Week 1 Homework. Radical Forgiveness. With Reverend Jennifer Hadley

Week 1 Homework Radical Forgiveness With Reverend Jennifer Hadley

Radical Forgiveness Homework... 4 Opening Prayer... 4 Lesson 68: Love Holds No Grievances... 5 Forgiveness can be Challenging... 7 We are One with the Divine Mind... 9 Partner Up with the Holy Spirit... 11 Releasing Judgment, Blame and Shame... 12 Homework Assignment... 14 Love is the Only Healer... 15 Partnering Up to Forgive... 18 Say Yes to Love, Yes to Willingness... 20 Your Willingness is All that s Required... 22 Closing Prayer... 23

Week 1 Radical Forgiveness Homework With Reverend Jennifer Hadley Friday, May 20, 2011 Opening Prayer Let s take a breath here together and go into gratitude. We are partnering up with the Higher Holy Spirit Self, beginning with a prayer, beginning with a blessing, beginning with gratitude. Gratitude is the vibration that lifts us up above our judgments and our opinions, our fears, worries and doubts. We are consciously releasing the attachment that we have to the shoulda, woulda, coulda s. We are consciously placing on the holy altar fire of Divine Love. Love is the great healer, and we re placing on that altar: all the thoughts of unforgiveness; all the hamster wheels of regret; thoughts of revenge; all those negative, compulsive seeming thoughts that we ve ever had; and all the regret that we ve ever accumulated. We re literally opening our hearts and minds right now to release it and experience a quantum healing. We re cultivating our little willingness to have a miraculous healing. We re grateful and thankful that we naturally share our healing with everyone, because we re One with them. We rejoice that this is the gift that we give to the world: our healed self, our liberated mind. So what I know for each and every one of us is that we re activated for liberation right now. We re activated to share our healing right now. We re activated by Love itself. Love is the healer. We give Love the heavy lifting. In grace and gratitude we joyfully let it be. We accept it fully. We know that it s done in Spirit and we accept it and so it is. Amen. Amen, Amen, Amen. It s so good, so good, so good. Yes. 4 Radical Forgiveness Homework

Lesson 68: Love Holds No Grievances I m going to begin this morning again with the quote I used in the class yesterday with Colin Tipping. It is from Lesson 68 in the A Course in Miracles Workbook, and Lesson 68 is my favorite lesson. It s entitled Love holds no grievances. And what I do is I hold that before me every day, all day long. Love holds no grievances. So when I become interested in a thought of blame and shame, of attack and resentment, of regret, guilt, hurt, and disappointment going into the old story of the old experience I remind myself, Hey, Jennifer, you re here to love, not to hold grievances. That s not part of your life purpose. It s not part of your life mission. It s not part of anything that you re interested in. I m not interested in holding grievances anymore. Oh, no. I used to be such a grudge holder. Oh my gosh, it was like a part-time job for me to hold a grudge. Now I say, Oh no. You re here to love, and love holds no grievances. What I say is, I m not interested in that anymore. What I am interested in is perfect peace and joy, wisdom, clarity, and the freedom to love. And in the Lesson 68 in A Course in Miracles it says, It is as sure that those who hold grievances will forget who they are, as it is certain that those who forgive will remember. Let s understand what this means, because it s an extremely powerful teaching. It is as sure that those who hold grievances will forget who they are, as it is certain that those who forgive will remember. So what we are is pure Spirit. What we are is perfect Oneness. What we are is perfectly designed to give and receive love. Love is the healer. There is only one problem that we experience in this world and it shows up in an infinite number of experiences, an infinite number of forms. A Course in Miracles teaches us that all thought produces form on some level. I m also a Science of Mind practitioner and minister for many years. Ernest Holmes is the founder of Science of Mind, and he says, Change your thoughts, change your life. He also says, All thinking creates. So Science of Mind and A Course in Miracles are very much aligned. There are differences, but I don t dwell on them. With Reverend Jennifer Hadley 5

