Dedication
To No One Just the words That fell from My soul Onto the screen With a touch Of Tequila River Brew
Forward
I would like to take a moment and thank a few people here in the beginning of this book. I have to pay my respects and love to my daughter KayCee K. for her incredible strength she has in helping with this book. I would like to give thanks to my sons, Mitch & Hayden for their never-ending love for me and for understanding how important this anthology was for me to write. ** Therefore, I must also pay deep respect to my heavenly spirit guide who gave me the empowerment and inspiration to write this book of poems. This book of poems was written in binges while I was writing my novella, It s Now My Time: Coffee, Poetry & The Past. As I wrote my novella, I had to take time and binge write poetry to keep my head in place while I wrote about terrifying events in my life. This book is an ending result of my pain and agony as I wrote. Some of the poems have a sense of love, but also with a hidden atmosphere of a broken girl searching for life in general. ** I connected with myself on every level while I wrote. Some of the emotions and anger you feel in this book stems over from It s Now My Time especially with respect to my father, Jim, my sister Kim and my brother, James. I had to have a way to release this anger and frustration as I wrote my novella or all of this insanity I was feeling would overpower my mind, body, and soul. More than likely I would not be sitting here if I truly allowed my entire past to capture and hold me. I fight these demons daily on a very low level, some days or nights they have a tendency to creep in on a higher level of stress and anxiety. ** However, this anthology is more-less another capture of my dark soul and twisted thoughts among the world of words. There is nothing better than to take words and twist them into poetry that is written from the bottom core of a poet and that is exactly what I tried to do with this anthology. Hope you enjoy each poem and please leave a review! ***
Used Shoe Boxes
I have a fetish Of keeping used shoe boxes I guess so when I am ready I can pack the past away And ship it to the moon. ***
I Forgot
Last thing on my mind Is the first thing on my mind? The first thing on my mind Is also the last thing on my mind? And now I forgot what that was? ***
For I Still Wait
Quoting his words that day, Sunk deep within And stayed there until The end... But the end hasn t appeared It's ugly head For I still wait ***
Maybe If I
Maybe If I seek the wind And halos of angels Then maybe I can Release my love for him ** Maybe If I seek the moon And the stars too Then maybe I won t have to wait And he will love me in the end. ***
Rambles
Trying not to Ramble off the page With my pen Trying to correct the sounds And rhythm of each passing Quilted version Of my love for writing ***
Montana Sky
Soft whisks of winds Seeing creatures in the clouds Against the brightest blue, you will ever see In the Montana sky. ** Dark, mysterious monsters From above my head Clashing sounds of thunder Against the wild ride, Across the Montana sky. ***
Haunting Shadows of Your Love
Haunting shadows danced across my wall As I penned my poems Of terrible demons That used to haunt my soul Of broken love And memories Too vivid to release. Each night I lay my head down In hopes of peaceful dreams Instead, all I see is your face. ***
Gives Me Hope
Gazing at the stars each night Gives me hope That he still watches over me Each night as I dream ** With his angelic wings He holds me While I cry He sings of love While I sleep He leaves coming morning light ** But I know I will see him In my dreams tonight ***
I Wish
I wish I never allowed him in I wish I never allowed myself to fall I wish I never allowed myself to cry I wish I never allowed myself to know love I wish Just a wishful dream Would come true Of loving him. ***
Danced My Soul
Violet rays of light Suddenly danced my soul Of vivid thoughts & memories Of you. ** The brightest warmth Suddenly crashed my heart Of my darkest desires Of you ** While my body aches And my heart races I yearn for your fingertips Upon my breasts ** Only for reality To be my enemy At this moment When I needed you. ***
One Lucky Star
She gazes at the stars & the moon Each night searching the universe For that one lucky star That will make all her dreams come true. ** Years from now She still sits and gazes At the nightly sky She talks to the silver moon ** Hoping for an answer To why her dreams Never came true Of love, so rich & pure ** Seemed to always pass her up ***
Sweet Tangy Taste
The sweet tangy taste Of summer looms With the bluest skies ** Of fun-filled days And campfire nights Under the moon ** With you by my side The night is perfect With our souls entwined ** In the morning light Our hearts forever Will beat as one. ***
Golden Raindrops
Golden raindrops Sizzles down With crashing sounds of The dawn of victorious Song of lullabies. ** Tender melodies Of ancient past With trembling hands The night rested upon her chest Of glamorous beauty In the song of angel wings. ***
Frankly
Frankly, I don't care What someone thinks Of love... For all I see is just an illusion Of make-believe emotions. ***
Of Golden Unity
Sweet melodies of nature Are just the tender gifts That one may see But if one is well-grounded One will feel just to be A small part of her universal realm Of golden unity.