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2 P a g e 2 Foreword Hello and a very warm welcome to this FREE E-Book. If you have downloaded this e-book that tells me, you are ready to make some powerful changes in your life. Professional stress, end of tether, relationship problems, life falling apart, hate your work, over worked, undervalued, stuck at a cross roads in life, need change but not sure what or how, depressed and tired. Sound familiar? Hmm, me too, this is exactly how I was feeling not that long ago. As you go onto read my story, I have little doubt at some point, you will probably think I ve written about YOU. Let me reassure you, you re not going mad, you re not alone and there IS a light at the end of that dark tunnel of despair. IF, you are willing to make some changes. Sounds scary doesn t it? Change IS scary that s why so many people don t change and stay stuck in situations that are making them profoundly unhappy. But you know what is even scarier? Barely existing rather than living your life and shall I tell something else? Without giving it too much thought or even realising it, you ve already taken that first step on the road of change just by downloading this e-book. Now, that wasn t hard or scary was it? YOU CAN do this. WE CAN do this. Together. So much love Lisa x

3 P a g e 3 I m willing to bet, you re feeling like you ve hit a brick wall and can t go on. You re probably also wondering how on earth you ll be able to relate to my life, or even how I could possibly relate to yours. By the time 2015 arrived, I was a successful Social Worker, self-employed as a locum, dotting around the North East of England, UK, undertaking short term contracts. I earned very good money. But, boy did I work hard for every penny I earned. I also had no spare time, no social or family life. It literally was just work, work and more work. I was also very good at my job, never without a contract, in fact there were times when I could choose where I worked because of the demands for my services. I m not trying to big myself up, I m simply making a humble statement. Why Did I Feel Like My Life Was Falling Apart? So, if in the grand scheme of things I was this successful, why did I feel like my life was falling apart and had come to a standstill? No matter what I did, I always felt like there was something missing, I felt stuck, like nothing would go right. One step forward and three back. As bizarre as it sounds, I felt like I was a voyeur, standing outside of myself and my life. Feeling like a complete stranger observing events all around me yet totally helpless to recognise who I was or what I had become. Have you ever watched that part of James Cameron s movie, Titanic? The scene when Leonardo DiCaprio and Kate Winslet are holding onto each other s hands as they spin around? That s how I felt. Except, I felt like I had no one to hold my hands and the spinning was constant with no let up. From a being a very young age, I knew my purpose in life was to help other people. As a Social Worker, that s what I was doing, helping people. So, once again I asked myself why I was I so unhappy. I felt like something was missing, but what? I was a stressed, twice divorced, 43 year old woman who had come to hate the work I did. Don t get me wrong I love helping people, but the work I was doing

4 P a g e 4 left me feeling lonely, lost, stuck yet extremely scared of making the life enhancing changes I knew I so desperately needed to make. I just couldn t cope with my work and I d cry at the drop of a hat, I couldn t understand why. I felt useless, incompetent, constantly anxious and always pining for the weekend. I d dread going to work but dreaded not being at work at the same time. At least when I was there, I was in touch with what was happening with my cases. When I wasn t at work, I just had to rely upon my over active imagination! When the weekend arrived I d feel a huge sense of relief. Ah, two days off, bliss. Yet, I d be too wired on the Friday night to truly relax and unwind. Saturday I d spend all day thanking the heavens above I wasn t at work. I knew just how much work I had waiting for me when I returned Monday morning! Sunday morning as soon as I opened my eyes, I d be hit by the sudden and gut wrenching realisation I was back at work the next day. The dread would hit me once again. I d immediately start worrying about my cases, had anything kicked off over the weekend? As Sunday wore onwards, the sense of dread would increase and the feeling of anxiety would become even more intense. Sunday night was usually spent in a state of heightened anxiety. The early hours of Monday morning I d wake up at a ridiculous hour and boom, my stomach would immediately be in knots. I would feel sick with fear, nerves and tension. Needless to say, Id rarely get back to sleep and would get up later feeling physically and mentally exhausted. Not an ideal way to start the day! Rush hour traffic was usually navigated through a sea of weary tears. The journey home was often undertaken in the same watery haze. I just felt like every working day I was in constant conflict with clients, managers, colleagues, service providers and myself. I just saw my life flying past my eyes in a blur. A few weeks prior, I was in my mid 20 s and now suddenly I was in my 40 s. Eh? How had that happened? I needed help and I needed it now. Like the last chance saloon, the town was too small for me, Social Work and my perpetual midlife crisis, (oh, did I also mention I was pre-menopausal too? Yeah Mother Nature has a way of kicking you when you re already down!).

