Often I feel as if my purpose here on earth is like a tidal wave. Sometimes I feel I am riding this SHOP EVENTS PREMIUM MAY 9, 2016

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1 LOGIN SHOP EVENTS PREMIUM SIGN UP! MAY 9, 2016 T h e G e r m a n S t a g e I was awoken this morning by two school children in the courtyard below the apartment complex chasing and yelling at each other in German. The harshness of the German language cuts like a blunt knife when the emotional intensity behind it is raised. I could feel it tearing its way through the muscles in my neck and sides and suddenly I felt out of my depth here on earth. Anxiety began to seep through my body. Often I feel as if my purpose here on earth is like a tidal wave. Sometimes I feel I am riding this 1 of 13 11/25/17, 10:00 PM

2 enormous wave perfectly, like I was made to do it. Other times, I realize the magnitude of it and it feels larger than what I can handle. This morning was one of those mornings. It is jarring to feel so confident one minute and so afraid the next. But I am convinced that this is the collective human condition and I am simply a mirror for it. Many people imagine that I am invincible. They imagine that I wake up and go to sleep with a sense of superiority and surety that is unshakable. But I do not. When I am in the flow of my craft, I appear to be invincible because I am not at war with myself. I am allowing the universe to flow through me. But sometimes, especially in the morning, I wake up and I am reminded of what I am doing here on this earth. I am greeted by the ineffable pressure that belongs to revolutionaries. And anxiety fills the vacuum left behind by self-confidence. This morning it dawned on me that I am a radical in the realm of spirituality and social change. It dawned on me that yesterday, I wore a Dirndl (the traditional dress for women in South Germany) and stood on a German Stage in Berlin on the Day of Liberation and provided a brand new perspective about Hitler and the social conditions that created the Reich. Suddenly, I felt like the part of me that is completely designed to be in this role is literally dragging another part of me that just wants to stay safe along for the ride. This morning that side of me wanted to shrink and just hide underneath Ale s sweater for all time and eternity. I feel nervous about writing blogs when I travel lately. Ever since I made the decision to write about the dominant negative and dominant positive vibration of each city I visit, I have become aware of just how identified people are with the place they live. Identifying with the place you live makes it really hard to see that place objectively. And when I write about my impressions of a city and a demographic of people, people who identify with that city or with that demographic take it personally. They feel criticized. It is tempting to think that someone like myself who is authentic about my true feelings (whether they be negative or positive) does not mind upsetting people. But the truth is, I do mind upsetting people. I hate the idea of traveling to a place and making people feel bad about themselves or bad about where they live. The problem is, I am internally called to create 2 of 13 11/25/17, 10:00 PM

3 personal change and social change and to do that, awareness of what is calling for change is the principal ingredient. In this line of work, the universe does not send me to the highest vibrational places on earth. Instead, I am lined up with areas of the globe that are calling for some form of social change. After having been in Berlin for a while now, I am convinced that the main reason Berlin was the place I had to come is because Berlin is the city that will lead Germany s progression. Like a heartbeat, the change that is initiated here resonates outward and is eventually adopted by all of Germany. I can feel such a readiness here for a change in the social dynamic; especially related to the emotional aspect of relationships. Never have I been more aware of how necessary it is to demolish the concept of the guru within the human race. It is not doing anyone any good. Yesterday s workshop proved to me that one of the strongest expectations people have of spiritual teachers is Omniscience. This expectation is especially strong in Europe, where people are more identified with education than anywhere else on the globe. People who value education to this degree dream of being all knowing, only because of the fact that they have learned that this would exalt their value socially. And yesterday, as I met person after person, I became acutely aware that people 3 of 13 11/25/17, 10:00 PM

4 expect me to know everything. I am supposed to have read every book ever written. I am supposed to know every person that has ever existed. I am supposed to know about every subject under the sun. This is a bit like expecting someone who owns a radio music show to have heard every song that was ever played over the course of history. Having the capacity to see beyond the physical dimension gives you the capability to tune into specific frequencies. It does not mean that you are a walking, breathing Google. I am frustrated that so many Indian gurus have reinforced this falsity for the sake of their own social exaltation. Not only does it hurt spiritual teachers (like myself) who are willing to reveal our humanity, it makes their followers see themselves as deficient and limited. It widens the gap between them and their disciples. This creates devout followers, but not radical social change. I have been thinking in bed this morning that education is only as good as it does. So much of what we learn, there is no good reason for learning. We learn nothing about life skills that could actually help us to thrive as an adult. We learn no relationship skills. We are given no financial education. We are not taught about how to live a healthy lifestyle. I was in math class every weekday for 13 years of my life. And I have only ever used a calculator, counted on my fingers or hired an accountant since I graduated. Being raised in USA, I took one class for 4 months of Geography. Today, if you handed me a map of my own country, I couldn t list all of the states by name. I had one single elective class for 4 months of History. The information was about rote memorization. For the sake of getting good grades, I was expected to pass tests which were purely about remembering specific dates in history and locations. Which I promptly forgot because it has no practical application. There is no goodreason to remember exactly what date in history a battle occurred. I took science for 13 years too. And I have used almost none of what I learned in my adult life. It is all information that is 4 of 13 11/25/17, 10:00 PM