The powerful thought here is that your thinking is creating your experience, because your experience of your life is formed at some level. This is what Colin and I were addressing last night, so I m going to break this down as it pertains to forgiveness. You are here to be the perfect giver and receiver of Love that, I believe is our life purpose. I do not believe that anybody has a life purpose to get more stuff or to produce stuff, to build a building or dance a dance, or bake the perfect pie, or anything like that. Although, while we are expressing our life purpose of giving and receiving Love we can, for darn sure, make a great pie, build a beautiful building, dance a great dance, and so forth. But that s not why we are here. Lesson 68 in the Workbook is Love Holds No Grievances. It says, It is as sure that those who hold grievances will forget who they are as it is certain that those who forgive will remember. We are here to remember our true identity which is the perfect giver and receiver of Love. So, It is as sure that those who hold grievances will forget who they are. You ll forget your life purpose if you hold grudges. You will forget your true identity, and you will never have a chance to feel fulfilled. You might feel full for a moment like the way you feel full after Chinese food, but then you re hungry an hour later. So you can get that sense of feeling full for a moment, but you won t experience true fulfillment, unless you re giving and receiving Love. There is no other way. So if you re holding onto grievances and that is really what unforgiveness is you will never know your true identity. You will never fulfill your life purpose. You won t even know what it is and you will always feel that you are missing the mark, because you are. And it is as certain that those who forgive will remember their purpose. There is no other way to fulfill your life purpose. There is no other way to fulfillment. You must forgive. You must forgive. You must forgive. 6 Radical Forgiveness Homework

Forgiveness can be Challenging Trust me, I know it can feel so difficult. It can feel impossible. I ve had a myriad of nightmarish things happen to me. I ve had a list of betrayals and seeming betrayals happen in my life, all kinds. The people I trusted and loved the most betrayed me, and I ve learned to forgive, which doesn t mean that what they did is okay, or that I d like for it to happen again. It doesn t mean, Please sir, may I have some more. It doesn t mean that. That is not what forgiveness is. Here is what forgiveness is. Forgiveness is you deciding that you no longer have the right to judge anyone, including yourself. That is what forgiveness is. You are no longer interested in retaining the right to judge anyone. One of the things we talked about with Colin was that we don t have the ability to see through all directions of time and space, so we don t have the ability to decide who is good and who is bad, who is right and who s wrong. Now, we do have the ability to decide that raping someone is unacceptable. It s not right behavior. It s cruel. It s violent. It s horrific. We have the right to decide that. Our perception and preference is that that never happens to anyone again. This is our right and our preference is that that never happens to anyone again. This is our right but we do not have the right to decide that that person who did that is a bad person. That s not for us to say. We are not the Creator. So here s the thing. We are one with the One. We are one with the Creator, but we are not the one who judges. If we decide that we are the one who judges, then we will always feel judged, because the judger always feel judged, and the lover always feel loved. That s how it works. Projection and perception are what we re experiencing, unless we are in our true identity as the perfect givers and receivers of Love. When we are anchored in Love, then we see the truth. We experience the truth and it sets us free, but when we are in opinion and judgment, then we are in unforgiveness. Unforgiveness and judgment are the same thing. According to A Course in Miracles they are the same thing, With Reverend Jennifer Hadley 7

and for me it has been profoundly healing to recognize that, to live in that. For me, the practice is holding no grievances, and it is profoundly nourishing and healing profoundly nourishing and healing. So, what I know is that human beings don t do anything unless they have a strong motivation. They just don t. We don t get out of bed. We don t make a cup of coffee. We don t do anything without a strong motivation. We sure as heck don t dance a dance, bake a pie or build a building without motivation. And we don t release the resentment, the grudges, the unforgiveness without a divine motivation. And we are always given it because we know deep down we all know exactly what the cost is for us to hold onto our grievances. Forgiveness is you deciding that you no longer have the right to judge anyone, including yourself. For us to hold to the unforgiveness, we know what it costs us. It s costing us our health. It s costing us prosperity. It s costing us harmony in our relationships. All of that is what it costs us. As we talked about last night, I know that for most people, the hardest thing is to forgive ourselves. For instance, I ve been molested. I ve been attacked on several occasions, physically attacked. And there is a tendency in the mind to say, I shouldn t have put myself in that place. I shouldn t have walked down that street. I shouldn t have gone over there. I shouldn t have trusted those people. And as you all know you ve heard that expression, You re just shoulding on yourself. And it s true. Whenever we re thinking the thought, I shouldn t have or They shouldn t have, it s time for forgiveness. So what is forgiveness? What is forgiveness? I already said it s not saying it s okay what happened. This point is so important to understand. It is about releasing the judgment. It s releasing the right to say who s good and who s bad, who s naughty and who s nice. We have to be willing to let that go and say, That s not for me to say. I am not able to see through all directions of time and space. 8 Radical Forgiveness Homework

