and doves, and the changers of money sitting (Jn. 2:14). They became the objects of the wrath of the Messiah as He drove out both the sellers of animals for sacrifice and their inventory (the sheep and oxen). The moneychangers had their tables overturned. John s writing shows that Jesus followers took note. He records, his disciples remembered that it was written, The zeal of thine house hath eaten me up (Jn. 2:17). James and John would both remember the judgment here. Later in Jesus ministry, they would ask Jesus to again judge a group that did not show proper respect (see Lk. 9:54). D. Nicodemus While in Jerusalem, Jesus again manifested His divine power among the people. From the crowds present, many believed in his name, when they saw the miracles which he did (Jn. 2:23). John chose to record the account of one of the rulers of the Jews who was attracted to Jesus by what He manifested. Nicodemus went to Jesus under the cover of darkness and said, no man can do these miracles that thou doest, except God be with him (Jn. 3:2). The response of Jesus is recorded in detail. John picked up the central points in clear detail. He showed that Jesus had the divine understanding of the spiritual condition of those to whom He spoke. His gospel also shows Jesus love and care for the lost. Jesus knew immediately that Nicodemus was not a child of God. In a tone that warned Nicodemus that his spiritual condition left him open for eternal peril, Jesus said, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God (Jn. 3:3). This man had come to ask Jesus questions not knowing truly what his need was. John showed that Jesus both knew about and cared for this lost soul. Were John and other disciples aware of this conversation between Jesus and Nicodemus? Scripture does not show the reader either way. If there were a crowd with Jesus, Nicodemus would most probably have been reluctant to be seen by others. He used darkness to keep his mission secret. If Jesus then was alone, did He share the conversation with the disciples afterwards? That is not shown either. If John was aware of this meeting at the time, his writing does not reveal it. But his record does show that at the time of his writing he understood the heart of Jesus and the heart of the Father. John is the one who recorded the words, For God so loved (Jn. 3:16). Whether or not John understood this love at the time of the event, he certainly took pains to have his readers understand the love of God in his gospel. God s love is clearly a central theme of most of John s writings. E. The Woman at the Well After Jesus early ministry in Judaea, He headed back to Galilee. His route took Him through the unusual route of Samaria. John s account records an event that happened on the return trip that is not shown in any of the other gospel narratives. Again, true to what caught John s attention as a disciple, it shows Jesus reaching out in love to a lost soul. There was a Samaritan woman, of the group despised by most Jews. Jesus placed John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 3

Himself in her path knowing her lost condition. He offered her the living water of eternal life. When she shared her meager knowledge of the coming Messiah, He said, I that speak unto thee am he (Jn. 4:26). John showed that this meeting was fruitful recording, many of the Samaritans of that city believed on him for the saying of the woman (Jn. 4:39). As fruitful as this encounter was, it left the disciples of Jesus with more questions than answers. This love of God was new to them. The Scriptures show that upon this came his disciples, and marvelled that he talked with the woman (Jn. 4:27). The eyes of the followers of Jesus were slow to understand the love of God, but among this group it is evident that there was one who was beginning to understand, and that was John! At that time, Jesus had not called any to be with Him in a permanent capacity. When Jesus had returned into Galilee, apparently many of His disciples returned to their occupations. John returned (as many others did), then, to his work as a fisherman of the Sea of Galilee. II. John Forsakes All A. The Call John is next seen working at his occupation with other fishermen. Jesus was now teaching in Galilee. As He approached the shore of the sea, the people pressed upon him to hear the word of God (Lk. 5:1). Those with whom John labored had just finished their night s labor in their occupation on the Sea of Galilee and were washing their nets (Lk. 5:2). Their boats were idle for the moment and Jesus chose to use one of the two available as a floating pulpit. Simon was imposed upon by the Lord to move his craft out from the shoreline. From there Jesus taught His precious message with the fishermen certainly listening with full attention. Following the message, Jesus instructed Simon, Launch out into the deep, and let down your nets for a draught (Lk. 5:4). The catch was so plentiful that Simon and his crew needed more help. Therefore, they beckoned unto their partners, which were in the other ship, that they should come and help them (Lk. 5:7). Scripture shows that Simon and the other fishermen were astonished at the amount of the catch. The text also mentions two others among the group, James, and John, the sons of Zebedee, which were partners with Simon (Lk. 5:10). This shows the other boat belonged to the Zebedee family. Following this miraculous event, Jesus gave a call to service to those mentioned in Luke s account as well as Andrew (mentioned in Matthew s account). John was among those that forsook all, and followed him (Lk. 5:11). It was not a hard choice for John to make. He had already seen miracles and heard divine messages from the one that John the Baptist indicated to be the Messiah. John had also seen His love. More than anything to John it must have been this divine love to which he was drawn. B. Full Time Service With this call to full time service, John set off to follow Jesus Christ. He still had much to learn and he would see many things that would amaze him. But as time progressed his focus would become more and more on the One who had called him to service. John began a process of quietly growing close to the Lord. This closeness was John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 4