5 getting washed away by time. My education feels like a waste. Almost the only thing I have used every day of my adult life is English. Learning how to read has enabled me to learn anything I want to learn about. It is the reason I have been able to teach through the written word. And I will tell you that the reason that I, personally got so much out of English is because it is a part of my career. Other people wasted time in the same English classes I took for years because the things they learned do not apply to their life. Every time I am in Europe. I am a match to being teased about Americans and their super poor knowledge of geography and history. And I laugh because it is true. Americans are on the ignorant side of the scale due to our school s priorities relative to education. However I am not convinced the over education that occurs in Europe is any healthier. To generalize, Europeans know so much. They are extremely intelligent. They are well educated. But so much of the information they are crammed full of serves no purpose. It s just that everyone is expected to know it in order to be respected in the social group. It is a strange feeling, almost like the weight of the purposeless knowledge, bogs them down and prevents them from taking action towards a sense of purpose. The main goal of education is to fit a person into a system so they can fulfill a specific role within the machine of society. But purpose cannot be contained to a box (which is what society is). And many people are born to create new roles rather than to fit into ones that already exist. So, society has as much capacity to prevent a person from finding and fulfilling their purpose as it does to enable a person to find and fulfill their purpose. The education system worldwide must change. It must change into a system that is 5 of 13 11/25/17, 10:00 PM

6 designed to give a child all the tools to learn and the encouragement to seek out information that interests them. It must change into a system that is designed to uncover and develop the unique potential inherent in every child rather than to cram every child into the same mold. The social molding in Germany is overwhelming. I have met so many German people on this trip that I love. I would take them home with me if I could. But overall, I find the German social culture to be terrifying. This is a culture that is so heavily identified with right and wrong. If you step out of line by half of an inch, someone is always there to angrily remind you to get back in order. I have never seen people go so far out of their way to tell other people what they are doing wrong and shame them into conforming with rules and expectations. Yesterday, I experienced the extent of this dynamic when I was driving around the city. I was in the lane that goes straight and no one was behind me but when I did not go forward when the light turned green, the people in the turning lane to my left started honking at me. NONE of them were being inconvenienced by the fact that I wasn t moving forward. They became infuriated that I wasn t following the rules. The famous German punctuality is just one byproduct of this social atmosphere. After two days here, I was already emotionally feeling like the only acceptable thing to do here and the only way to avoid being yelled at is to stand in one place with my back against the wall and to not move a muscle while not looking at anyone in the eye. I can see why there is such a counter culture of complete rebellion here. The inflexible and strict social control that citizens impose on one another is overwhelming. After trying to make no errors and feeling like it s impossible not to, a part of you just wants to scream enough and impulsively graffiti red spray paint all over people s houses and cars and faces. I feel that 6 of 13 11/25/17, 10:00 PM

7 in the future, I will be here in Germany again and I will be working with people to transmute the pervasive and destructive conditioning of perfectionism. As someone who has struggled and who still struggles with perfectionism myself, I am the perfect person to initiate this kind of conversation. However I am aware that the first trap I will fall into with the German people relative to healing the perfectionism complex is that many will then try to become perfect at being imperfect. Since landing here, I have felt just how much this area of the globe needssoftness. I have felt how much people need their uptight nerves to be soothed. If you are raised in harshness, you acclimatize to it. You do not even consciously recognize the need to be treated gently and with care. But the need is there. I wish I could get a group of thousands of the most nurturing, loving and soft mothers to gather in a park here at least once a week to hold people in their arms with soft blankets. Then I wish I could get the average citizen here to break down to the degree that they would actually let themselves be held. The Germans brace themselves against tenderness to the exact degree that they in fact need that tenderness. The same can be said of people in general. We tend to brace ourselves against what we desperately want to the exact degree that we in fact need that thing. We do this because we have been conditioned to believe that getting that thing we need leads to pain or that needing that thing is not ok in the first place. Ale s mother and stepfather flew into Berlin for the workshop. Of all things in the world, Ale s step dad owns a shop in Nice, France 7 of 13 11/25/17, 10:00 PM