Now I m going to give you an example. So people have had horrific things happen to them, and it has inspired them to do something very beautiful, very loving, and very powerful to support humanity in healing their perceptions of separation. I just realized that before when I said there s only one problem we ever have. It really is the thought that we re separate from each other and separate from our divinity. So, when we re one with each other, if we think that we re separate, we re basically saying we re also separate from our divinity, because we re one with everyone. So anytime we think an attack thought about someone we re saying, You know what? I prefer to be separate from God. I prefer to be the one who judges. I m going to take that role in my life, and I m going to decide who s good and who s bad. Divine Order does not exist in my world. I decide what Divine Order is. I m the judger. I m the one who knows. We are in that space of mind where we think that we have the right to judge and we think that we are correct. We ve lost our mind. We ve lost our connection to our divinity and the divinity of all life. And so when that happens we re going to suffer. The cause of all suffering in this world is the perception of separation. We are not separate. We never will be separate. It s not possible for us to ever, ever separate ourselves from each other or from the Oneness of all life. So no matter how far we go from anyone in our life, no matter how much distance we put between them, no matter how aggressively we attack them, we re still going to be one with them. And because there is only this One, the Oneness of all life, whenever we send an attack thought out into the world, we are going to feel it first, because we are one with everyone. We are One with the Divine Mind Any thought that we think is literally placed into Divine Mind. If it s a loving thought we re going to feel that first. We re going to feel the love flowing in our life. If it s an attack thought, if it s unforgiveness, if it s judgment they are all the same thing. We are going to feel that immediately. Yes, we are. How could we not? With Reverend Jennifer Hadley 9

We want to be grateful, because every time we think an attack thought, every time we think a blaming, shaming thought that s what unforgiveness is: blaming and shaming whenever we go into that mindset we are immediately creating discomfort. We re going to feel it in the mind, in the emotional body, and the physical body. So, if we think an attack thought, an unforgiving thought about anyone it could be someone you are watching on American Idol (American Idol was on last night) and you re thinking, Look at that idiot; you re one with that idiot. Your attack thought is going to be felt by you. I don t know how you re going to feel it, but I can guarantee you re going to feel it, because what we think in our mind directly affects us. You can think of it as rippling out. If you drop something into a pond, it s going to ripple out across the surface. So, when you drop a thought into your mind, it s going to ripple out into your Attack thoughts are like potato chips. You can t have just one. We just keep looking for more attack thoughts to support our judgment to try and make our judgment true and believable. emotional body. The more you believe it, the stronger you re going to feel it in your emotional body, and then it s going to show up in your physical body. So, your attack thoughts, your judgments, your opinions, your unforgiveness ripple out through your life. If you think the thought that the person on American Idol is an idiot, you ll start to feel disconnected to your divinity. You will start to feel disconnected from the Oneness. The more you believe it, the more attached you are to that thought, the more you think you re right and they re wrong, they re an idiot, the more disturbed you re going to feel, and the more upset you re going to feel. 10 Radical Forgiveness Homework

You know what often happens is when there is an attack thought you can t have just one. It s like potato chips. The potato chip factor kicks in and then it s, They re an idiot. I can t stand their shoes. I can t stand their voice. I can t believe they thought they could stand up on the stage. How dare they waste our time? On and on it goes. We just keep looking for more attack thoughts to support our judgment to try and make our judgment true and believable. We have to work really hard, because it s never going to be true. It s never going to be real. What s true is that we re all pure Spirit and we re all here to be the perfect givers and receivers of Love. If we decide that someone isn t here for that holy purpose, if we decide that we re right and they re wrong, then we re going to make ourselves feel sick, emotionally, and then the more upset we get we all know this you start to feel it in your body. You feel an ache in your heart area. You feel an ache in your stomach, aching, aching. Then you know what else happens? You wake up in the middle of the night thinking, Oh my gosh, I forgot to send that e-mail. My boss is going to fire me. One thing leads to another. Why do you start feeling afraid? It s because you have lost your mind. You ve lost touch with your divinity, and now you re just making stuff up believing that it s true. You re convincing yourself that you have the power to decide who s good and who s bad. So for me, I ve learned to practice forgiveness and I became committed to forgiving everyone and everything in my life. And what happens is that when you make the decision that you re not holding any grievances anymore, you re more interested in knowing your true identity as the perfect giver and receiver of Love, that you ve had enough lifetimes of blame and shame, and that no more lifetimes of blame and shame are going to give you anything that s worth having. Partner Up with the Holy Spirit All you re interested in is Love now. Once you make that decision you partner up with your own holiness. A Course in Miracles calls it the Holy Spirit. I call it the Higher Holy Spirit Self. There s no separation. I m not separate from the Holy Spirit. With Reverend Jennifer Hadley 11