not instant, but it seems that he found that place of rest in Christ sooner than any of the other disciples. Following James and John s leaving their father Zebedee in the ship with the hired servants (Mk. 1:20), Jesus brought His followers to Capernaum. Here John would begin to see more of the uniqueness of the One he was following. Jesus entered in a synagogue and taught. As John observed, he saw that the people were astonished at his doctrine: for he taught them as one that had authority, and not as the scribes (Mk. 1:22). While Jesus was teaching the people, John was present as a man with a demonic spirit cried out in the crowd. What must have John thought as he heard the voice of the demon saying, Let us alone; what have we to do with thee, thou Jesus of Nazareth? art thou come to destroy us? I know thee who thou art, the Holy One of God (Mk. 1:24)? Even more amazing was the fact that as Jesus commanded the spirit to be quiet and to depart from the possessed person, the spirit obeyed. Again John saw an astonished group of people as they questioned among themselves, saying, What thing is this? what new doctrine is this? for with authority commandeth he even the unclean spirits, and they do obey him (Mk. 1:27). John had heard John the Baptist testify that this Jesus was the Messiah. Now John was seeing again and again the proof of it through Jesus display of divine power. Jesus continued to show His deity in His actions. John was with Jesus and His followers as they visited Peter s home (see Mk. 1:29). This must have been familiar territory for John. John and his brother James had shared their labors fishing with Peter and his brother Andrew. They must have known each other s families. John would have noted the illness of Peter s wife s mother and would have shared their concern for her health. The concern was so great that they besought him for her (Lk. 4:38). John must have shared their joy as Jesus stood over her, and rebuked the fever; and it left her: and immediately she arose and ministered unto them (Lk. 4:39). All there saw the miracle, and were amazed by it. What did John see? Certainly he saw the same healing, but it is most probable that John made a mental note of the love behind the power. This was not just a miracle to show Who Jesus was, but the fulfilling of a request from concerned loved ones of the woman healed. John could see that Jesus was just not an entity unto Himself, but One that allowed Himself to enter into the lives and concerns of those around Him. This healing was an act of love on Jesus part. John would note it and he would see more of this love expressed by Jesus in His ministry. The next morning, long before the sun arose, Jesus went out, and departed into a solitary place, and there prayed (Mk. 1:35). Mark records that Simon and they that were with him followed after him (Mk. 1:36). John would have been with them. They came to Jesus and found Him in prayer with the Father. It is most likely that they did not disturb Him until He had concluded His time with His Father. They, then, would have stayed afar listening to the prayers of the Divine Son. What awe must have been in them. John more than anyone would have noted the divine love exchanged in this time of prayer. It was the part of Jesus character that John was most sensitive to. Oh, what wonderful things he must have learned there! John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 5

III. One of the Twelve A. Jesus Prepares for His Choice Jesus had many that followed, some serious, some less so. As the ministry progressed Jesus observed who it was who responded to His teaching and His methods. Soon the time came for Jesus to draw some of these more committed men to a closer form of service. Luke wrote of this time in the life of Jesus saying that it came to pass in those days, that he went out into a mountain to pray, and continued all night in prayer to God (Lk. 6:12). This full night of prayer shows Jesus did not lightly approach this ordination. He was to be sure of what the Father had in mind, and He would choose only the men which thou gavest me out of the world (Jn. 17:6). There was to be no question as to the makeup of the twelve. The day dawned. Jesus prayer was complete. He knew whom He would call. So, Jesus called unto him his disciples (Lk. 6:13). John would have been among those who responded. Certainly he was aware that Jesus had spent the night with the Father. He would have known that something new was happening. Jesus attitude of prayer surely set the mood. Luke says that Jesus chose twelve and then named them apostles (Lk. 6:13). Mark shows that Jesus had a purpose in this saying, that they should be with him, and that he might send them forth to preach (Mk. 3:14). B. Named an Apostle John had already determined that nothing was more valuable than Jesus was. He had already forsaken all to follow Him. Now the opportunity to serve Jesus was even greater. He must have longed to be among those closest to Him. Peter was always first. So, John must have listened quietly as Jesus called His leader to Him. In the beginning the