8 where he makes jewelry; but not just any jewelry, jewelry of a spiritual nature. The kind you d find in a new age shop or at a spiritual expo. He is both jolly and kind. Ale s mother reminds me of a Gypsy mother. She has a mysterious depth to her eyes and demeanor that is common to people with esoteric ancestry. They got to see what it is that I do exactly in the world for the first time this weekend. They understand a tiny bit of English but to be able to speak with them, I will have to learn how to speak French. It is frustrating to want to share myself with them and to get them to share themselves with me, but to be unable to do either because of the language barrier. Much of our communication is happening through pointing at things at this point in time. Aside from the silence that wants to be filled up with language, we are very comfortable around each other. I am especially frustrated with being around French culture and French people because I have always felt a resonance with the French people as a whole and yet, I cannot communicate so as to make anything of that feeling of connection. I feel like if I learned French, I would click into place within the French culture. But learning French is proving more difficult than I had anticipated and to be honest, there is some element of pride in the French that makes them difficult to learn French from. Usually I get the feeling like they secretly want you to fail at speaking French so they can maintain a cultural superiority. I fly with Ale to France tomorrow with his mother and stepfather to attend his grandmother s 100th birthday party. Ale s entire family will be there. Blake is driving for three days by car with a group of our closest friends to the Czech Republic. We will meet him there by plane on Thursday for a jam-packed schedule of appearances there in the city that owns my heart, Prague. But we have the whole of today to venture even further around Berlin. And I plan to take full advantage of it. 8 of 13 11/25/17, 10:00 PM

9 Report Blogpost G GO O TTO OB BLLO OG GPPO OSSTTSS Teal's Blog " # + % & ' USER FEEDBACK 5 Co m m e n t s Fra n z i s k a Posted June 23, 2016 Report Thank you. I was very curious about your impressions. I left Germany at age 11 with my family. My dad who was into his spirituality took his perfectionism into his spirituality until just before he died. Then he softened. I have lived in New Zealand ever since and am so glad he brought me here. :) 9 of 13 11/25/17, 10:00 PM

10 I love real and authentic and your perspective really resonates with mine. Franziska L a i l a M Posted October 30, 2016 Report Hi Teal and who ever is reading this. I was borne on in Germany and grew up in India and the U.K too. Unfortunately I lived in germany for the past 16 Years feeling really at odd with the harsh and cold culture. I am so happy someone finally wrote so clearly what I was feeling all these years! I was always told to get and be tougher and not be so sensitive. Everyone around seemed to not understand that softness and kindness IS my character. Two things which are actially frowned upon in Germany as it makes you "weak". I am so happy I finally left th at country of bias and hate...thank you so much for telling the truth and opening some eyes. And yes! I do also believe some love and light would be perfect that country... L i l a Posted November 24, 2016 Report Coucou, salut toi! I looove reading your blog when I can't sleep -which happens a lot lately. This one I like especially because I suffered so much in school due to boredom at first, shifting into stress of pressure until I consequently became schoolphobic. Being told several times I was smart enough to accomplish whatever I want wouldn't help on the contrary. Every now & then I get strange thoughts in my mind, I wonder who placed them there, ideas of me going back as a teacher to make drastic changes of the system but there's still shadows for me to face from that for me so horrible time of failure & shame. I can totally feel the conception of Arno Stern & his approach of learning & experiencing life through art. We came here to create, right?...there's so much more to explore in the interior, at the core which es been undiscovered for many livestimes. Let's strip our souls, strive for awakening & believe the best times are yet to come. Thank you so much for your work, your love & compassion! you feel me & that means a lot to me. I also have roots in Nice, now I'm going to search a post about it ;-)) ~warmhugs~ C e r r a h Posted December 9, 2016 Report 10 of 13 11/25/17, 10:00 PM

11 Thank you. I lived in Germany for 10 years as an army brat daughter to a half Mexican Dad and German Mother. Thank you for validating the immense pressure I have felt all my life from having been brought up in an environment like this. It is not something easy to share, as Ive been called out for not being "strong" when I have tried to fight back some of these aggressive cultural norms. There is so much to say, but I already can see you understand and being able to thank you for that means alot. I have difficulty describing my upbringing to "Americans", and I try to tell them you have to see it to believe it. So thank you again for being brave and having the gall to tell them em its OK to chill the eff out! Simon 604 Posted August 24 (edited) Report Wow what you describe about the german culture is so true and sad at the same time. As you were describing this stop-light-phenomenon with people honking i was like "ouh yeah i know exactly what you mean" they do this even when they are on vacation oo running around to get nowhere fast. I was born here in Ludwigsburg... Germany :D (way south; stereotype is work hard, save money, always be on time) and raised close the danish border about 500 meters from the north sea and i think it's a LITTLE bit different here, maybe the north sea contributes to this. Even for me as a german it is quite hard with so many laws (written and unwritten ones soooo much Bürokratie (paperwork and paragraphs)). School became my enemy because it only seemed to keep me busy with things that didn't really interest me and i had no time left in the afternoon. I still think they want to put you into a strikt schedule to narrow down your spare time to a minimum. Keeps you from freethinking right? =P Maybe this led me to seek a more spiritual side of life. So i'm partially glad for it? Maybe i never would have stumbled upon your books and your great input hehe.., and thank you sooo much for it. Peace 11 of 13 11/25/17, 10:00 PM

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