Colin and I were talking about this yesterday that people can become co-dependent with the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is not separate. There is One Mind. So we partner up. We learn to partner up and, as I say all the time, I give the Holy Spirit, the Higher Holy Spirit Self, the heavy lifting. Let s take a deep breath here. I really encourage you to listen to this call, to last night s call several times. You ve got 48 hours on the free replay to listen. Take your time. And each time when you listen, when the prayer begins at the beginning of the class, really take that prayer into your heart. Set the intention to receive more from this class than you ve received from anything else. I know how challenging it is to forgive. I know how tempting it is to hold onto a grievance and a grudge. I know. Believe me I know. I have had to work with myself backwards and forwards. Please commit to listening to the classes. Invest yourself in your healing. These classes are designed to be healing. Your Higher Holy Spirit Self will assist you in hearing what you can hear and applying what you can apply. The more you listen, the more you will hear because as long as you think you re right about something you re not going to hear the truth. How could you? You think you already know. I also want to say, Take a deep breath if you re thinking, Oh, my gosh, I don t have time this weekend to listen to the replays. You can always get the downloads and the transcripts. We re making them available to you. You can get all of that for $5.44 a call, or something like that. So just relax into that. Relax into that. Your good is where you are. It s never not. It s never somewhere else. That s just an opinion. Releasing Judgment, Blame and Shame So, we are moving out of opinions and judgments here, and we re forgiving ourselves for scaring ourselves. We re forgiving ourselves for motivating ourselves with fear, blame and shame. So many people motivate themselves with negativity to get out of bed, to go to work, to stay in a relationship, to do all kinds of things, even to study the spiritual teachings, even to do their prayers. They motivate themselves with fear. You d better, you d better, you d better. 12 Radical Forgiveness Homework

Let s completely make the commitment here that we are deciding that we re not going to motivate ourselves with fear anymore. We are not going to motivate ourselves with anger and hatred any more. The minute that you ve gone into that blame/shame game you will feel the upset in your stomach. You feel it in your body. Be grateful. The minute you feel the upset go, Oh, I m so grateful I feel the upset now. I can remember that I ve been telling myself something that isn t true. It s time for me to forgive. We re forgiving ourselves for scaring ourselves, for motivating ourselves with fear, blame and shame. Let s make the commitment let s decide that we re not going to motivate ourselves with fear anymore. I don t have to figure out how to forgive. All I need to do is be willing. So this is crucial to understand because I ve been teaching forgiveness classes and workshops for 11 years and it is something that I absolutely know. It s that people get entrenched in this idea of they can t figure it out. They re looking for some secret. Why can t I forgive? I ve said I forgive. Why can t I forgive? I d like to forgive. Well, here is the thing, and this is really important to understand. If you think that what the person did is wrong and bad, and they are wrong and bad for having done it, and you think you re right about that that s not forgiveness and that s why you don t feel free. You don t feel free, because you d rather be right. You can t be right and be free, because when you re in the judgment zone and you think that you re right and the other person is wrong and bad, you are disconnected from your divinity. And you cannot disconnect from your divinity and feel good. Now here s a really important thing to understand. Many of us convince ourselves that we are right and we don t feel good about it, not really. We feel sick to our stomach about it. We feel disgruntled. We feel angry about it. If you feel angry about how right you are you have that righteous anger then you know that you re in your judgments and your opinions, and you re upsetting yourself by telling yourself something that is not true. You don t have to figure out how to forgive. You simply must be willing to listen to your Higher Holy Spirit Self the With Reverend Jennifer Hadley 13