disciples were probably not fully aware of the significance of this call. But whatever the call was, surely John paid full attention. Then he heard the name of Peter s brother Andrew being called. Andrew was with John as John the Baptist introduced Jesus as the Messiah. Undoubtedly these two were close. John would have been happy for his close friend and fellow fisherman. If Luke s account is chronological, then the next name John would have heard was his brother James being called forward. James and John had spent many hours together in their family business. There was a special bond between them. John would not want to be separated from him in this service. As important as it was to be with Jesus, John had even more reason now to want to be of this group being called. He must have thought, will my name be next? Did John pray that Jesus would call him? It is very likely. The next words John heard must have been very joyous to him. His name was the very next. He so very willingly answered this call. After him, eight more followed at the beckoning of Jesus. And these became His apostles. John gladly took part, but would not take any pride in the call for himself, but would learn (after further training) to be a humble servant to the Master. John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 6

IV. In His Service John, as one of those chosen to be of the twelve, was almost always with Jesus. He had a front row seat to the many teaching sessions. He listened to wonderful messages such as the Sermon on the Mount as recorded in the early chapters of Matthew. He observed the many miracles of healing and the casting out of demons. John could not help but notice the compassion and love that Jesus had for the lost. Jesus met both physical and spiritual needs of those around Him. The Master was able to command an angry sea and it readily obeyed. To feed 5,000 with a few food scraps was well within His mighty power. It was all done before the eyes of the Apostle John. He observed and grew in his love and knowledge of Jesus. Jesus observed the twelve. He knew each of them intimately and He knew who to draw closer to Him. John had a heart for the Savior and Jesus in His power as deity was fully able to comprehend the desire of John to be used of the Messiah. This desire was acknowledged, and Jesus moved to draw John closer. A. Jairus and His Daughter A man by the name of Jairus is found in the gospels of Mark and Luke. He was a ruler of a synagogue. John was among Jesus followers when this man fell down at Jesus feet, and besought him that he would come into his house (Lk. 8:41). Jairus was in great distress because he had one only daughter, about twelve years of age, and she lay a dying (Lk. 8:42). Jesus certainly had compassion on this man and desired to minister to him and his daughter but He did not immediately go to the home for as he went the people thronged him (Lk. 8:42). Luke records that during this time of delay Jesus healed a woman having an issue of blood twelve years (Lk. 8:43). Just as Jesus was finishing His ministry to the ill woman and the anxious father looked on, there cometh one from the ruler of the synagogue s house, saying to him, Thy daughter is dead; trouble not the Master (Lk. 8:49). With all this commotion the grief stricken father must have felt hopeless. Yet, Jesus overheard the message to the distressed father and immediately comforted him saying, Fear not: believe only, and she shall be made whole (Lk. 8:50). This was a hurting man. His only daughter was dying as he left to find help. Now he got the painful message of her passing. The grief and sadness must have been overwhelming. This man was not alone, but in a throng of people, each with their own problem. The twelve must have also been close by. As John observed, he must have wonder at Jesus care. So many clambered for the attention of Jesus, yet Jesus knew what needs were to be met. Jesus gave this burdened soul hope to cling to. What compassion John must have observed from Jesus. Jesus then purposed to proceed to the home of the Jairus. There were many following including His twelve. But, Jesus separated from the crowd. He also made a separation among His apostles. Mark records that Jesus suffered no man to follow him, save Peter, and James, and John the brother of James (Mk. 8:37). This was a move that drew John (along with Peter and James) a step closer to the Master. When Jesus arrived at the home He brought the three apostles He had chosen in, to the bedside of the dead girl. As John looked on Jesus asked the unbelieving mourners to leave and then saw Jesus fulfill His promise to the grieving father. Jesus spoke the words, Maid, arise (Lk. 8:54). Then her spirit came again, and she arose straightway (Lk. 8:55). Jairus, in faith, had asked Jesus help. Once again John observed Jesus reach out in a divine hand of love to meet John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 7

