Betsie! I wailed, How long will it take? I turned to stare at her. Whatever are you talking about?

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2 It was five hours after the Prime Minister s speech. How long we clung together, listening, I do not know. The bombing seemed mostly to be coming from the direction of the airport. At last we tiptoed uncertainly out to Tante Jan s front room. The glowing sky lit the room with a strange brilliance. The chairs, the mahogany bookcase, the old upright piano, all pulsed with an eerie light. Betsy and I knelt down by the piano bench. For what seemed hours we prayed for our country, for the dead and injured tonight, for the Queen. And then, incredibly, Betsie began to pray FOR the Germans, up there in the planes, caught in the fist of the giant evil loose in Germany. I looked at my sister kneeling in the light of burning Holland. Oh Lord, I whispered, listen to Betsie, not me, because I cannot pray for those men at all.

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4 Betsie! I wailed, How long will it take? Betsy responded, Perhaps a long, long time. Perhaps many years. But what better way to spend our lives? I turned to stare at her. Whatever are you talking about? These young women. That girl back at the bunkers. Corrie, if people can be taught to hate, they can be taught to love! We must find the way, you and I, no matter how long it takes She went on, almost Forgetting in her Excitement to keep her voice to a whisper, while I slowly took in the fact that she was talking about our guards. I glanced at the matron seated at the desk ahead of us. Engage Seekers in Dialogue Class

5 Ø I saw a gray uniform and a visored hat; Ø Betsie saw a wounded human being. And I wondered, not for the first time, what sort of person she was, this sister of mine what kind of road she followed while I trudged beside her on the all-too-solid earth.

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7 His name was Jan Vogel. Flames of Fire seemed to leap around that name in my Heart. Ø I thought of Father s final hours, alone and confused, in a hospital corridor. Ø Of the underground work so abruptly halted. Ø I thought of Mary Itallie arrested while walking down a street. And I knew that if Jan Vogel stood in front of me now I could KILL him. Betsie drew the little cloth bag from beneath her overalls and held it out to me, but I shook my head.

8 Betsie kept the Bible during the day, since she had more chance to read and teach from here than I did at the Phillips barracks. In the evenings we held a clandestine prayer meeting for as many as could crowd around our bunk. You lead the prayers tonight, Betsie. I have a headache. More than a headache. All of me ached with the violence of the feelings about the man who had done us so much harm. That night I did not sleep and the next day at my bench scarcely heard the conversation around me. By the end of the week I had worked myself into such a sickness of body and spirit that Mr. Moorman stopped at my bench to ask if something were wrong.

9 Wrong? Yes, something s wrong! and I plunged into an account of that morning. I was only too eager to tell Mr. Moorman and all Holland how Jan Vogel had betrayed his country. What puzzled me all this time was Betsie. She had suffered everything I had and yet she seemed to carry no burden of rage. Betsie! I hissed one dark night when I knew that my restless tossing must be keeping her awake. Three of us now shared this single cot as the crowded camp daily received new arrivals. Betsie, don t you feel anything about Jan Vogel? Doesn t it bother you?

10 Oh yes, Corrie! Terribly! I ve felt for him ever since I knew---and pray for him whenever his name comes into my mind. How dreadfully he must be suffering! For a long time I lay silent in the huge shadowy barracks restless with the sighs, snores and stirrings of hundreds of women. Once again I had the feeling that this sister with whom I had spent all my life belonged somehow to another order of beings. Wasn t she telling me in her gentle way that I was as guilty as Jan Vogel? Didn t he and I stand together before an all-seeing God convicted of the same crime of murder? For I had murdered him with my heart and with my tongue.

11 Lord Jesus, I whispered into the lumpy ticking of the bed, I Forgive Jan Vogel AS I pray that You will forgive ME. I have done Him great Damage. Bless him now, and his family. That night for the first time since our betrayer had a name I slept deep and dreamlessly until the whistle summoned us to roll call.

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13 Fridays - the recurrent humiliation of medical inspection. The hospital corridor in which we waited was unheated, and a fall chill had settled into the walls. Still we were forbidden even to wrap ourselves in our own arms, but had to maintain our erect, hands-at-sides position as we filed slowly past a phalanx of grinning guards. How there could have been any pleasure in the sight of these stick-thin legs and hunger-gloated stomachs I could not imagine. Surely there is no more wretched sight than the human body unloved and uncared for.

14 Nor could I see the necessity for the complete undressing: when we finally reached the examining room a doctor looked down each throat, another --- a dentist presumably---at our teeth, a third in between each finger. And that was all. We trooped again down the long, cold corridor and picked up our X-marked dresses at the door. But it was one of these mornings while we were waiting, shivering, in the corridor, that yet another page in the Bible leapt into life for me. He hung naked on the cross.

15 I had not known - I had not thought The paintings, the carved crucifixes showed at the least of strip of cloth. But this, I suddenly knew, was the respect and reverence of the artist. But oh---at the time itself, on that other Friday morning---there had been no reverence. No more than I saw in the faces around us now. I leaned toward Betsie, ahead of me in line. Her shoulder blades stood out sharp and thin beneath her blue -mottled skin. Betsie, they took His clothes too. Ahead of me I heard a little gasp. Oh, Corrie. And I Never THANKED Him

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18 1 Minute - DEBRIEF Ø Your Favorite pt. or what Helped you Ø Prayers