spiritual wisdom that Colin was talking about yesterday and the spiritual intelligence will inform you, if you are willing. Your little willingness is all that is required. That is the beautiful promise of A Course in Miracles. We are reminded we don t have to figure out how. It s not for us to figure out. So, here s what I do, because it comes up every day. I say, I m not interested in that thought anymore. I know that the thought, They re wrong and they re bad is not going to help me fulfill my life purpose. I am a creature of love and light and that s all I m interested in, and I mean it. I m not interested in that thought of blame and shame anymore. Now sometimes people really feel that it s necessary to do a lot of deep emotional processing before they can get to that point. I m not convinced of that, but I m not telling anybody that they re wrong either. One of the things that I have done with clients and students working one on one with them and with myself, is the following exercise. Homework Assignment You can do this. Here s a homework assignment for you. Invite someone you love, who really loves you. I mean someone who really, really loves you and is unconditionally loving towards you not someone who s judging you but someone who really is compassionate with you. Not empathetic or sympathetic because when people are empathetic they re just magnifying the distress. That is what I feel your pain is. Don t feel my pain. We don t need two people who are suffering. You know I appreciate that you care but compassion is understanding. It s an expression of love but the person doesn t have to feel our pain. That s not necessary at all for the healing. So, we invite somebody who is compassionate and loving to sit with us. We make an appointment with them, so we don t just spring it on them. Say, I d like to make an appointment with you. I d like to enlist your help. Maybe it s your therapist. Maybe it s your minister. Maybe it s your friend. Maybe it s your spouse. Maybe it s your relative, your mother, your father, your whatever, your sister, your brother. 14 Radical Forgiveness Homework

You invite them. You make an appointment to sit with them and you say, I d like to make an appointment to tell you the story of my pain and I m setting the intention that I m never going to need to tell it again. I m going to tell it to you, and you are going to hold me in love through the whole time, knowing that there is wisdom and learning for me in this experience. I m inviting you to know with me that I m going to discover it because I am now willing to discover it. Would you do that with me? You make an appointment. You set that time aside. You create a healing environment for yourself. I really encourage you if you can to be outdoors. Perhaps you could find a nice spot under a tree, and have plenty of good, spring water to drink, and light a white candle. Burn some incense, sage yourself. Do whatever will make you feel that, Oh, this is my holy opportunity. We are just now coming out of a full moon, so it s a perfect time. Full moon is a time of releasing. So, we are releasing the unforgiveness during this full moon. Any time there is a full moon you can always remind yourself, Ah, full moon is a time of releasing. New moon is a time of setting intention. Of course we can use any time. It s always the perfect moment to set a holy intention. It s always the perfect moment to release a grievance, but the cycles of the moon remind us, and that s the bonus that we get in this dream of our experience, here on Planet Earth. You make that holy appointment with that supportive person and then afterwards, a nice meal. Bless the food. Bless the water. Bless the air. Bless the land. This is your healing and you can call it forth. It s really not outside of your reach. How could your own healing be outside of your reach? The only way it s outside of your reach is if you think it is. If you think you can t heal, then guess what? You re right. You re right. In your own mind, you are right. Love is the Only Healer Now what I know for a fact is that there is only one healer in this human experience. There is only one healer and that is Love. Why is there only one healer? It s because there is only one problem. The one With Reverend Jennifer Hadley 15

problem that we experience is that we think we re separate from the love, from our divinity. So Love is the healer and that s why it feels so miraculous. A Course in Miracles tells us that a shift in our perception is the miracle. A Course in Miracles tells us all thought produces form on some level. Form equals your experience. Your experience is form. So when you shift your thinking you re going to produce a new experience. It feels miraculous and that is what a miracle is. Miracles aren t outside of us. Miracles are what we can project into our experience, into the world, if we are but willing. Our little willingness is all that s required. Right now is your opportunity to stop thinking you re right about everything and be willing to see the truth. So, if what you re feeling is that having an opportunity to truly tell the story without judgment from someone else is what you need to be willing to let go of your opinions about what happened, then invite someone. And if you have no idea who in your life could sit with you unconditionally and compassionately and hold a healing space for you, that is okay. If you re willing and you re intent, someone will appear. Do not go into the thought that there is no one who would do that for you, because if you do then you ll be right in your own mind. Now is the opportunity for you to stop thinking you re right about everything and be willing to see the truth. The truth will set you free from your own sense of separation. It s the only thing that can. But if you think you know everything, you will never know the truth. I have communication with folks who ve been studying A Course in Miracles for 10, 20 and 30 years and they tell me that they still are not aware of some of the most basic concepts in the course, including love holds no grievances. They still don t have a commitment to love because they still think that being right and making others wrong is valuable to them. No one can make that decision for you. You have to decide that you d rather know the truth than regurgitate your own opinions over and over again, all over your life. You know if you re vomiting your opinions all over your life, and all over your 16 Radical Forgiveness Homework