the need of the one who requested His help. John would see much more and John would draw even closer to the Word that became flesh and dwelt among us! B. Some Walked No More As John was drawing closer, many that followed Jesus were drawing away. The Jewish leaders were also hardening their stand and were openly opposing the ministry of the Messiah. Matthew indicates the change in Jesus program with the words, Then began he to upbraid the cities wherein most of his mighty works were done, because they repented not (Mt. 11:20). When John later recorded his gospel, he focused on this change in more detail than any of the other gospel writers. John draws the contrasts of those with temporal thinking to those who were looking beyond to the heavenly. In John 6, John recorded the miracle of the feeding of the 5,000. There was a great response to this ministry that had touched so many people at one time. They said that Jesus is of a truth that prophet that should come into the world (Jn. 6:14). Jesus was aware of the emotion in the crowd, and when He perceived that they would come and take him by force, to make him a king, he departed again into a mountain himself alone (Jn. 6:15). By the following day, Jesus had passed over to the other side of the Sea of Galilee with His disciples (Jesus traveling part way by walking on the water). The group that had been fed then followed Jesus to the other side as well. With Jesus now on the other side in Capernaum, and with clamoring people milling around Him, John recalled the words of Jesus that separated earthly from the heavenly. John, at the time of the events of John 6, had forsaken all to follow Jesus. He willingly had given up the earthly to share in the ministry of Him that was heavenly. As he ministered with Jesus he certainly was grieved with the attitude of those who followed Jesus for only what they could get. He recorded the sharp words of Jesus Who said, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Ye seek me, not because ye saw the miracles, but because ye did eat of the loaves, and were filled (Jn. 6:26). The miracle had shown that Jesus was God! The majority of the people saw only that Jesus can fill my belly. John shows Jesus continued rebuke of this thinking: Labour not for the meat which perisheth, but for that meat which endureth unto everlasting life, which the Son of man shall give unto you: for him hath God the Father sealed (Jn. 6:27). John s record shows Jesus continued effort to turn the thinking of the people from their belly to their heart. Jesus presented the spiritual nature of His message with the words, I am the bread of life (Jn. 6:35). And again He said, And this is the will of him that sent me, that every one which seeth the Son, and believeth on him, may have everlasting life: and I will raise him up at the last day (Jn. 6:40). John shows the sad situation that most of those present did not understand the message. His gospel shows that the Jews then murmured at him (Jn. 6:41) and strove among themselves (Jn. 6:52). Again he recorded the words of Jesus that drew the line of contrast as Jesus said, It is the spirit that quickeneth; the flesh profiteth nothing: the words that I speak unto you, they are spirit, and they are life (Jn. 6:63). John sadly looked on as From that time many of his disciples went back, and walked no more with him (Jn. 6:66). They only saw value in the earthly, not the heavenly. With many of the less serious followers giving up their zeal to follow Jesus ministry, Jesus then turned to His closer followers (the twelve) and said, Will ye also go away? (Jn. 6:67). Each of the twelve had to answer the question in their own heart. The account John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 8

in John 6 shows Peter immediately saying we believe (Jn. 6:69). It would be nice if the records showed that each made their individual positive response, but Peter is the one usually found speaking in such situations. John is the one who, although growing the closest to the Lord, was more reserved with his verbal expressions. If a visual picture were given, Peter would probably be on his feet standing and gesturing wildly with his hands during this profession. John would have been quietly showing his agreement by standing as close to the Lord as he was able. It was the way John was. He would not go away. He had made his choice at the shore of the Sea of Galilee and he never looked back. Wavering of faith is never seen in John. Once he turned his focus from the temporal, he kept his eyes on Jesus drawing closer and closer to Him. Did John at this time see Jesus as the Savior of the world? He probably did not yet see that. The focus of a Jew at that time was on the Kingdom. Certainly John recognized Jesus as the Messiah. But, what the Jew looked to at that time was not heavenly as the Body of Christ would today. John would still be looking at things through the revelation that had come by Moses and the prophets. It will be noted later what John and his brother desired an honorable position in the Kingdom (see Mt. 20:20-28). John still had much to learn and Jesus still had much to show him. C. Whom say ye that I am? Not long after the events of John 6, Jesus went with His disciples, north, to Caesarea Philippi. It was there that Jesus took the time to direct the focus of those closest to Him into a clear understanding of Who He was. Matthew records Jesus posing a question to those around Him. Jesus asked, Whom do men say that I the Son of man am? (Mt. 16:13). They knew what was being said among the people and answered, Some say that thou art John the Baptist: some, Elias; and others, Jeremias, or one of the prophets (Mt. 16:14). With consensus of opinions laid out before them, Jesus made the question much more personal. He asked, But whom say ye that I am? (Mt. 16:15). At this question, each would have to consider in their own mind how they would answer if Jesus made eye contact with them and would require them to give a verbal answer. What would have been in John s mind? Before he had the opportunity to verbalize his thoughts (and he was usually reluctant to do so) Peter was on his feet speaking his mind! He said Thou art the Christ, the Son of the living God (Mt. 16:16). It was now clearly in the open among the twelve Jesus of Nazareth is deity! Was this a surprise to John? No, but John s ideas as to exactly what the Messiah and His future program was must have been changing in