5 P a g e 5 I Knew I Had To Do Something Before I Reached The Point Of No Return. But who could I turn to for help? I needed someone who would not judge me for being the failure I felt I was because I couldn t cope anymore. Everyone else around me seemed like they were breezing through life, so what was wrong with me? I have always been spiritual from a very young age, but as you get older life over takes you and you often detour from your spiritual pathway. I needed guidance. I knew deep down I needed to make serious changes, but I also needed validation I was right. So I booked a tarot reading. I ve always been interested in tarot and mediumship. I lost both of my maternal grandparents when I was 6 years old and I just know they have helped me over the years. So off I went to see a psychic medium for a tarot reading. I came away feeling much better, knowing, that I was right to consider moving away from social work. Totally, my decision and my free will, but having someone else give me that validation, was incredibly liberating. But the demands of work continued to pile up and I continued to get more and more depressed, not to mention desperate, yet still couldn t bring myself to make changes I now knew were right for me. So off I went for some energy healing. Fortunately for me, years previously, I had met my holistic therapist by chance at a wellbeing event. Since then, I had been going to her on a regular basis for energy healing which helped me enormously with the stress and anxiety I was always feeling. After every healing session, I always felt so peaceful and calm, (I still continue to have healing from her). Knowing how beneficial I found it, I decided I wanted to train in energy healing too. So I did. I also decided I wanted to learn how to read angel cards and tarot, so I studied and gained my relevant qualifications. My thinking being, this is something I could potentially do as a gradual change from social work. That was me really starting to think long term. But, I just couldn t see myself doing anything else other than social work. Yet it was social work that was making me feel like I was drowning in a sea of other

6 P a g e 6 people s despair. I just felt so responsible for other people. Why? I don t know, I just did. One of the lovely things about becoming attuned to energy healing, is when training, you network with some wonderful people, (mind you, I ve also met some awful people, being spiritual doesn t always mean nice, so please do your homework!). On one occasion a lovely lady I chatted to, suggested I have a soul realignment reading done and gave me contact details of someone in New Zealand. It was fascinating! I discovered in a past life, I had been a nun in a religious order high up in the mountains of Germany. I was not a Mother Superior, but still held a senior position and as such, was responsible for all of the other nuns in the order. The penny dropped, this is why I still felt such a strong pull to look after everyone. We were able to do some clearing work and this has gone such a long way to helping me understand that other people are responsible for their lives not me. I was so fascinated by the reading, I went on to study and qualified as a Soul Reading practitioner. But I still couldn t break free from social work. Enough Is Enough Following a spur of the moment desperate call to my holistic therapist, begging her to squeeze me in for some healing, we then sat and had a chat. Every time I had gone to her for healing over the years, like a broken mantra I have always told her I can no longer do social work. This time, she told me enough is enough and she was right! She helped me understand my feelings, helped me realise that I am not alone and although everyone else look like they are coping, they are usually going through their own private hell. I had a choice. I could either continue living a life of misery OR I could be proactive and start to make positive changes. I realised I had been living like a victim, feeling sorry for myself. No-one was going to come riding along and save me, I needed to save myself. If I wanted to make changes in my life, I was the one who would need to do this. So I did, even though this was incredibly scary.

7 P a g e 7 Now Fast Forward 2017 Since I had already trained in a variety of healing modalities, tarot, angel cards, soul readings and I also set about training in life coaching. So it just made sense to combine all of these under one roof. I now run my own successful holistic business. I help people like me and YOU, understand why or how your life is falling apart, be it because of work, family, relationships, health and more besides. I am helping people like you to make positive changes in their lives AND I LOVE IT. I ve never been happier. It s also opened so many doors for me, I have put together workshops, recorded guided meditations and am in the process of undertaking partnership working, with Sunderland University. I m hoping future generations of social workers can learn from my mistakes. It s like they say, when you re happy you enjoy the music, when you re sad, you understand the lyrics. Overall, I m much happier in my life now and that s because I m doing what I love. Helping people. I totally relate to J.K. Rowling, who states, rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life. I really feel like she said that about me and my life. You know sometimes, we need to travel down the wrong pathway in life, in order to learn about ourselves and boy do I know more about myself now than I ever did! But without any of these experiences, challenges, heartache, heartbreak and more besides, I would never be able to help others in the same position as me. I would never be in a position to help you. So in order for me to help you, I embrace every single negative experience I have ever had, it s been worth it. Yes, really I d do it all again. Contact Me: So please, use my story to help push yourself towards making the changes you know you need to make. I really would love to work alongside you whether you just need some basic spiritual counselling, healing, understand how past life events influence you in this life or even a more ongoing program of life coaching. I can help you go from Storm to Calm and help you on the road from Despair to Repair.

8 P a g e 8 Contact: Lisa Watson Mobile: (+44) Based in Sunderland, UK and Stanley, Co Durham, UK. I am available to work face to face, or skype / facetime, therefore distance will never be a problem.

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