relationships, and all over your workplace, and all over your body, and your emotional body, day in and day out, you re going to have a stinky life. You really are. I know because that s what I did. And you know what? For decades, I thought that my opinion was the most valuable thing I had. I thought my opinion was who I was. I had no clue who I was, because I already thought I knew everything. I had to decide that I wasn t interested in my opinions anymore, and that is what true forgiveness is. Now I m going to invite you again to take a deep breath and I m going to have a sip of my tea while you cultivate your willingness. Say a prayer for yourself. Love yourself enough to stop making up stuff about yourself, and your life, and the people in your life, that is not true. Cultivate your willingness to simply love the people in your life, and stop judging them, holding onto resentments. Your little willingness is all that is required. Are you willing to love? I invite The truth will set you free from your own sense of separation. It s the only thing that can. But if you think you know everything, you will never know the truth. you to say, Yes, I m willing to love. I m willing to love. Say it out loud. Feel it with your whole body. Let the vibration wash over you. Yes, I m willing to love. Yes, I m willing to love. I m not interested in my own opinions anymore. I m not interested in my own opinions anymore. Yes, yes, yes. Knowing this was better than winning the lottery could ever, ever be. It was better than falling in love could ever, ever be. I invite you to call to mind an experience you have in your life that you seem to have over and over again people letting you down, making mistakes, being in the same relationship with the same kind of person over and over again, whether it s a friend or a lover or a family member or a coworker. Are you having the same kinds of work experiences again and again? Do you notice there s a steady stream of disappointments or betrayals? Is With Reverend Jennifer Hadley 17

there an experience that you re having repeatedly? The same experience, just a different place with different people? What I can tell you is that more than likely you had an original experience that you didn t forgive, and your soul knows just how important your precious life is, and that you cannot live your greatness. You cannot express your magnificence. You cannot express the purity of your gifts and talents in the world while you re holding onto grievances, unforgiveness, blame and shame, disappointments, and judgments. You cannot do it. It is not possible because the amount of energy that it is taking to hold onto those things is consuming all the energy that you have. Partnering Up to Forgive Just think of one thing that you haven t forgiven, one thing you re still angry about. Now think of one thing you re still hurt about. Now think of one thing you re still disappointed about. Now think of one thing that you blame others for. And now consider how much of your precious life energy, how much of your precious life force, how much of your life have you been dedicating every day to complaining about those unresolved, unforgiven upsets and hurts, fear, disappointment, blame? How much of your precious life energy are you putting into that? Just open your mind for a minute and let your Higher Holy Spirit Self give you a number, a percentage. What is the percentage of my life that I ve been investing in those few unforgiven experiences? What is that number? Now, when I teach workshops and I do this exercise, I do it in a little more expanded way, because I have more time. Generally, people say that they are committing, on an average, 80 percent of their energy to unforgiven grievances. Some people say it s 20 percent, and for others it s 50 percent, and some people even say it s 100 percent. The average in the room is usually 80 percent that s 80 percent of their precious life the energy they have to fulfill their life purpose to be happy, to be abundant, to be healthy in the body, in the emotional body, and in the mental body, to be joy-full. They are choosing actively to invest in the unforgiveness, in the grievances, holding vigil for their grievances, holding watch. They re more interested in dragging the past 18 Radical Forgiveness Homework