his mind. With this state of change going on in the mind of John (and in the others of the twelve as well), Jesus brought the focus of His teaching to His ministry of Calvary. Matthew notes the specific, central point that would be included in Jesus teaching to those closest to Him for the remainder of His ministry. The gospel writer recorded, From that time forth began Jesus to shew unto his disciples, how that he must go unto Jerusalem, and suffer many things of the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and be raised again the third day (Mt. 16:21). John would have to start seeing that there was more to the Messiah than just the coming Kingdom. Even as close as John was, this idea of Jesus going to the cross of Calvary was slow to sink into John s mind. John was not alone. All of the twelve shared this reluctance and Peter was the most vocal of all. (See Peter s response in Matthew 16:22.) John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 9

John must have been in a state of confusion at this point. He had forsaken all he had to follow the Messiah. Surely John was looking to the Kingdom program. He wanted to be a part of that. What could it mean that Jesus must go unto Jerusalem, and suffer many things of the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and be raised again the third day (Mt. 16:21)? Did this mean that the Kingdom program was not to be? Although John had given up so much to serve Jesus, it is clear that he (along with the other 11) still had goals for self. John not only looked for Jesus to establish His Kingdom, but he looked to what it would be like for him to be there with Him. Jesus knew what was in John s mind and Jesus knew what each of His disciples needed to be taught as He molded each of them into His servants. Addressing all of them Jesus said, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me (Mt. 16:24). John had to learn that serving Jesus came at a great price it would cost him everything. Yet Jesus wanted them to understand that giving up all would not leave them empty. He said, For the Son of man shall come in the glory of his Father with his angels; and then he shall reward every man according to his works (Mt. 16:27). Then Jesus made an amazing statement. Some (but not all) would soon see what the Kingdom was like. D. A Glimpse of Glory John was one of the inner three. Jesus was drawing this man closer and closer to Him. He knew what John needed to see to better understand the One he was drawing to. Jesus would give him a marvelous picture! Just a few days after the events just mentioned, Jesus called Peter, James, and John aside and prepared them for a journey. They were headed for a mountain. Luke s account says, it came to pass about an eight days after these sayings, he took Peter and John and James, and went up into a mountain to pray (Lk. 9:28). Matthew mentions six days. It would seem then that it was a two-day journey from Caesarea Philippi to the mountain at which Jesus prayed. It was at this mountain that John would be given a picture that would change his understanding of Who it was he was following. As John and the two other disciples observed Jesus pray, the fashion of his countenance was altered, and his raiment was white and glistering (Lk. 9:29). Matthew s account adds, Jesus face did shine as the sun, and his raiment was white as the light (Mt. 17:2). As John looked on, there appeared unto them Moses and Elias (Mt. 17:3). John, as he usually did, did not open his mouth. He just looked on in awe. His close friend Peter was not one to stay silent and tried to speak to Jesus intelligently, but the scene was beyond anything they could comprehend. Mark says Peter wist not what to say; for they were sore afraid (Mk. 9:6). John was seeing what Jesus was really like the King of Glory. Jesus inner glory radiated from within Him. Added to this marvelous scene was a bright cloud that overshadowed them (Mt. 17:5). Not only did John and the others have this tremendous visual sight, but behold a voice out of the cloud, which said, This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased; hear ye him (Mt. 17:5). This was more than these mortals could handle, And when the disciples heard it, they fell on their face, and were sore afraid (Mt. 17:6). Jesus had chosen John to be among the few who would better understand the glory of the Messiah. This event drew John even closer. He still had much to learn, but he knew so much more about the One that he had chosen to follow. Because John was a man, like John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 10

any other man, he had a sinful heart. Seeing what he had seen could cause John to think himself (and the other two in the group) to be above the others. Jesus warned them who had seen His glory, Tell the vision to no man, until the Son of man be risen again from the dead (Mt. 17:9). These three were not given this knowledge to set them above the others, but to better prepare them for the work Jesus had called them to. Yet even with this warning, John s thinking was not completely clear. E. Which of them should be greatest Not long after the events of the Mount of Transfiguration, Luke records, Then there arose a reasoning among them, which of them should be greatest (Lk. 9:46). The timing of this reasoning among the twelve is of interest. Did the events on the Mount play any part in precipitating this discussion? It is likely. Not all that each was thinking was verbalized. Luke s account of the event shows Jesus perceiving the thought of their heart (Lk. 9:47), not gaining His information from what was actually said. Jesus then used the example of a little child that was among them to teach on humility. Even with this instruction, John did not yet have it all settled in his mind. As noted earlier, John is most often found in Scripture to be quiet. Yet following this dispute, he is found speaking on his own. (This being the only time in gospels and Acts that shows John speaking as an individual.) The content of his statement gives the reader a window into the thinking in John s mind. John said, Master, we saw one casting out devils in thy name; and we forbad him, because he followeth not with us (Lk. 9:49). By this time, John had seen many miracles performed by Jesus and had been, on more than one occasion, among the smaller group closer to Jesus having an exclusive position in the ministry. Possessiveness and a jealousy were developing. Had John begun to feel he had some exclusive license to minister in the Name of Jesus? Apparently so! By his own statement, when he saw someone doing work in Jesus Name, he took it upon himself to judge the situation saying he forbad him, because he followeth not with us (Lk. 9:49). He did not ask the opinion of Jesus before he communicated with this one doing work in the Name of Jesus. He already felt he had this right. He was thinking that he was a part of a special group that had an in with Jesus. Jesus found it necessary to rebuke John saying, Forbid him not: for he that is not against us is for us (Lk. 9:50). The question continued to remain unsettled in John s mind. Jesus had become the center of his life. He saw how Jesus loved, and had experienced the love that Jesus had shared with him. But John did not yet understand the heart of divine love. Divine love loves even when the other does not respond to that love. John was loved and loved Jesus but was intolerant of anyone that did not love Jesus. If John had carefully observed the miracles that Jesus performed, he would have noticed that all brought blessing to those involved. Other than the exception of the cursing of a fig tree (see Mat. 21:18-22) which the Lord used as an example of the power of faith, all the miracles were so. John did see Jesus rebuke the hard-hearted religious believers for their unbelief. He also saw Jesus violently cleanse the Temple (see Jn. 2:14-16). He appears to have overlooked Jesus ministry of grace. F. Fire from Heaven Shortly after this John was rebuked for discouraging other workers, another incident arose that made John s jealous thinking obvious. Jesus was close to the end of His John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 11

earthly ministry and knew He must return to Jerusalem. He chose a route that would bring His company through Samaria. Jesus sent some of disciples ahead to a Samaritan village to prepare for the necessities of a night s stay. Luke s gospel shows the response with the words, they did not receive him, because his face was as though he would go to Jerusalem (Lk. 9:53). John, along with his brother James, decided that this was an insult to their Master and did not wish to turn the other cheek. They went to Jesus and said, Lord, wilt thou that we command fire to come down from heaven, and consume them, even as Elias did? (Lk. 9:54). Jesus could not tolerate this kind of thinking from those closest to Him. He immediately turned, and rebuked them (Lk. 9:55) with very sharp words. He said, Ye know not what manner of spirit ye are of. For the Son of man is not come to destroy men s lives, but to save them (Lk. 9:55-56). Jesus, showing His heart of grace, directed the group to another village that would more willingly receive them. John must have been stung by this rebuke. To him it was the right thing to do. He did not think he was making this request for himself, but to avenge an insult against the One he loved and admired. He did not yet comprehend that Jesus would suffer far more insult than this by taking on Himself the sins of all the world. Scripture does not give John s response. It certainly gave him cause to examine his own heart. Each of these incidents taught John. As he was learning more about the Messiah he followed, he in turn was learning about the sinful person he was. John needed to draw away from self and draw closer to the Savior. G. On Thy Right Hand Clearly John and his brother James shared similar patterns of thinking, and they both had a genuine desire to wholly serve Jesus Christ. Along with this desire they were troubled, as all men are, with imperfect knowledge. James and John (apparently with the help of their mother) came to the conclusion that the best way to serve Jesus was to be as close as possible to Jesus when He came into His Kingdom. Matthew and Mark both record the details that resulted from this thinking. Matthew s account shows, the mother of Zebedee s children with her sons, worshipping him, and desiring a certain thing of him (Mt. 20:20). Mark s account leaves out the information that their mother was involved. It is clear that the request that was made came originally from James and John and not their mother. They may have brought her along to introduce the request, but the motivation came from her sons (although she appears as a fully willing participant). Perhaps James and John were thinking that if their mother did the asking, they would not look so bad to the other ten apostles. (If this were the case, it did not work.) Their mother opened the dialogue with Jesus, And he said unto her, What wilt thou? (Mt. 20:21). Her request was no ordinary request. It had far reaching implications. Nevertheless, she asked on her son s behalf, Grant that these my two sons may sit, the one on thy right hand, and the other on the left, in thy kingdom (Mt. 20:21). Jesus knew the source of the request and therefore did not address His response to the woman. He rightly looked to James and John and stated, Ye know not what ye ask (Mt. 20:22). They had yet grasped the idea that Jesus was going to the cross. They did not understand that the nation of Israel was in the process of rejecting their Messiah. They were looking to the glory and did not see the coming suffering of the Savior. Jesus asked them, Are ye able to drink of the cup that I shall drink of, and to be baptized with the baptism that I am baptized with? (Mt. 20:22). John and his brother answered in the John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 12