with them keeping it fresh before them than in sharing their gifts and talents with the world in ways that are profoundly fulfilling for them and for everyone their life touches. Just think, if 10 percent of the world s population stopped doing that, stopped investing 80 percent of their precious life in being angry and resentful, entertaining thoughts of revenge, reliving the disappointments and the hurts, and instead were free to invest their whole life in sharing their gifts and talents in the world in ways that are profoundly fulfilling for themselves, for their community and for everyone else, we would have Are you going to be part of this global healing movement? Are you going to be the one who says, I am willing. I am all in for love. I am tired of playing small. I am interested in freedom. peace on earth. There would be no starving people. It s a fact. We all know it. So are you going to be part of that 10 percent? Are you going to be part of this global healing movement? Are you going to be the one who says, I am willing. I am all in for love. I am tired of playing small. I am interested in freedom. I have invested enough of my life in pain and suffering. Suffering is optional. I may not know how I m going to get there, but I am willing and I am going to be willing in every moment. And when I forget to be willing and I become attracted to the thoughts of revenge and disappointment, I m going to stop. I m going to notice that I ve gone into suffering and I m going to say I am not interested in that anymore. No, I m not. I was interested for a long time but I am no longer interested in that. What I m interested in now is discovering more love. I m interested in love. I m interested in compassion. I m interested in freedom. I m interested in peace. I m interested in healing. I m interested in prosperity. I m interested in love. I m interested in knowing who I really am and why I m really here. I m interested in knowing God as my life. I m interested in having a miracle today, and so I forgive. I forgive because I d rather be free. I forgive. I release the judgments and opinions. I don t need to be right about this anymore, because I m not interested in it anymore. No one is right. No one is wrong. With Reverend Jennifer Hadley 19

What happened, happened. I did not enjoy it. It was upsetting and now I m interested in learning from it. I m interested in harvesting all the wisdom that that experience contains for me. I am placing my trust, my faith, and my divinity in the understanding that there is wisdom in there for me that I can harvest and share with my fellow human beings. I can share it because all of our minds are joined together. If I harvest the wisdom from my painful experiences, then my soul doesn t need to recreate them again, and again, and again, and again to get my attention. I m not going to deny the learning anymore. I m going to harvest it. All that is required is my willingness to release the judgments and opinions. Today I will be free. Today I love, not tomorrow, not somewhere in the future, but today. There is no tomorrow and there is no past. There is only now and now my life gives me a precious, precious opportunity to love. I love myself enough to forgive. I will not torture myself with my opinions anymore. I will not torture myself with thoughts of revenge anymore. I love myself enough to say I m not interested in that anymore. I m a creature of love and light and that is all I m interested in. I m willing. I m willing. Thank God I m willing. That s all I need to know right now. That s all I need to know. I operate on a need to know basis with God, and I trust. I trust that my healing is taking place right now. I m partnered up with the Holy Spirit, the Higher Self and God doesn t know how to fail. When we think we know who is bad and who s good, who s naughty and nice, who s right and wrong, we can never succeed in living our true identity. We can never succeed in feeling free and being happy. Say Yes to Love, Yes to Willingness Take a breath with me. Take that holy breath because truly our spirit speaks to us on the breath, that intake of breath. We take in the insight, the wisdom, the clarity, the healing. We are saying, Yes to it right now. Yes is our mantra, yes to love, yes to willingness, yes to letting go of the past, yes to harvesting the wisdom, yes to revealing our true identity, yes to sharing our gifts and talents with the world, yes to our healing. We re not going to delay it anymore. Yes. Say that yes with me. Yes, yes, yes. And we re so grateful. We are so grateful that we cannot 20 Radical Forgiveness Homework

hold onto the resentments the blame and the shame and feel comfortable. Ho! Thank God for being God today, that our divinity will not allow us to feel comfortable no matter how good we get at selfmedicating in trying to drown out the suffering our holiness will not let us go, never. Our own Higher Holy Spirit Self that Holy Spirit never gives up on us. The first shall be last, and the last shall be first. We are always available on a spiritual level. It s always now. It s always the perfect time. It doesn t matter what we ve done. It doesn t matter how long we ve wallowed in the mire. It doesn t matter. All that matters is that we say, Yes now. I m going to harvest the learning now. I m going to release thinking that I know what should have been. How could I know if I can t see through all directions of time and space? How can I know? Take that holy This includes looking at anything, including breath because truly genocide. If we claim that no good can come from our spirit speaks to genocide then we ll always be right about it in our us on the breath, that mind, and those people will not have brought some intake of breath. good somehow, the people who died will not have brought it. There s learning in everything. From our human perspective of feeling separate, we cannot know what the good is. We have to surrender the thought that we do know. I know that it s not easy. The temptation to be right, to hold onto grievances is very strong. It is our life purpose and mission to love instead. As long as we re holding onto the grievance and the unforgiveness we can never fulfill the holy purpose for which we are experiencing this whole life thing, and we are dooming ourselves to repeat it, and repeat and repeat it. So, we repeat it in this lifetime, and if we refuse to forgive, we take it into the next one. It is as sure that those who hold grievances will forget who they are, as it is certain that those who forgive will remember. If that s all you know about A Course in Miracles there is nothing else you to need to know. Be willing to harvest the learning. With Reverend Jennifer Hadley 21