affirmative. And they did answer correctly. They would be partakers of Jesus ministry, but they were unaware at that time that it would be in the form of suffering. James and John did not ask a wrong thing here. There was most likely some selfishness here, but they truly wanted to serve with Jesus to the fullest of their ability. The rightness of their request is confirmed by the fact that Jesus gave no words of rebuke here. He needed to correct their lack of knowledge but not their attitude of service. Jesus confirmed to them that they would share in His cup. Later Scripture shows that James would be the first to give his life after Jesus completed His work at Calvary. John would have a long life of suffering, serving his Master. But as to their request for position, Jesus taught them, but to sit on my right hand, and on my left, is not mine to give, but it shall be given to them for whom it is prepared of my Father (Mt. 20:23). The other apostles were moved with indignation against the two brethren (Mt. 20:24). All they could see was the attempt of James and John to be above them in pecking order. They could not see their hearts as Jesus could. Certainly John had some wrong thinking, but he had some right thinking, too! Jesus used this incident to teach what true greatness is. He said, whosoever will be great among you, let him be your minister; And whosoever will be chief among you, let him be your servant (Mt. 20:26-27). He gave Himself as an example. He had been with the Father in the fullness of His glory but willingly set that aside to come as the Savior of the world. He explained His earthly ministry with the words, Even as the Son of man came not to be ministered unto, but to minister, and to give his life a ransom for many (Mt. 20:28). Not long before these events John had heard Jesus publicly say, I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life (Jn. 8:12). As John lived and ministered with Jesus, the Light of the world was shining on John and this light illuminated him in many of the areas in which he fell short. But, John was continuing to draw closer to the Lord and Jesus was correcting flaws in his character. John s jealousy was exposed. His possessiveness was exposed. Now his selfish tendency was exposed. Yet John did not let these painful revelations of himself drive him from Jesus, but he drew even closer. This last incident seems to be the time when John understood his position with Christ. He needed to be a servant first. In the last book of revealed Scripture, John echoes Jesus teaching with the words, his servant John (Rev. 1:1). It was a truth that he eventually lived out in his day to day life. H. Whom Jesus Loved" Because John was allowing Jesus to mold him as needed for the ministry, there was no strangeness between John and his Master. He was not afraid to approach Him or be near Him even if being so would expose more failing in his life. As the time of Jesus earthly ministry drew to a close, a group of His apostles sat with Jesus upon the Mount of Olives. They had just left the Temple area and had admired the elaborate workmanship of the structure. Jesus surprised them with the prophecy of the Temple s destruction. In great curiosity this group asked Tell us, when shall these things be? and what shall be the sign of thy coming, and of the end of the world? (Mt. 24:3). From this question Jesus taught them what is commonly called the Olivet discourse (see Mt. 24-25). Matthew does not list the names of the disciples that were among those seeking to be taught by Jesus. Mark, however, fills in this detail. He shows that John was one of those asking the question. The group was made up of the inner John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 13

three (Peter, James and John) and Peter s brother Andrew. This event shows John as close as ever to the Messiah. While John was continuing to enjoy the close relationship with Jesus, the Master also used John as one of His trusted helpers. When the time came for Jesus to prepare for His last meal with the twelve (at the time of the Passover), Luke tells his readers that Jesus sent Peter and John, saying, Go and prepare us the passover, that we may eat (Lk. 22:8). John was trusted (along with Peter) to properly prepare for this important time. John and his long time companion, Peter, were faithful to do as charged. The Scriptures show that they went, and found as he had said unto them: and they made ready the passover (Lk. 22:13). This event shows John to be faithful. The events of Jesus earthly ministry quickly drew to their conclusion. Jesus had only a few days left. Even facing the agony of the cross, Jesus was not distracted from the love He had to share with those closest to Him. When John wrote his account of these last hours of Christ, he included what he had observed. He said that Jesus having loved his own which were in the world, he loved them unto the end (Jn. 13:1). Of the twelve that were close to Jesus, John was the one to see and understand the precious love of Christ. In John chapters 13 through 17, the Apostle John captures the love of Christ like no other writer of Scripture. It is in these chapters that John expands on John 3:16 For God so loved the world He shows how intimate that love can be to the one that believeth in him. John saw that love expressed as he gathered with Jesus and the other apostles at Jesus last meal with them. John was among those that were present when Jesus humbled Himself and taught His disciples humility by washing their feet. He listened while Peter went through one of his overly vocal displays with Jesus. John also heard the words that instructed his fellow apostles to be servants. Jesus said, If I then, your Lord and Master, have washed your feet; ye also ought to wash one another s feet. For I have given you an example, that ye should do as I have done to you (Jn. 13:14-15). Maybe John thought on the words, do as I have done. In this, looking back to other things Jesus had done, John may have noted the many times Jesus willingly ministered in love to others that had need. John had gone through a time of looking to himself. Jesus example, Jesus teaching, Jesus loving hand of personal instruction, had turned John s heart. He was ready to do as Jesus had done. His eyes were on Christ, and John drew as close as he could to his Master. As this teaching time progressed, Jesus shared that one would betray Him. This betrayal would lead to the cross. Jesus had time and time again warned them that this moment was coming. As the final hours grew near, John clung to Jesus more and more. When Jesus stated that one would betray, Peter was quickly in motion to find out who it would be that would betray the Master. Peter knew the close relationship that had developed between John and Jesus. He knew that if anyone were close enough to Jesus to ask private questions, it would be John. As Peter looked to John, he found him leaning on Jesus bosom (Jn. 13:23). Clearly at this point John had completely abandoned himself to his Master. And this position went beyond being just physically close. John was that disciple whom Jesus loved (Jn. 13:24). Earlier, John would not have been comfortable here. He had to first overcome his own pride and selfishness. Jesus had repeatedly confronted John with his failings. John had faced them one by one until he was emptied of himself, and ready to be filled with Him. John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 14

When John asked Jesus to give him the information Peter had requested, Jesus readily answered John. John had willingly approached the One to whom he had drawn close. That Jesus so readily answered, shows the reader that Jesus truly understood the love that John had developed for Him. John had come a long way since John the Baptist said, Behold the Lamb of God! (Jn. 1:36). I. Love One Another The love that John was beginning to understand from His life with Jesus was soon to be expounded on by his Master. As Judas left to do his evil work, Jesus focused on the faithful of the apostles. John heard as Jesus said, A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another (Jn. 13:34). John and the other disciples were given a standard as to how they were to love. They had seen Jesus minister in the Father s love over the past months together. John seemed to understand this love more than those around him. John now knew Jesus expected him to manifest the same love to those around him. If John had not seen enough of Jesus love to that time, he would now see even more. Jesus although facing the cross continued to minister His love to the eleven apostles. John recorded in chapter 14 of his gospel some of the comfort Jesus gave as He expressed His love to them. He used words such as Let not your heart be troubled (Jn. 14:1); I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter (Jn. 14:16); and Peace I leave with you (Jn. 14:27). John, who seemed to by nature draw close to Jesus, then heard the sweet, encouraging words of Jesus as the Vine. He heard, Abide in me (Jn. 15:4). John must have been greatly troubled by his soon separation from his close relationship with Jesus. These words must have brought great comfort to him. John probably desired nothing else but to be abiding in Jesus. He had already learned to draw close to Jesus. He would now need to draw close to Him in a new spiritual relationship that went even beyond what he had during Jesus earthly ministry. John and the others were again reassured of the love of the Master. They heard Him say, As the Father hath loved me, so have I loved you: continue ye in my love (Jn. 15:9). The love would not end with the physical separation. John was to continue in it. With the coming betrayal, the apostles would be greatly shaken. Jesus warned, ye shall weep and lament, but the world shall rejoice: and ye shall be sorrowful (Jn. 16:20). There would be a terrible time in the lives of these men. Jesus comforted them by telling them that the sorrow would not last but that their sorrow shall be turned into joy (Jn. 16:20). Nevertheless, they would have to go through that horrible time of testing of their faith. The days of their fear were harder for some than others. Thomas for example is shown to have been reluctant to believe that Jesus rose from the grave, even after hearing much testimony to the fact. John, however, seems to have been the least affected. He had drawn closest to the Lord. He had also, along with Peter and James, seen Jesus in His glory on the Mount of Transfiguration. Hearing the words of Jesus high priestly prayer as recorded in John 17 must have further strengthened him. John must have been a great help to his fellow apostles during that time of testing. John: That Disciple Whom Jesus Loved, Page 15