So, take a deep breath here. I m going to give you one final thought and just before I give you this final thought, while you are taking your breath of gratitude, remember, too, that please, please, please, make an appointment for yourself to listen to these classes. You ve got 48 hours. They re streaming the whole time on the Internet. Invite a friend to listen with you and see what they hear. Talk about it. Listen to Colin s class with me. Do the work in his class. You can pause it. Do the meditation. You can listen. Pause, pause, pause as often as you want. Write notes in your journal. Do this work for yourself. Do not let this opportunity pass you by. How many books have you read that you never took to your heart? It was just information rattling around in your head. This is not what we re doing in this class. This is about you having healing. It s up to you. I cannot do it for you. Make an appointment with yourself. Sit with the recordings. Bring a friend. Hit the pause button. Talk about it. Bring it into your study group. And if you don t get the 48-hour replay, remember for just $5 and change per call, you can get the downloads and the transcripts. And then for a few dollars more, you can also get the CDs and the bound transcripts. So you can make notes in the transcripts. You can highlight. You can do all that stuff, but the main thing is that you take it into your life. That is where the rubber meets the road, and that s where the healing happens. Your little willingness is all that is required. Partner up with your Higher Holy Spirit Self, because your Higher Holy Spirit Self knows exactly how to bring the healing if you are willing. Your Willingness is All that s Required So, take another breath of gratitude. Here is what I d like to share with you: what I realized when I started doing this deep, committed work and believe me, I had done decades of work was that I finally really decided I was all in for love. So I was a slow learner. It took me a long time to release attachments to my opinions and my judgments. It took me a long time to be willing to forgive. So, if you ve got 10,000 things to forgive and they are running your life and you re collecting new ones every day, that s where you re starting 22 Radical Forgiveness Homework

from. Give thanks, because you re starting your healing now. Give thanks. It doesn t matter how long. It doesn t matter if you re 80-years old. It doesn t matter if you ve got 10,000 grievances. That doesn t matter. There is no big or small in God. There is only now and the opportunity to have a miraculous healing now. Your willingness is all that s required. If you place 10 things a day 10 grievances into that holy altar fire of Divine Love, if you offer them like a sacred offering to the Holy Spirit and you say, Please take this thought out of my mind, this judgment, this grievance. I m truly not interested anymore. I m done with it. I know I was never right and I m not letting it run my life anymore. I m reclaiming my life and I m interested in sharing my gifts and talents instead. I m a creature of love and light. I m not interested in suffering anymore. If you do that and it didn t even take 30 seconds with 10 grievances a day, and if you start with 10,000, then at the end of one year you will have reduced 10,000 by 3,650. In three years, you re going to be completely free of at least 10,000 grievances if you do that but 10 times a day, 30 seconds a time. So, it s according to your willingness, according to your commitment. Let me just tell you that I know you can do it, and I am dedicating my life to holding that space for you. I m inviting you to dedicate your life to sharing your gifts and talents with the world, rather than carrying your grievances with you everywhere you go. There is your motivation. Only you can inspire yourself. Closing Prayer So, take a breath here, and we re grateful going into prayer here. We re grateful right now. We bless the whole world. We are giving our gifts and talents. The day has come. We ve decided. We re not interested in playing small anymore. We ve decided to find freedom in our hearts and in our minds, and we are willing to partner up with the Holy Spirit. We are so grateful and thankful right now to know that our healing is happening. It s activated now. Love is our healer and we are born to love, born to be the perfect givers and receivers of Love and we re claiming it. There is no opposition. We ve decided. With Reverend Jennifer Hadley 23

We are free in our minds and we are accepting all the healing that is ours to receive. We are sharing the benefits with everyone because we re one with them. Today we re a healing presence in the world and we re so grateful that this day has come. We re resisting no more. We re available. We re here for God. We re here for our own holiness. In grace and in gratitude, we joyfully, joyfully let it be, and so we know that it s done, because we accept it and we allow it fully. And so it is. Amen. Amen, Amen. Yes. Thank you. I love you and I m looking forward to the next class. I m feeling the healing. It s so good. It s so good for your Yes. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I ll be with you soon in the next class. Thank you. 24 Radical Forgiveness Homework

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